No.19409
Also seems nobody has thr intention to post in a Today thread
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No.19411 KONTRA
Had another flat inspection today. It's quite central but heavy traffic. The windows are quite soundproof, though. It did not seem worse than my current situation. So I would bite that bullet and continue living in a rather noisy environment.
Chatted with the landlord, shortly. He was curious about my job (title). I hope he chooses me - my wage is nearly four times the rent, nobody can't tell me I cannot build proper financial backups that way. The woman who got there first went away after she was told the decision for the new tenant will be made within a day or two. So she cannot wait until next week and another inspection she thinks might be better. Kek, what is she thinking? I mean she can do whatever she wants but flats are "handed over" within less than three days in most cases I'd say. You either take your chance or risk getting turned down at the perhaps better opportunity. The good thing is I also have lined up more inspections next week and at the beginning of the week new offers will come in as well. So the outlook is not utter shit at least for now.
>>19409Yes, what are Ernsts doing instead?
No.19415
Well, I think today was reasonably productive. I manage to translate a relatively long poem from Chinese I found in a book I was reading. (The book was in English, but it referenced this Chinese piece which I tracked down.)
I think I had fun with it. I still need to make a rhyming version of it but it should make for a nice little publication sometime and net me a bit of money.
Also did a lot of shooting with the airsoft gun. Basically I shot a mag, translated a line and repeated the process with some tea mixed in until I was finished.
In the afternoon mom asked if I'd like to go and buy some cake and I said "If you ask if I'd like to in the heat and this late, then no. If you tell me to go out and buy it, I'll go."
Anyway, there was no tea and that'd really tick me off in the morning tomorrow so I went out to buy stuff.
Got her the cake and some groceries too.
Afterwards I had an absolutely mediocre running session.
I fiddled a bit with the terminal on Mac to try and compress a PDF down because my kindle takes like 20 seconds to flip a page and it's not conductive to a good reading experience but I had no success. (In the sense that I figured out how to use brew and the pdf software in terminal, but once I have did what I thought would solve the issue successfully, it turned out not to be the solution in the end.)
I'm looking through the interview. They want me to pick a quote. I'll try my best.
No.19416
Been working. Saving money. Buying nothing, going nowhere. Reached this unexpected point where the numbers don't matter as they once did. As motivation. I could cut down my hours. Have more time to do whatever. But I don't. I work. I save. It is my life. My rut. Winter is coming. A season of counting off days. Not for decisions. Maybe the coming Spring will bring some changes. Maybe no changes are needed. Maybe I'm just tired.
No.19420
>>19416> Maybe I'm just tired.Then reduce hours. What are you saving for? Unexpected financial hardships, a home, potential family, retirement security? all of the above?
No.19421 KONTRA
>>19416It made me think how bad it would be if your ruin your health with your job in the long run and use all the savings or the largest chunk to mitigate the effects of ruined health afterward.
No.19424
>>19416>It is my life. My rut.Sounds like abusing work as an excuse to avoid life.
No.19431
>>19420[x]all of the above
>>19421Ironically, my job is the only reason I have health insurance. Private plans are too expensive. Employers have to offer coverage. For both corporations and the government, this is an effective scheme for discouraging unemployment.
>>19424>work as an excuse to avoid lifeSeems to be the case. Work is how I relate to, interact with, the world. My role. It's easy. Respected. Requires little reflection or thought, simply time and sweat.
No.19432
>>19416Your writing style gave me eye cancer and now I'm blind
No.19440
>>19439It's not the amount of sugar, but the amount of calories that makes you fat.
No.19442 KONTRA
>>19441Shouldn't you be seething in the news thread or something?
No.19444 KONTRA
Spent most of the day reading. I finished that book on Chinese tea culture and also read some Nietzsche and Mishima.
Had an okay lunch. Still experimenting with the new coffee maker.
I played some video games and then I went out for a run. I decided that instead of the usual 5 minute warmup and then 15 of running where I basically sprint the last 5, I'd just run consistently fast until 20 minutes but I ended up going over that to make the calorie counter go higher and then I really wanted it to end with me reaching 3.5km so I just kept going a bit longer.
It was very good but my feeling of power and harmony was instantly ruined by my father asking me if I had "turned off the lights".
It feels like I'm achieving incredible emotional lows tonight for some reason again. Just as I was thinking to myself that "Just as summer is ending, I am finally getting my things in order and I'm productive again" in the sense that I'm working on my stupid little projects and the like.
But no.
No.19458 KONTRA
I woke up, had the leftover slice of cake for breakfast so it doesn't go to waste and then I went to the store to buy bread and milk.
Didn't have any coffee, because my mother said I should stop drinking it. (Nah, I will keep drinking that shit probably tomorrow. Maybe just one weaker cup.)
Got an email from another editor that she's the one working on publishing the short story I translated and she told me it's an outstanding piece of work.
She just had some technical question.
I went out and read Lu Yu's Classic of Tea and the accompanying studies and notes but I didn't feel like I gave much of a fuck about it. Tried to read some more Nietzsche but I hated every second of it for some reason so I just went back inside and took a nap.
Honestly I was unreasonably mad for a lot of the day. I don't know why when I'm sleeping well, I'm not skipping meals and I'm exercising.
I actually had a good internet friend who moved recently and we're no longer in the same time-zone so maybe I'm just really bummed that someone I've been talking with every day for the past 2-3 years no longer "synced up" with me.
I tried to work on my novel translation but I wasn't really feeling it at all. I'm too despondent to take out the dictionary and work on it. I just want to sleep. Or something. The herbal tea isn't helping either.
Also got the test results back and apparently the treatment isn't working so I guess that solves the issue of "how do I get this ultra-specific antibody injection in China". (But it's actually seriously distressing.)
By the looks I also gotta start planning out my calendar again. I have a few assemblies coming up.
Also got invited to a get-together where we will see off a classmate going to Japan. It'll be on a field where we plan to roast salo. I honestly don't want to go. She showed me the door. I should just say I can't.
No.19459
I am still trying to understand how americans are using "nigger" as an insult.
If we take the analogue here, "Kanake", I have problems finding applications for it that are not directly related to them.
I don't yell KANAKE or call someone one like I would call them a retard or asshole or something like that, yet "nigger" seems to be a kind of catch-all insult among certain groups of people, even going so far to use it as an interjection where normal people would say shit or fuck or godfuckingdammitpieceofshitwhydon'tyou work youdumbfuckingmachineIhateyou or something like that.
And while I have no problem in general with -ist insults (because imo insults should be effective, and -ist insults seem to be usually very effective, I guess because of the taboo), this inflation, if you can call it that anymore, in usage of "nigger" among imageboard netizens has really put me off from even just thinking it when a black person is behaving in an irritating way, whereas "Kanake" comes automatically whenever one is being annoying in my presence.
Can that be a way to cure oneself from this kind of behavior? Spend a day screaming all epithets you can think of and then being sick of them?
No.19461 KONTRA
>>19459Why are you shitting up this board?
No.19462
>>19461I am seriously discussing things. If you get your panties in a twist whenever you encounter le heckin racism, that's your problem and maybe you should stop lurking imageboards. It might be contagious.
No.19465
>>19459African Americans are seen, by some, as the physical embodiment of every negative thing. From there, it's a small matter for the word once limited to their ethnic group to evolve until it encompasses behavior and qualities associated with that group. Rather than a literal descriptor, the slur is a means to transfer hatred felt for one thing onto another.
That said, it's use on imageboards is more often a simple act of social transgression.
No.19467
>>19465Hm, yes, that seems to make sense. The explanation I mean, not actually using it.
>That said, it's use on imageboards is more often a simple act of social transgression.I don't agree here though. With how it's used, it's way beyond mere edge, almost like a compulsion; at least that is my impression.
And then there is the kind of people who think yelling NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER is the peak of any kind of humor.
No.19468
>>19467>people who think yelling NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER is the peak of any kind of humor.I agree, this is not fun. Much like racoons, Whiteness-challenged persons* are humorous to watch, as long as they remain in captivity or are in a far away country.
But as soon as racoons are released into the wild, they become an invasive species and a major pest.
No.19469 KONTRA
>>19466>Other children survived here without such signsHow about those that didn't?
I don't have any statistics about the usefullness of those signes, but i just assume that neither you, nor the person responsible for the writing on your pictures does have any reliable numbers conserning this matter. It's just assumptions based on the need to be an edgy asshole, being against things that in the worst case have no effect at all and in the best case a postive one.
Considering that a sign like this can't hurt anyone and costs the city close to nothing, you really have to be very special to spend time and energy on being that edgy.
No.19470 KONTRA
>>19466He
>>19461 is right you know. It's tired to read your shitty Germglish posts about "Hahaha stupid gutmenschen got owned" or whatever schizoid rant you shit into the fucking blogposting thread about the greens being traitors.
You're incredibly unpleasant, and also the cancer that is killing this board.
No.19471
>>19469>How about those that didn't?There parents are too blame, for not educating their children and not watching over them properly.
>in the worst case have no effect at all and in the best case a postive one.It has a negative effect, because it is an annoyance. They can't tell anyone how to drive, they do not have that right. Yet they are trying to. Who do these people think they are?
>>19470Gutmensch viel?
No.19472
>>19470I am not the one the Ernst you are referring to was referring to, as should be evident by my posts lacking the characteristic schizoid style and actually using "proper" english.
I personally think that since brick has died you were getting comfortable with being the edgiest (in your self-image) Ernst on this board and now getting outedged made you mad jealous, bro.
*dabs*
*drops mic*
*spreads asscheeks*
*diarrheas in your specific direction*
Maybe if you all stopped feeding the troll and instead reported him things would be different No.19473
>>19472Oh come on. They banned me on reddit for accumulating an absolutely absurd amount of negative karma with just five days. What am I supposed to do?
No.19474
>>19471>They can't tell anyone how to drive, they do not have that rightHonest question: Did you ever talk to a medical professional about your mental state?
Some people just have a flawed character. They're misserable assholes and you can't help it but maybe you actually have some mental dissorder that could be treated?
I know, the tinfoil running trough your blood wouldn't allow it, but it could improve your quality of life.
This is not meant to be an insult or in any other way mean spirited. I'm just serious.
https://www.stiftung-gesundheitswissen.de/gesundes-leben/psyche-wohlbefinden/hilfe-bei-psychischen-problemen No.19476 KONTRA
>>19475>the "I only post about how other germs are annoying and I am so smart" germanball of course has to chime in and (at this point) avatarfag too with his dumb tired old reaction pictureFrankly, I was expecting you way earlier.
No.19477 KONTRA
>>19476You and your musing are annoying.
>>19474 is right. I can only imagine your friends - if you have any - are likewise people that would yell at a TV screen if a politician from a centrist party is shown.
No.19478
>>19467I think, it's related to a strong taboo on this word and in general American state ideology. Saying "nigger" must feel like a huge relief for an American living in politically correct environment, studying CRT in university and going though diversity training in his workplace.
"A forbidden fruit is a sweet one"
No.19479
>>19474Oh, I don't actually believe everything I post.
But after spending a few years on kc, I decided to stop fighting them and join them instead.
No.19480
>>19477Struck a nerve there, huh? Watch that assbleed, friend.
>y-you have no friends!Interesting, I actually suspect that about you.
I doubt anyone can stand your fart-huffing for longer than the moment you start talking. Which is probably why you need to come here, so you get any interaction at all. Or because you won't get punched in the face immediately for being such a pretentious cunt.
But now we're starting the "no u" cycle again, unless of course you decide to be the bigger person and just stop replying.
No.19481
>>19475No need for the double quotes. That word actually is in the oed. Sounds like Germlish, but it's bona-fide English. Surprising, isn't it?
Of course, the problem with telling you this is that you can use the knowledge you gained to hide your power level. But I like to score points now and then.
No.19482
>>19475This picture which you repeatedly post looks like it was taken from Tumblr. And in general your behavior and talking style are quite feminine, in a "sassy bitch" way.
You aren't cis-male, are you?
No.19483
>>19480Thanks for the effort, bro.
No.19484
>>19482>looks like it was taken from TumblrI took it from brick when he posted it.
No.19485
A 2m tall bodybuilder friend of mine got into a heated argument about the n word while on a date. He defended his right to say it so vehemently he didn’t get pussy that night.
No.19487
Ramping up proper tea consumption to pre-university levels. Had like 1.5 litres today. Strangely enough it's a lot less taxing on my stomach than coffee is, even when not drinking it alongside stuff.
I read a book of near-eastern myth fargments from the bronze age. I just wanted something different honestly.
Not sure if this was a good decision in the end, but I learned some new stuff. Also made me take out my bible a few times.
Checked my schedule for my classes. It won't be that bad. They also shuffled around the lecturers again so I won't have to study under that one Chinese teacher who makes me develop stomach ulcers from the stress.
Mom told me about a job offer. I'm going to apply probably. My class schedule doesn't look unbearable. Probably because I worked off 1-2 classes during my BA. And I also haven't had the 2 extra ones from my college membership added.
Had a good run again. I've decided to change my approach and instead of running fast I will probably try to run longer.
It still feels really good.
Afterwards I watched some anime online with friends. I think that and the running sorta got me out of my slump. I think tomorrow instead of trying to work on my translation at night I will just not pick a new book to read outside and work on the translation instead.
>>19457Funny you say that, because actually, parts of the lighting outside are set to switch automatically off and you can use a remote to turn off other lights, it's just that the receiver for the remote seems to have broken because of the rain so now I have to manually plug the lights in and then unplug them.
No.19488
>>19485Peak boomer behavior
No.19489 KONTRA
>>19457Ei biddu :DDDD
>>19485I wish I was the jacked giant who stood up for his beliefs despite the unsurmountable odds and personal losses. But no, I was born weak and now I'm going to shape shifting into a leftist for personal gain.
No.19492
>>19485It makes you look slightly deranged and maladjusted when you place so much importance on saying negroe that you get in an argument over it.
The woman probably wants as many negroids in Europe as possible, for sexual reasons, and when someone says negroe and does not buy into the humanitarian yadda-yadda, she fears that her true motives are about to be revealed and she will be found out as a pervert with an overwhelming desire for black men with oversized appendages.
He should just have calmly explained to her that he knows that she only wants negroes in Europe because they have big dicks, and that he can read the minds of dirty little whores. She would have been impressed and would have tried to prove him wrong by going down on him right then and there.
No.19493
>>19488He’s a left wing zoomer. He probably would be quite more right leaning if his main friend groups were not belonging to a young artistic class.
His one of these people who got into
looksmaxxing and it worked, he started having sex at the same time. The side effect is that it made him neurotic about his body, other’s body and power dynamics.
No.19494
>>19493Tell him to stop watching Tate and Walsh.
No.19495
>>19494If you are so much smarter than Tate, why don't you just get yourself a few Lambos? Oh, what's that, you can't? Then maybe you are NOT smarter and should shut up, bcuz he's right and you are wrong.
No.19496
>>19494That won't work unless you suggest him an alternative.
He probably doesn't have a father figure who would tell him to deal with women. And meanwhile feminist belief system pushed by power structures is obviously unfit and harmful for young males. This makes them search for other options and fall for info-gypsies such as Tate.
No.19497 KONTRA
>>19496>He doesn't have a father figureFor all we know, the guy's 20yo, 2m, jacked as shit and gets laid all the time. He failed with that wokey, and now, you think he needs a father figure or someone that tells him how to deal with women.
Are you high on weed or something?
No.19498
>>19497When writing my post I was thinking about typical Tate fan rather than that specific guy (who maybe doesn't even watch Tate).
No.19504 KONTRA
>>19502Skrr Skrr in mein Audix2
No.19506
>>19505Make sure your teeth don't get stolen
No.19507
The Internet Archive lost.
https://blog.archive.org/2024/09/04/internet-archive-responds-to-appellate-opinion/I really fucking hate corporations and everyone who supports their InTelLECtuaL PrOpeRTy nonsense.
No.19508
I will pass out and regenerate my workforce to the sweet melody of Rolf Röhrig pulling apart human rights.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SykX6tx8MCM>>19507An insidious way to hide your anti-capitalist attitude.
I would not have been able to write my MA thesis without the books available on the Internet Archive No.19509 KONTRA
>>19508Libraries and interlending are capitalist and haram.
No.19516 KONTRA
>>19509The topic was intellectual property.
No.19524
Ah fuck I forgot to hit send. Time to re-write it I guess.
Anyway, I skipped lunch and wasted the entire day because I was simply feeling down. Didn’t work on my translation until after my run.
Basically my run’s the high point of my day. My legs feel like they are made out of lead I don’t mind. Though the abdominal muscles hurting a bit is a bit concerning.
Got like half a page into translating after my run. It’s a little progress but I went a lot further than expected.
Need a new bedside book. Tried reading Walser but I had to put it down after 20 pages because I just didn’t vibe with it. (My fault.)
Applying to that job is making me feel anxious. On one hand, I want the money. On the other hand, I don’t know how much it’d negatively impact my studies. I should probably apply regardless and just roll along with it.
Like it probably seems daunting right now, but once it actually happens it will seem normal.
I’d have three days off a week if gather it right and I’d have enough money to spend on random shit in exchange for not much work probably. Idk what goes into being a hotel receptionist. They would probably not hire me because I look like Rasputin. I should try still.
No.19525
Rough day at work. But it's over. NFL kicks off tonight. Two teams I hate. Will still watch. I'm American. It's the law.
No.19526
>>19525>. It's the law.Not very FREEEDOM of the lawmakers
No.19532
>>19524>Idk what goes into being a hotel receptionist. What is a lobby boy? A lobby boy is completely invisible, yet always in sight. A lobby boy remembers what people hate. A lobby boy anticipates the client's needs before the needs are needed. A lobby boy is, above all, discreet to a fault. Our guests know that their deepest secrets, some of which are frankly rather unseemly, will go with us to our graves.
No.19533
>>19532I’ve known someone who did a small internship in a luxurious hotel. Apparently he was solicited more than once by lonely middle aged women to "keep them company at night".
No.19538 KONTRA
Finally entered all my classes into my diary. Looks like it won't necessarily be that time-consuming. Honestly don't know. I just hope what one of my friends said isn't true and the language classes won't be too hard. Supposedly even those that underwent the interpreter training specialisation have a hard time keeping up. I think if I just apply myself I can do it. Like she said "Ernst, I'm worried about you." (No, she just acts motherly towards everyone, she has a boyfriend, whom I'm told is just like me but 10 years older working as an astronomer or some shit.)
Okay rethinking the entire day kinda ruined the mood boost now that I think about it. I don't want to think about how hard my classes will be.
Started reading a book on shinto. So far it's interesting but it's another one of those gay 200 page academic monographs.
Also had another coffee today to test its effects on my mood and it was negligible.
>>19532My life is NOT a Wes Anderson movie.
No.19539
>>19538>My life is NOT a Wes Anderson movie.Your loss. You could be banging 20 year old Saoirse Ronan RIGHT NOW.
No.19540 KONTRA
>>19539Yes, my loss but it's still factually incorrect.
No.19541
>>19538>My life is NOT a Wes Anderson movieIn reality, something important to consider is that, at some point, you will have to insert your penis into a vagina. You can't run away forever.
No.19561
>>19538>it's another one of those gay 200 page academic monographs.You can put these books down if you want to. I haven't read one in a year. Next months I have my MA for almost a year. Shieeet.
I read MG stuff and Marx, thoughBtw MA: don't you worry, I cannot imagine that an MA anywhere is in humanities is "harder" than a BA. It is the same topics, the same drills. Just that people expect you to write and talk better, more in-depth and sophisticated about it. Which will be the case if you where able to improve these during your BA - which I guess happened.
No.19569
Woke up. I felt fine. Mom was baking something. She left some french dough and I put some salami on it with cheese and had that for breakfast. For lunch I had some goulash and then a slice of chocolate cake a bit later. Basically save for the hearty soup I ate nothing but junk today. (Well, I still have my usual glass of milk left.)
I lazed around in bed a bit after breakfast like not even sleeping I was just laying down and doing nothing. It felt pleasant.
Continued reading the book. Had my usual run and also translated two more paragraphs. Today was an okay day.
Oh and I also fixed my study for the conference volume because "nyenynenehehe it's not not the gay standard we set" so after I don't know how much intense frustration I actually managed to fix it and send it in and they said it's okay.
Told them to not expect me to provide deeper citations for ctext shit. I marked the chapter and gave the original text next to the translation I did anyone with half a brain will find it. (I appealed that this is fine in oriental studies and they lapped it up so I just hope the reviewer isn't a massive dick and this should be fine.)
>>19561I'm actually enjoying this one right now. It's only like the past 2-3 I didn't like but they were so short I finished them anyway.
Well, actually last night instead of reading the Shinto book I took out the bible to check a reference and read like half a book from the Old Testament.
Honestly I'm not afraid of the seminars/lectures. I'm only concerned with the two Chinese language classes I have, one of which is a generic language class, the other is "Interpreter and translator training" and supposedly both are very harsh.
No.19570 KONTRA
Another day being let down by the Deutsche Bahn. If you barely use trains, and EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME there is some issue, it's not a statistical aberration anymore, it's the rule.
Talked to a spanish family at the train station. The man told me that even in Spain, with all its flaws, at least public transport works.
Overhead someone say "the only reason to get a car is the Bahn".
By now I am starting to believe that the Bahn management is actually moles from the car industry, because nobody can be THAT incompetent.
They (managers and their cronies in politics) should all be thrown in jail, right after everyone who ever had to suffer from late trains kicked them in the face.
No.19577
>>19570I paid for my ICE trains but I could have taken regional trains and it would have been the same time or even less. A fire between Berlin and Hannover and a technical problem in the Frankfurt area caused massive delays all over Germany basically, almost all Fernverkehr.
It's not just the management. The Bahn did not see any proper investments for decades to guarantee smooth operation, is blocked by annoying Bürgerinitiativen and the Fernverkehr does not really have its own tracks (some exceptions: Schnellfahrstrecken; also lack of investments in that case basically).
Spanish high speed trains have their own exclusive tracks, same in France. Makes for smoother operations and faster travel.
No.19581
>>19570> by now> by nowIs that a joke? Are you dense or oblivious?
Richard Lutz is exceptional in that he is the first DB-CEO in the history of DB-AG who is
not a former Daimler-manager. All three DB-CEOS from 1990-2017 were a former Daimler-managers.
Mehdorn and Grube were not only former Daimler-Managers, but also former MBB/DASA-managers, so you can charge them not only with being moles of the car industry, but also with being moles of Airbus.
But I'm the schizo, remotely diagnosed by Dr. Ernst, and I don't cite monographies of marxist professors as sources for my claims, so you should definitely disregard this post.
No.19593
Today felt like it was the last day of summer. It was still over 30 degrees but there was a constant slight wind and the sun felt paler somehow. I woke up and then I slept in a bit after breakfast. Then I decided to wash my hair on a whim before going out for lunch to some Italian place because my mother wanted to go out to eat something. (The point was that she wanted to leave the house and drive.)
It was pretty good. After that I had some tea and read for an a bit. I didn’t want to waste the last warm day by being inside too much. Finished a long chapter and then I came inside and rested a bit online, after that I had a run and a second shower and then I translated a bit again. It seems like each day it’s getting easier and easier. I think once university starts and I can just sit at the library for a few days I’ll be making marvellous progress with this.
My mood was good most of the day. I don’t know what changed. It’s only now that I’m tired that I’m feeling down. I think something I read triggered it but I can’t for the life of me remember what it was. The effect remains. Anyway, time to sleep and then greet the first day of the semester head on.
No.19596
It's monday all over again. It's all so tiresome.
No.19597
>>19596>Bäa bää!Back to work wagie :DD
In my absence, I've taken to writing EC quality posts to a woman's DMs. She's wealthy and I require a rich woman to whore myself to in order to fund my studies.
No.19600 KONTRA
>>19596I nearly fell asleep in front of the computer, too little sleep.
Went to a flat inspection today. It was a really good flat tbh. I fucked up though by just writing to the property management a simple sentence instead making a sympathetic impression on why I like the flat and why it is perfect.
Instead, I wrote
>Dear Property Management Person,>I'd be interested in renting the flat and will be excited to hear back from you.>Best regards, ErnstNow I actually bite my ass why I just felt the urge to write a message right after leaving the flat. My tired brain forgot that it probably takes more than this. Though, the flat is quite big for one person
current people have child even, yet financially this place is within my reach and even cheaper than the place that is still lined up to be inspected and that is nearly 50% of my wage. A couple was attending when I left. But on the other hand, the third room is quite small and they invited me, so whatever. My shitty short message won't do the trick, anyway. I had an inspection like 15-20min walking distance last week and did not apply later on to rent the place because the area had nothing to offer. The place from today is very close to the subway station though, bigger, nicer and more calm and green and closer to the better supermarket.
No.19605
>>19597Damn you're really trying to pull a Marx huh?
No.19606 KONTRA
>>19605Not a Marx, that'd imply interactions with the same gender. I'm hopefully doing a Lenin, it's when you convince women you're a genius that requires sonbasketing from them, giving you more free time to pursue important subjects (revolution and lifting weights).
No.19607
>>19606Sounds more rasputinesque though tbh fam
No.19608 KONTRA
>>19607How about if instead we just meet some day and I castrate you, fam?
No.19609
>>19608That wouldn't be very cash money of you.
Why are southerners always so violent?
No.19610
>>19606You've warned Ernstchan against PUA and dating manipulations. Now you're pretending not to be reactionary in order to get a woman.
BTW I've lost a bet against gf and now I have to read "The second sex" by De Beauvoir as a punishment. Shit, if I had known how long it is, I wouldn't propose it.
No.19611
>>19610>making a bet with a womanlol
>making a bet with a woman without knowing you'll winlmao
>losing the betroflcopter
No.19613
>>19611How is it worse than making bets with men?
No.19614
>>19613It's like losing a shit test.
But that's why you're just a gambler, while I... am a player.
No.19616 KONTRA
Got bitten by numerous ticks during my camping trip. I have an appointment with the doctor tomorrow. Will update
No.19625
I keep forgetting to hit the fucking send button for some reason by the looks.
Anyway, I went to the doctor yesterday and he said that my values are fine but if I am feeling worse then I should take some extra light meds.
We also discussed my potential trip to China a bit and he said that he actually knows a former ambassador if I need any help with meds there which is funny because it reminded me how fucking small this country is.
Went home and had lunch and then I went back to uni for class. It wasn’t too bad. My listening ability was in the gutter but I could talk just fine I think.
The teacher we got seems accomodating. I don’t really feel like my stomach’s in a ball from being in her class. (Which is the case for a few of the Chinese teachers in the department.)
I got home and then had a run and watched a movie with friends online and went to bed.
No.19626
>>19617> website help at a movie magazinePlease tell me you're a student.
If people with actual work experience or degrees apply for such jobs, it means the economy is in the gutter.
No.19627
>>19626> it means the economy is in the gutter.Not all degrees were made equal, Ernst.
No.19631
>>19627I found a job in the private sector with my useless degree and you can too!
actually the degree proves to be quite useful for that wörk I'd sayWhat does website help helper mean? HTML or writing reviews and stuff?
No.19632 KONTRA
>>19616Everything is good but I’m taking antibiotics in case we find something we didn’t notice
No.19633 KONTRA
>>19631> What does website help helper mean? HTMLYou really think websites are built by some guy typing out html?
Do you also believe there's a little man inside your radio-receiver?
No.19634 KONTRA
>>19633How Autistic. Did you have a bad day at work?
HTML is a stand-in for technical shenanigans concerning the web page here. I know there is more than HTML to a webpage that it can existing.
No.19635
It was a tiny office with 3 PCs, boss lady seemed nice though the other guy working there was kinda autistic. The other senior dropped by for a few minutes, I figure he's in his 60s but kept using youth lingo like "cringe" which was kinda funny.
Got paid in cash for my hours today and they said I basically got the job.
>>19631>What does website help helper mean? HTML or writing reviews and stuff?What I did today was check for missing texts/images for film entries, then fill those out from available sources and add datasets for new films through a backend tool. Mostly just copy/paste, except for coming up with one-sentence blurbs or 2-3 sentence summaries based on longer reviews. Though it seems that writing reviews is also something I could be doing down the line.
It's definitely a student job and not exactly challenging work, but I could get my foot in the door to maybe get some opportunities to do something more interesting related to film.
No.19638 KONTRA
>>19634> say dumb shit> get called out> go all passive-agressiveSo you're on your period on top of being a dumb asshole
No.19639
>>19638You're chimping out on a man for not knowing some nerd shit.
BTW Web1.0 when people literally typed HTML was much better when a current situation when a webpage generated by a new shiny framework weights dozens of megabytes and loads noticeable time on a modern computer.
No.19641
>>19635Sounds good tbh.
I guess only in Berlin you will meet people in their 60s who use the word "cringe".
No.19643 KONTRA
“Ernst, have you worked on your German during the summer?”
“No sir, I had a terrible summer” – I announced with a wide grin on my face.
“When the time comes I’ll just give you the book and tell you which parts to earnestly revise. We just need to have you correct your cosmetic errors.”
No.19644 KONTRA
Honestly it’s odd how I’m good at talking at a distance, but in the end, nobody wants to get any closer.
No.19648
>>19644The importance of being earnest
No.19658
I have milk which expires on the 12th.
"Is this still good? I think today is the 11th."
I think
How could I forghetti!
No.19661 KONTRA
One odd moment from yesterday was that as I was buying a croissant for breakfast on the way to work I heard someone play Waltz no.2 by Shostakovich on a violin and it was indeed a joyous thing to hear and I readied some pocket change until I realised it was "that guy" playing and then I immediately decided not to give him money because he's awful. He could just play the violin but he blasts music alongside it from a shitty bluetooth speaker. Absolutely degrades the art. Of course, the philistines do not seem to care.
No.19666
*ominous autumnal chanting in the distance*
No.19675
After that I walked home but on the way I realised that ah, whatever it's not that late and I'm literally standing there and I can choose to get on a metro that takes me to a pub where the others are drinking or go home and I just let my fucking legs do the choosing and I went to the party to see the two classmates off. I ordered a tonic and found them, I mingled a bit with one and went to find the other. Really, they were both happy I came after I told them I couldn't.
"Ernst, you're not in a kawaii outfit"
"Well, I still haven't worked up the courage to buy a kimono and a hakama."
"You really should've."
And then someone wearing a hakama and a kimono burst through the door. (I'll totally get some Chinese shit too, don't you worry, but I'm just really inspired by how the main character of Zetsubou-sensei looks and I've decided to also take after Machiavelli and honestly there's no trouble with wearing larp clotes at home to get into a more literary/working mood.)
Got introduced to some people
"This is the daughter of Professor XY"
"Don't be like that I'm sure she has a name of her own!"
I almost made a complement when her sister showed up and she said "I'm the older one" because if I'd been even slightly more drunk I'd have said "And the prettier."
Whatever, in the end I spent some 40 minutes there. It changed between awkward and pleasant. I mean, in the and was I sad? No. I did what I had to do and even if I didn't really manage to connect with the people there at least I went out and did something.
I like one of those girls that's going to Japan. I told her as much but she said she's not ready or something like that. But I somehow keep sort of running after her at times. I like her. I like chatting with her. And so on.
"I'll be gone only for half a year"
"Only? Even that's going to be a lot without you."
Indeed.
Honestly the strangest thing is that I'm not feeling crushed at all. Over the past few years I seem to have developed an incredible emotional resilience all of a sudden. Even if something "pierces" me I recover in half an hour at worst and I don't even remember it later and I'm really suspecting it's the meds. Which is funny because they have nothing to do with moderating my mood.
Anyway I came home and I talked with my parents a bit about my day. My mother apparently gave up her plan of having me find a job once I'm done with this seasonal shit. By the looks seeing me tired, waking up early and stumbling home late sort of scared her.
(Which wasn't part of a master plan or anything, I'm just retarded and I really shouldn't have been doing like 10-14 hour long days + the commutes and the waking up shit so like yeah, I'm going to "slow down" a bit next week.)
They are also elated the double degree opportunity and have already decided they will visit me while I'm in China.
No.19680
Work went fine today. I'm just barely able to stay on top of things. I picked up the knife I ordered from storage. I'm happy.
Otherwise the day was uneventful save for a running plotline of management trying to find three pizza places to order from for the office party. They cordially invited me but I declined because I was tired as shit and not hungry at all, though they were understanding that I had a "rough week".
Counting it together I put in 30 hours at work. Got paid too for the week. I'm considering buying a coat for the fall. Probably a trench-coat. I don't know what will come of it but I just felt really fucking cold mostly because of the wind.
It felt really odd to have money in my wallet. It was reassuring. It was there. Bought some stuff at the store.
Though I've decided to reduce my commitment from 30 to 20 hours a week like I'm not putting in another fucking 14 hour day where get up at 6 and then arrive home at fucking 11 after three fucking seminars.
(Though I sorta felt like a god afterwards.)
The only thing that tormented me today was a splitting headache in the afternoon when I got home. I skipped my run because I thought I was going to faint or something, but it got better thankfully. I'll try running in the morning tomorrow since it's no linger 50 degrees outside under the plexi roof.
No.19682
My sister has adopted a kitten. Last week. Introducing him to her 14-year-old cat has been a challenge. She's not eating as much as usual, vomiting, lethargic. We suspect she's depressed. That's what
Google says, anyway. Because her space has been invaded. The two are still separated most of the day, but when together the kitten is friendly and wants to play, while she is...irritable. Meows and turns away. Going to give her some more to adapt to this change before we remove all pet gates and give them both free reign.
>>19680>I sorta felt like a god afterwardsI find that a kind of delirium sets in at the end of a long day. Similar to a runner's high.
No.19683 KONTRA
>>19682>more to adaptmore time to adapt.
No.19684 KONTRA
>>19680>I'm considering buying a coat for the fall. Probably a trench-coat. I don't know what will come of it but I just felt really fucking cold mostly because of the wind. I think most "affordable" coats these days won't keep you really warm nor safe from the wind
like a windbreaker does for example Even coats that are affordable don't necessarily do this.
No.19687
>>19682> adopted a kittenShe will have it vaccinated and neutered, right? If she is not ready to spend those $1500, she should have just heel-stomped its head and be done with it.
No.19689
I'm actually hoping it's just an emotional adjustment with the older cat. Thinking back, she had vomited a couple of times in the week prior to the kitten's arrival. Combined with not eating and lethargy, I worry it could also be pancreatitis. If she doesn't turn things around soon, it's vet time.
>>19687>vaccinated and neuteredOf course. You can't keep an unneutered male cat indoors. They'll mark everything.
No.19695
Didn't feel like doing anything yesterday, thought I could do something today, but didn't feel like it either.
Because of reasons it also feels like I am letting down people.
No.19696
I woke up and tried running but it was cold and the treadmill also kept creaking. I had a small breakfast and made a checklist of the shit I need to do today.
Then we went out for lunch which took up a lot of fucking time. My mother has a talent for finding the most mid places thinking they are worth trying out so we went to a smalltown restaurant with no guests and mid food they made from pre-prepared items. Of course I was kind of not amused that I had to do this on a weekend after a day of work.
But they immediately started planning next week and they were like "Ernst are you interested in the everything-free expo?" (As in like, sugar, gluten, etc.)
"No."
"But it's nearby in that mall"
"I wouldn't be interested in it even if they held it next door."
Or like how from two weeks from now they want to go to a restaurant again and "Why can't you spend an hour of your weekend on us?" because I don't want to it's that fucking simply I'm busy I want every single hour for myself. My sister felt the same way (her schedule during the week is even more awful than mine, commuting between uni and work 2-3 times a day) but she was too meek to say anything besides mentioning how she's tired.
We went to a café afterwards. It's like a "fancy" chain (it's not fancy it's just owned by a celebrity, the prices are okay anyway it falls into that category where it looks fancy but is actually catering to like not the fucking elite).
I wanted to get something mildly roasted, weak, maybe an Americano. So I ended up drinking Turkish coffee and it was marvelous. A real mood-booster.
I wasted most of the afternoon. I did some minor cleaning and then also checked out some of the Chinese vocab but I need to make a deck myself.
I'm gonna do it tomorrow. Though I know a lot of the vocabulary already. Idk if we will get tested or not.
I wrote an email to the new workshop supervisor and told her what I want to do and how things ran before and would it be okay and I also attached my earlier research to show what this is all about.
I've decided to tackle the Four Canons of the Yellow Emperor this year. Hopefully I can develop it into a full thesis for the MA.
Went for a run with proper clothing and this time I broke my record. Somehow. Felt really fucking good.
I was possibly running a light fever though. We will see.
Also checked my weight because I noticed that I needed to get my belt tighter but apparently despite all the running and stuff I'm still the same weight, just somehow thinner. Feels like bullshit somehow but honestly being able to just walk and go to places really fast feels fucking good.
The verdict is that I didn't put nearly enough work into the shit I was supposed to do today instead I wasted it on an outing with the family and then also on watching anime with friends online. But tomorrow will be different.
Also I'm kinda not enjoying the Autumn weather. I'm suddenly very cold and I already noticed that "my right hand goes cold" thing that keeps happening during the Autumn and Winter seasons that only gets solved by like wearing extra socks and robes.
>>19682I sorta get workaholics now in a sense. You get to brag about your long week and you really feel like you're going places.
No.19705
I was driving home last night and turned on my headlights. The dashboard displays immediately dimmed. Naturally, I knew exactly what had happened: the car's battery was dying, the alternator needed repair, and a squirrel nesting in my engine had chewed though critical wires. Got home. Looked it up. Turns out this is a feature. The dashboard lighting dims because a bright dashboard in the dark can be distracting. I simply never noticed it.
Yes, I do panic and assume the worst in every situation.
No.19706
Can't find a specific knife anymore.
I have a million giveaway swiss army style knives sitting in every drawer, a bunch of Moras around, a throwing knife under the bed, an Opinel for opening packages and stuff and a switchblade (possibly soon to be entirely illegal) I use for cutting sausage and fruit and such when I'm on the road, AND a specific Buck style folder which I just can't find anymore.
It's not in the usual places, but I have no idea where it could be, and it's driving me insane.
No.19709 KONTRA
>>19706> soon to be entirely illegal Screwdrivers are soon to be entirely illegal unless there is a padlock on your toolbox.
No.19710 KONTRA
I think today went okay. I did some administrative stuff and made the decks, but I ended up wasting so much time that I didn't properly study them. Or make the translations for the upcoming classes next week so I will do them on my day off. Not off to a great start. Yeah I should seriously cut back on chatting with people online.
Checked out the Chinese Society and Culture class I'm having. Lecturer just uploaded his covid lectures and we're supposed to write essays. Last week's materials are just "Six Chinese and Western (propaganda) videos" which I found funny.
Honestly otherwise not much happened I just arranged a meeting and said I'd to a 60 minute seminary presentation on Chinese writing and its relations to linguistics.
I've decided to go with Pleco's flashcards because it's much easier to just have Pleco generate them automatically. I think I should have actually just been bookmarking every single word I ever had to look up in the dictionary. Feels like waste in a sense.
Had an okay run. I decided to bump up the speed by half a km/h.
I remembered that I wanted to buy the Kröner edition of Nietzsche's complete poems and I'm anxious to do it a but. I will probably do it tomorrow.
Basically I just found one webshop that seems to be having competitive pricing for foreign stuff and it's very tempting. (I actually slipped up and placed a pre-order for an album of Persona 5 concept art because for a 500 page arbook it was deceptively cheap. No, I didn't pay in advance.)
No.19722
>>19721>Also watching videos on how to drive an automatic car. Just what the fuck is one supposed to learn from such a video?
Just don't brake with the left foot.
DO NOT BRAKE WITH THE LEFT FOOT, there, saved you time.
No.19723
>>19722Simply remind myself of how PRND are used? I only had this in driving school once and I probably did not listen because I had to learn manual back then and I imagine I will always prefer manual. It's not necessarily self explanatory.
No.19724
>>19723But why watch a video when you can just read it up in 10 seconds? Or figure out the meaning of the letter in like 30 seconds on your own?
No.19725 KONTRA
>>19724The video explains it in about 120 seconds, I can even see it and don't have to imagine anything in my mind.
No.19726
>>19725See, this fills me with an uncontrollable rage.
Why is EVERYTHING a video now when I could have just looked it up and read it in a few seconds.
Instead I have to listen to some asshole with a faggy nasal voice explain the same shit I could already have in my head by the time he was finished with his dumb intro for his dumb channel.
Kill all "content creators".
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No.19727 KONTRA
I went to work and I was late because some dipshit got hit by the tram so I had to get on a bus that took longer and dropped me off farther away.
Got in a good run though trying to reach the fucking thing. That's something that I'm happy about. I basically don't really get out of breath when I need to do something urgently in the city.
Work went fine. I got a free pendrive because I asked my boss if I could have one of those marketing ones they give away for free to clients and she said yes.
Then I went to college. Had an abysmal Chinese class because I was a bit tired. We were told about requirements for the dual degree and idk if I'm going to make it honestly. I just felt like my Chinese is dogshit.
We got some mooncakes though. Never had one but they were tasty.
What I learned today is that I need to learn more. (And that those that took the specialisation instead of minoring in something are infinitely better than me.)
I'm gonna quickly do the remaining homework tomorrow in the morning and then have a good lunch and go to classes in the evening. (Unless my father actually goes through with his retarded idea of buying more construction material in the fucking fall and asks me to push the wheelbarrow because I think I will have an aneurysm if he decides to do that on my first half-day off.)
Watched some German-dubbed anime with friends. I was surprised how I understood it.
Feels like my momentum is wearing off a bit.
I've been sleeping a bit bad recently. It's not even that I wake up, I just get drenched in sweat for some reason.
Decided to skip running today because my legs just feel fucked. I'm gonna do it in the morning instead.
No.19728
>>19726Because peoples brains have rotted. Idiots will rather watch an Indian talk on YouTube for 20 minutes to barely touch on something they could have read up in the official reference in 10 minutes.
No.19731
I bought an external hard drive and spent most of the day backing up data. Got it at
Walmart. Looked at what they had on the shelves and read a few reviews. I moved on from my first choice, a
Sandisk SSD, after multiple reviews referenced drive wipes. An update was available to fix this, but no thanks. Moving on to HDDs,
Toshiba mentions were more favorable than
Seagate, so I went with that. Only 2 TB. Big enough for my needs. Everything on my desktop consumed under 500GB.
While I had been planning to tackle this for the past couple of months, I was prompted to do so today after
>>19730 No.19732
>>19726Not everybody is a super intelligence like you.
Sure I can read it, I can also just watch how it is actually done concretely.
You can read on how to dance or peform a dance sequence but a video will be more helpful.
No.19733
>>19732Cool story bro, but you were watching a video on how to drive automatic. It's not some big brain activity that warrants an instructional video.
Although dancing steps have also been presented in a non-video form for quite some time.
No.19734
>>19733Calm down, brainy. Some of us low IQs are visual learners - the motion picture bottom feeders.
No.19735
>>19734You're most likely taking the piss, but what could possibly be visually learned about driving automatic?
Pictures are also visual No.19736 KONTRA
>>19735>gets all worked up over somebody watching an instructional video>no uI talked about reading how to dance not using a diagram (picture) btw.
No.19737
>>19736>no uThere was "no u" there. Are you the "Nein du" idiot from /fefe/?
No.19738
>>19737Gegenfrage: do you drive automatic or why are you still engaged?
No.19739
>>19610>Now you're pretending not to be reactionary in order to get a womanI'm pretending not to be a reactionary, even without the woman angle. Ever since I began self-identifying as a leftist revolutionary, life has been better. A great weight has been lifted from my shoulders, I no longer have to be assigned the role of designated defender of the status quo when half-baked political topics come up. I am free to propose esoteric critiques without addressing any of the fundamental issues at hand. When facing leftist utopianism, I can either dismiss them and call them infantile or propose even more radical measures. There is a great intellectual freedom when you divorce your beliefs from the reality around you. And the meaningless platitudes? I've used the word "dialectical" more times in the past 3 months than in the rest of my life, and whenever I do, people think I'm making a thoughtful point.
I should have done this more than a decade ago. The secret ballot allows me to be a revolutionary by day and a soulless European social democrat by night.
No.19740
>>19739This post gave me cynicism
No.19741
>>19740That's how you know he is a real leftist.
No.19743 KONTRA
>>19739Is that how fact-checkers are born?
No.19745 KONTRA
>>19743I think most of those types would take the opposite route, maybe starting off as rebellious lefties and turning into respectable centrists.
No.19747
While skimming through archive.org I discovered that they have a lot of books from Paladin Press.
https://archive.org/details/paladin_pressI have come across this publisher quite a few times in my internet lurking history, usually from some share threads on the 4chongs over 15 years ago.
And seeing all of those things in one place is kinda funny, because in part it seems like their entire business model is selling books to teenage boys and guys like Napoleon Dynamite's brother, but others are so out there that they feel like coming straight out of a Simpsons joke and one has to wonder if it's not satire or simple "anything written here is pure fiction" stuff, like the books on becoming hitmen and smugglers and whatnot.
No.19764 KONTRA
>>19761Can't even imagine the amount of hole I'd get if I actually murdered people. Never had the makings of a red commando.
No.19765
I just started my uni year. I didn’t like the course that much and the teacher asked us if we knew what the invisible hand was. I found that asking such things to students already years in humanities was beyond ridiculous so I raised my hand and asked if it was in reference to the invisible hand. Nobody laughed or even remotely reacted and the teacher seemed concerned
No.19767
>>19761I like the shirt in the second picture. Maybe next summer it's time for sleeveless T-Shirts. I'm pulling off a Garweg.
No.19768
>>19766Imagine being a robber and still being poor.
No.19769
>>19768They were not poor, though.
Klette had like, what, 250k in cash in her flat I think?
Garweg made counterfeit documents in his construction trailer located at the local anarchist enviro green trailer park. Those anarchist DIY leftists have more in common with craftspeople than any AFD politician tbh.
No.19770 KONTRA
>>19769>MUHHHHHHH AFDO B S E S S E D
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No.19771
>>19769>>19770You shouldn't argue who is better, RAF or AFD (both are based). Instead you should unite your efforts in the fight against the Big Satan and its minions from the Green Party.
No.19774
I went to work. On the metro I noticed a guy reading a Dazai book with a yellow cover and I didn't know which one it was so I began looking up Dazai books on my phone and I accidentally found out someone published a Hungarian translation of No Longer Human and I was distressed.
They used a translation of the English title which felt disappointing. I looked up the translator who seems to know Japanese so I was disappointed that she either didn't care or wasn't able to make a proper Hungarian title using the Japanese one.
Honestly Dazai is like Nietzsche, Shostakovich, the Nibelungenlied and Persona to me, that is, something which I like deeply, I take out from time to time and it feels like a little hidden treasure to myself and I care not what others say about them, I want to judge, interpret, experience, dare I even say consume them on my own without anyone telling me what to do.
So in a sense a Hungarian translation appearing felt like someone is now forcing their interpretation on my sphere somehow.
Maybe secretly I just hoped that I'd learn Japanese and I'd be the one to do it.
It's all crazy and nonsensical but that's what it is. I felt like an inner sanctuary of mine was assaulted.
I decided to go to a bookstore after work to check it out.
Work went uneventfully and I recovered my mood as the day went on.
After work I went to the bookstore and they told me they have no copies on the spot and that it's also nearly out of stock in all the stores, so if I want to see it I should order it which I did because it's also suspiciously cheap for a book and I have a job and I don't give a shit if it's total fucking ass because the translator is an uninspired retard then I will just hand it off to someone into Japanese lit I know or give it to the college library or whatever I am my own man I can do whatever I want it's not MY Dazai but that doesn't mean experiencing it will necessarily destroy MY version in my head.
Anyway, I then wasted some time recovering at home. I skipped a run and only did like 30% of the translation I had to do because I spent a lot of time talking with friends on voicechat.
So I'm getting up early to throw it together and finally catch some respite afterwards.
Read about the coming floods a bit. Apparently we're expected to get the heaviest floods in 1-2 days in Budapest. The metro already had some sandbags in place and they were calling for volunteers at the university.
I'm probably gonna stop spending so much money now because I have a Nietzsche volume coming in, I have that Persona 5 artbook and also I want to buy opera tickets because they're playing Nixon in China and I NEED to see that shit.
No.19775
>>19774>total fucking assI can't tell how to post but this is psychological poison. We need to do better.
No.19776 KONTRA
>>19775Can you tell I just came out of a 2 hour voicecall with a bunch of Americans?
No.19777
>>19776I hear you, and I have the utmost respect for you.
My thoughts and prayer go out for you.
No.19778
>>19776No. Speaking with friends should have improved your mood. Especially given that Americans are positive people, always smiling and so on.
No.19779 KONTRA
>>19778No it was great I'm just picking up a lot of twitter slang because of it.
No.19783
Humans are lonely being the only intelligent species on Earth. We should breed smarter and smarter apes or dolphins until they reach our level.
No.19784
I woke up very fucking tired. I had a piece of chocolate covered quark for breakfast with some tea and I then set to translate the article which I postponed last night. It went remarkably fast and I sent it in before the deadline. It wasn’t actually hard I was just really fucking tired yesterday. (My fault.)
I then tried to run but I utterly failed and quit a third of the way in because I just couldn’t handle it and I don’t know why. For two days now I’ve been barely hanging on.
I had a shower and then made lunch and after lunch I went and took a nap. Almost woke up too late. I had a coffee and a slice of cake my mother made and then I left for class.
The class was held by an actual interpreter who did work at the highest level (so stuff like actually meeting Xi Jinping and the like) and it was really interesting.
We played a “game” where she tasked us with coming up as many synonyms for words as possible and I sorta feel embarassed that I lost most rounds. It really fucking shows that I’ve spent the past few years reading in English, German and Chinese instead of picking off a good Hungarian book from the shelf.
But still, since I came in second when someone who already won a round won again, I was given a gift. She jokingly called it an “Oscar” and it’s kind of a big deal because apparently it’s tea she got from Xi Jinping so I tried to do my fucking best to win a round because if I didn’t I’d have been so fucking mad. (Everyone got one anyway.)
Anyway, I’ve learned that even though I’m producing good translations my linguistic horizon seems to have shrunk so my next book’s going to be Hungarian. I’m thinking Krasznahorkai or Márai. Márai would probably be better.
I’m honestly really disappointed myself I got put on the spot and I gave an uttely mediocre performance. (Well, I was tired as fuck but that’s not really a good excuse, considering I spent most of the time feeling smug as shit about my published translations.)
After that I had the Chinese environmental seminar which was yet again spent either bored out of my mind or going on an odd tangent about the well-field system. Does the lecturer feel insulted? Intimidated? Fascinated? I don’t know. She seems like a fine girl. Woman. I shouldn’t look down on her. I guess I don’t. She’s just young. I’m not in love honestly I’m just unsure is she’s capable of dominating a room with her presence right now. This is probably a very odd tangent to go on even by my standards. I don’t think I ever seen someone teach with less of a presence in a room.
Anyway. Then I had German but before that I went and had a few burgers because I was fucking starving for some reason. Class itself went fine. My German’s in a better state than my Chinese for some fucking reason. Went home. On the way home I listened to friend streaming anime with a German dub.
Tomorrow I’ll have work but I’m unsure how I’ll get there because of the flooding. It’s not really that my workplace is flooded it’s rather that crossing the river might be a bitch. I’ll check in the morning but as far as I can tell now nothing will change for me.
Hopefully the floods will subside over the weekend. They say the bulk of the water will reach Budapest on Saturday.
I also made a budgeting table in excel where I’ve decided to register my incomes and my expenses and have them automatically add up. Put in the future expenses and it seems like that if I buy that opera ticket then I’ve already spent this week’s wages on stuff basically.
I just hope I can survive tomorrow properly and then rest at home and this weekend actually get shit done.
No.19787
A new episode of a podcast with a criticism of Lenins imperialism theory dropped and the comments are exactly as you'd expect them to be (i. e. angry MLs) so that made my day I guess.
No.19788 KONTRA
>>19787Is it like when they “critique” Marx out of context?
I mean sure, a lot of stuff Marx describes might not apply outside the context of the economic developments he wrote in, but even Stalin said as much that Marx couldn’t see everything that’s gonna happen so critiquing him for describing a victorian economy instead of what we live in now is kind of a pointless task where you are trying to make yourself look very smart.
Lenin wrote that book in a specific historical context where that paradigm of national capital tied to state influences is seeking to exploit new markets, fix its territories and then when there’s nothing left to carve up they can utilize pressure on the state to go to war and re-shuffle the slices of the pie.
That might not be applicable today after a hundred years of change in political culture (nuclear weapons, new hegemon on the block with a new style etc.) so if you’re just saying “Well Lenin’s wrong right now!!!” then what’s the fucking point honestly?
No.19789 KONTRA
>>19788>Is it like when they “critique” Marx out of context? No.
>if you’re just saying “Well Lenin’s wrong right now!!!” then what’s the fucking point honestlyThey are not doing that. Why are you mad?
No.19790 KONTRA
>>19789I’m not. I was just curious if it’s a criticism of contemporary applicability or a historical criticism and I elaborated on my point.
No.19792
>>19780Well, western cultural establishment preaches critical theory stemming from Frankfurt school. And it didn't make results of their work better, rather the opposite.
Leftists behave infantile when they try to ignore their ideology being put into practice.
No.19793 KONTRA
>>19788>“Well Lenin’s wrong right now!!!”He was wrong then too. Soviet Russia was engaged in imperialism in his day. All Lenin left for us in the field of critiquing imperialism are misguided souls who say goofy things about the inaplicability of the term "imperialism" to a non-capitalist regime.
No.19800
In suburban trains people look distinctly more troublesome than in the city. More tired, unhealthy and hobo-like. One of them even looked just like Michel Houellebecq.
No.19802
I went to work. Stuff went all right. I got paid. On the way home I picked up the Hungarian copy of No Longer Human, showed it to a friend who majored in Japanese who was somehow even less enthusiastic than I was.
Went to the store. I bought the most expensive coffee they had.
I went for a run and I finally managed to run 25 minutes again.
Put a fuckload of PDFs on my ereader. Started reading Márai.
Not much else has happened.
No.19805
>>19800>One of them even looked just like Michel Houellebecq.Because it was him.
No.19816
We still haven't put the old cat and the new kitten together. For her part, the old girl is eating again, and no vet trips were necessary. Ordinarily, this would have prompted further integration, but the kitten's vet visit turned up a parasite. Not worms, but some other thing that can be transmitted between cats who share a litter box. Treatment is a six-day course of medication. So, a stay of execution, of sorts, for the grumpy girl who doesn't want a new friend.
No.19818
I woke up and I decided that I’m going to clean my room so I did. Went and wiped off a lot of surfaces, I put away the books I got over the past few months and then vacuumed the place and I have to say it looked pretty nice.
Honestly I wasted a colossal amount of time yesterday on looking up classic Chinese detective fiction and then downloading PDFs and stuff like that. I also ended up reading some but not too much really.
I went running and then I also watched some anime with friends again. Worked on my assignments a bit too but I’m nto done at all.
No.19819
>>19817How did the Russian guy distract you?
No.19820
>>19819He looked really cute
No.19823 KONTRA
>>19820The actual answer I will receive from him is a spergy discussion about film or politics or Russian culture that made him lose sight of the sisters in the process.
No.19824
>>19823My answer was less gay
No.19825
>>19824Not sure what is homoerotic about this but you will probably be happy to explain and display your expertise.
No.19828 KONTRA
>>19819He just stepped between us into the group and started talking to me. Though he complimented my physique
obviously in a strictly non-gay way and gave me some speed later so I kinda forgive him for cockblocking me.
I realized I got the girls contact through the telegram group for the event so I might just text her up like "was nice seeing you again, would've liked to talk with you more, how about meeting for a coffee?"
Tbh it's the kind of opportunity I thought I've been hoping for for a while but now I'm trying to come up with excuses not to do it.
I guess doing it tomorrow once I don't feel hungover anymore wouldn't be too late either.
No.19829
>>19828>I guess doing it tomorrow once I don't feel hungover anymore wouldn't be too late either.It would not. If you don't do it she won't say yes. If you do it she either says yes or no. And while a "no" scares you it ultimately is better than not doing anything and feeling bad as well.
No.19830
I went out to buy the coat and I ended up spending way too much money on clothing at the insistence of my mother. But I did get a pretty nice trench coat. It's black. When tried it on I asked "Don't you think it's a bit err...?" and she asked "You mean it makes you look like a Gestapo officer? A bit but it's fine."
We went to a bunch of stores after that but we ended up going back and getting that one simply because it was the best on offer. We had lunch at a mall.
At home I wasted a lot of time and also assembled a deck for studying. I've looked at the classical Chinese homework but I'm just "not feeling the qi" as my mother would say. I did a really good run. I think I'm ready to go up another 5 minutes and run for 30 minutes straight.
I think I'll just go to bed early instead to recover fully. You really don't notice how staying up after midnight fucks you up until you start going to bed on time again.
I'm gonna start going to the library on my off days because right now the way I'm doing things is just not fucking working out AT ALL and I'm kinda mad at myself for it.
No.19831
>>19830Nice haul. Did you also get a matching fedora and katana? :-DDDDDDDDDDDD
No.19833 KONTRA
>>19831No I already had those :DDDDD
No.19834
My younger brother has become a left wing mystic
I shaved my head to 1cm
I’ll go on vacations to Istanbul with that Muscovite in February
No.19835
>>19834> a left wing mysticWhat is it like? He's a Wicca? Or Satanist? Or dialectic?
No.19837
>>19835He thinks Popper was wrong and pseudosciences actually help the understanding of the material world and human condition as some kind of metaphors of the real world. He also believes purely materialistic revolution leads to something horrible, a cold calculator of violence. I think those opinions grew out of spite towards Leninism and the way him and Stalin killed all the artistic avant-guarde of the USSR
No.19838
This guy at my work he is also first year trainee I swear he is miscarriage today I took his durtstlöscher from him and then he went and told the boss dude but boss dude is cool he said him to leave him alone with such bulshit and then everyone laughed at the miscarriage i swear this evening i go shisha my cousin is driving he has car from my older cousin
No.19839
I have to work, but I don't want to, so I am dragging myself through my open tasks trying to figure out when it could possibly end.
No.19842
>>19837Isn't this some kind of niche leftism that grew lately?
>>19839The workday went by in a breeze because I had to do a lot. There was some downtime lately which I don't really like. I rather have tasks in front of me (which are manageable, though).
>>19838Do you feel personally humiliated that non-Germans blow up ATMs in Germany?
No.19843
There's a new link "HowTo" in the menu bar at the top with information about how to connect to Radio Ernstiwan, Ernst TV and the Quake 3 server. Now all HowTos are at one place. The older HowTos on the radio discord will be removed, in order to keep board-related things on the board.
No.19847 KONTRA
>>19842Thinking Popper was wrong is not niche leftism, it's leftism, period.
No.19848 KONTRA
>>19847I was not referring to the popper part...
No.19849 KONTRA
Hey, I keep forgetting to send my fucking post and then I lose my elaborately crafted posts with quotes and the like.
I’m honestly exhausted as fuck. I thought I could rest today but I ended up agreeing to do a part in a student film.
I kinda wish I didn’t agree to do it but the combination of my ego and me not wanting to ruin someone’s dream made me do it.
My mother keeps telling me “that’s life” when I complain I don’t have much time but realistically speaking, she leaves the office and then doesn’t have to think about it. I leave the office and I have to go to university.
I just need to hang on while the temp-job lasts and then everything will be fine.
On the way home on the metro I saw a grumpy elderly lady who forced herself onto a seat taken up by the bag of some girl. She then proceeded to put her wheeled cart in front of the metro door so it was in the way for everyone. The girl didn’t pay her much mind on account of having earbuds in.
As I was getting off the old lady essentially forced me to take out my own earbuds and told me I have nice hair.
The Chinese class I had today was bad because I didn’t really understand what the teacher was saying in relation to the text but the moment she started talking normally I understood everything.
Took a valerian pill for the first time in a while and I felt more relaxed and I could actually work on the classical Chinese assignments that have stumped me for days now. (In the sense that I just didn’t feel like doing them.)
If I were honest I just want like one day off that’s not taken up by the family, assignments or work or whatever because right now I feel like I’m near my fucking limit.
(I know someone will tell me that “actually some people do this because they are forced to due to circumstances” and yeah it fucking sucks for them but that doesn’t change the fact that it fucking sucks.)
No.19850 KONTRA
>>19849> I leave the office and I have to go to university. Húngaro, por favor. I have same settis and it's great. I'm thankful for them. It's a privilege to be able to get by with part time work and devoting the rest of the time to academical pursuits. Between work, uni and juggling relationships, I genuinely have less than 4 hours a week to waste. It's great.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is:
Quit your bitching, sissy No.19851 KONTRA
>>19842>niche leftism that grew latelyMaybe. He doesn’t speak to a lot of people about all that, but he may read trendy authors thus his own conclusion that fall close to the zeitgeist. He’s also close to Christianism.
No.19852
>>19829Uh-oh, not quite ready to write it off yet but I got a feeling I might be getting ghosted again. But that's fine, after all I'm more scared of having to move this forward if she says yes.
Had a moment of clarity where I realized I've been on a slippery slope of p*rn consumption lately which I really need to cut out. And reduce how much I listen to music since it seems to set me up for moodswings.
I think I'm coming down with a cold. Feels bad to call in sick so shortly after starting a new job, but I might have to do it.
No.19855
I'm one of the real hustlers. When I come home I still cannot get over the fact that the day is almost done.
this will change once I moved which will be soon, once that is done I need to get more social
>she leaves the office and then doesn’t have to think about it
bro, she has very different worries to yours, trust. Once uni is over its performance problems fade with light speed and you are confronted with job, money and having your head above the water as good as you can. Not that more than enough people have this while going to uni already.
While I'm not particularly fond of going to uni again and giving me the stress of performing well I still would engage in research and discussions in exchange for office time.
No.19856 KONTRA
>>19852>get ghosted againMaybe. And that hurts probably.
But if you don't ask her nothing will happen. Shoot shots, take chances etc pp
talking to myself here. at least I chatted a bit with two women recently, maybe one of them will lead somewhere, I think one is interested I think - I got her number and she answers within a couple of hours, which sadly is a "good sign" No.19857 KONTRA
>>19852>I might be getting ghosted again I was recently unghosted by a woman who gave me her number months ago. I thought it was a dud and she just gave me her number because I looked unhinged and scary. We're on for tomorrow.
No.19858 KONTRA
>>19857I guess what I'm trying to say is it's never over, and getting ghosted is, sadly, good. At least it means your Ernstian self is doing something.
No.19859
Well, she responded now about a day later basically mirroring my message of "nice seeing you, it's great talking to you :)" and apologising for the late response but she just straight up ignored the part where I asked her if she wants to meet for coffee. Tbh, I'm not even mad, happy to learn these advanced conversational techniques of how to pull off a roundabout rejection :D
>>19856>>19858I realize now it's necessary and it also weirdly made me feel better about my recent previous rejection. And this time it's really no big deal since I hadn't invested too much into it.
I'm really willing to take some chances at this point but it just seems I rarely meet these kinds of women with whom I actually want to. I think I might have a fairly specific type I'm into and it's sabotaging my chances. Then again aside from going to house parties or concerts I also don't really go out of my way looking for women.
>>19857>We're on for tomorrow.Go get her, tigre
No.19860
>>19859I would advise you to casually pursue women you are not interested in. Getting ghosted by a magic lady isn't that bad when you're texting some goofy broad throughout.
No.19861
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>>19860>casually pursue women you are not interested inIf not for a twist and falling in love later on, I feel kinda sorry for these women from the beginning tbh - if they are interested that is.
t. other Ernst
No.19862
>>19861*nods respectfully in their direction*
No.19863
I woke up quite early. I went back to sleep for a bit and had breakfast, spent some time online and then had lunch and went to the city to do the movie gig. We were done in like 15 minutes or so. It’s going to be like a 4-5 minute movie and I’m the protagonist. I’m supposed to deliver a monologue at the end.
I told them I’ll manage so long as they don’t force me to watch it back every time.
They were nice to me. It’s apparently their third short film. I actually went to German class with one of them and that’s how they found me.
Went to the library afterwards. I re-borrowed a copy of the Four Canons of the Yellow Emperor and I also found a 2020 Chinese book titled 秦漢時期的黃老思想 on accident which I borrowed. Hopefully it’ll prove useful.
Otherwise I spent like 40 minutes just chitchatting about random stuff. Mostly shittalking the Dazai novel translation. She didn’t know about it. I mentioned my newfound interest in detective lit and now I’m afraid he will tell someone about these sources and someone (one guy) will beat me to using them for a translation. Probably won’t happen.
German class went fine. Talked with the lecturer a bit about my translations since in an email he mentioned he has a few comments on a newer piece I’ve published.
Basically one was “Why use Pinyin?” and the other was one place where I worded something a bit odd and it wasn’t as good as the rest of the text but otherwise he said that this is a marked improvement and a proof that “everyone inevitably does grow up”.
Also turns out I need to get to the city as usual for a consultation with a lecturer tomorrow. I thought she wanted a Teams meeting but no, it’s meatspace time. In the office, 9:30 sharp to talk about my research.
Also I tried out my new coat and honestly wearing stuff like this once you’re not a teenager just simply works. I have the pants and the shoes and the bag to make it work I just look normal. Trustworthy even.
Actually had an ambulance driver ask me to help him make a narrow left turn through a gate as I was walking home after class. It wasn’t a state operated ambulance though, it belonged to the Sovereign Order of Malta.
>>19850Oh it’s great to be able to devote your time to academic pursuits. Too bad my classes seem to get in the way of that.
A spectre is haunting Ernstchan. A spectre of getting ghosted. No.19865 KONTRA
>>19863> Marked improvement> Everyone eventually does grow up Roasted.
No.19866
Interacting with people drains me.
My job warrants interacting with people, especially over the phone, which I really, really hate.
Blessed the one who has a job he doesn't have to do for the money.
No.19867
Nevermind, magic lady sent me a voice message this morning that she's kinda busy under the week but free on saturday to grab a coffee. Not gonna do the mistake again of going on a date while sick so I told her we'll have to postpone to next week since I got a cold.
Wörking from home now doing dumb data entry for a film festival. Kinda boring but cozy.
>>19860I know it seems to work for some, but the few times I tried it they either saw through that I'm not really interested and dipped or things turned very awkward when I could not summon the appropriate passion once we got intimate (it only got that far cause they were actively pushing for it). The idea of having sex without a shred of love kind of terrifies me.
No.19869
>>19866>Blessed the one who has a job he doesn't have to do for the moneyI guess even people who do what they love hate that it is tied to making money that warrants they exist more or less.
>>19867From my experience passion without love is possible but it only lasts the two or three hours you meet and it fades quicker the longer the meet up lasts. And it feels shit to acknowledge that some don't notice you are not really interested or ignore it.
Good she said yes, though. Wish you all the best and it was the right thing to postpone it.
No.19870
>>19869What an infuriatingly superfluous, pointless and retarded video.
Imagine watching that kind of stuff.
Imagine SAVING that kind of stuff.
I would be less appalled had you posted diaper furry art.
No.19871 KONTRA
>>19870>vertical format>it must be shitGet a life, lol.
No.19872 KONTRA
>>19871Nobody said anything about vertical format.
lrn2read lol
No.19873 KONTRA
>>19872I was "translating" from schizo to English
No.19874
>>19867>it only got that far cause they were actively pushing for itYou can say no if you don't want sex, we spent so long teaching women to say no when they don't want to fugg, we forgot to tell
Ernsts men. Dialectical and incelian.
No.19875
>>19873>hurr durr schizoTouch grass, lol
No.19876
>>19871What's the fun in acting like a cunt?
No.19878
Been reading a journal I kept in 2021 and I think I may have gone insane at that one point in that time period.
Things I wrote show evident signs and expressions of sadness. Which is bad but ok, eveyone feels sad at one point in their life. But then what I write stop making sense from time to time. A really frightening line is one where I said that "the ideas I have in my head are starting to manifest in reality".
Have you gone insane once Ernst?
No.19879
I woke up and baked a pizza and then went to a consultation with the cabinet supervisor. Talked with the other Chinese cabinet member a bit who is new. She said she has “heard a lot about me”. It’s always odd when I remember that a version of me exists in the heads of other people. Anyway she remarked we still had 10 minutes and I said that “If it’s up to the lecturer then we have a whole lot of time.” So she was 20 minutes late. We checked her office and it felt nice to be depended on because the girl was too afraid to knock and said she’d “Let me do the honours”.
I honestly feel a lot less shyer. I just do things.
I presented her my research ideas and sources I had for it and at some point she said that “You can’t do this for your PhD” which of course prompted me to correct her and say that “It’s for my MA” and she said “I know I know, I was just thinking ahead.”
The consultation went well I guess.
After that I went to work and since one of my classes got cancelled I stayed for 5 hours instead of 4. My boss said she’s going to gift me a pen with my name on it. Or maybe it was just a joke. I don’t know. She also complimented on my outfit. (Well, they were brand new clothes so it felt fine. Yes, I was wearing the edgy trench coat.)
I left work but I noticed on the tram that I had left my charger at the office so I walked back because waiting for the one back would have taken longer and then I went with the next tram home. My mind was a mess the entire day honestly. I kept losing and misplacing things.
I had breakfast relatively late so I skipped lunch and only ate the two clices of pizza I packed when I got home and it promptly gave me a minor bout of food poisoning somehow which is great. I thought frozen dough is good practically forever but apparently even technology has limits.
Once I suffered through that I went back to college for class. I lost my bus pass on the way to the metro and I went back to look for it and since the bus I rode on was still there I crossed the road to a narrow island and knocked on the window and asked if I could check if it was there. It was. I took it, I thanked the driver, I did a silly halfway bow for some reason and then I wished him a good evening and left.
College class was fine. It’s an episode of “Look who’s back!” as we tackle “Asian Art History in a Transnational Context”! We will each be holding two presentations based on a chapter of a book. I decided to do a one about Sino–Japanese seal carving and one chapter titled “War and Pornography in East Asia”.
After class I talked a bit with classmates. We talked about work and stuff too and someone told us how much she earns at her job and now I actually feel better about mine because I guess I’m earning good money with this shit for what it is.
Of course I was an egoist cretin and I mentioned how I enjoy spending my money on books and tonic and the like, but I also said that “It’s seasonal. I might enjoy it now, but eventually it’ll run out. It’s like that popular quip from a video. So long as the wine lasts, I’ll keep going.” Kinda like a financial memento mori.
>>19878I don’t think I have ever gone insane, but I have manic episodes and depressive episodes from time to time.
Re-reading my handwritten journals all I can feel is that they are rather dry since they are written in this sort of pseudo-literary style reminiscent of the early 20th century.
No.19880
Got to work and had a text from my sister. As I was backing out of the driveway, she noticed my driver's side taillight was out. Fug. After some back and forth on the most efficient way to get that fixed, she offered to drive her car to the lot, take mine to a garage, and then drop it off after. Which she did. Even parked it in the same spot. Four new bulbs, cost with installation $33.67. Not bad.
For those keeping track, yes this was the same taillight fixture I replaced a few months ago. You're supposed to change the bulbs at the same time, but I didn't.
>>19878Never insane but I have moved through varying levels of anxiety and agoraphobia. My journals during those times are barely legible.
No.19881 KONTRA
>>19871> Vertical Format> It must be shitIt is shit.
No.19883
>>19878I had a severe mental episode in late 2015, early 2016. Schizophrenic thought process, delusions of grandeur, mind consumed by thoughts of God, prison planet, morality and total surveillance state.
I don't fundamentally disagree with most of my thoughts at the time, but the intensity with which they consumed me was indicative of fragile mental state caused by severe and extended stress.
No.19884 KONTRA
>>198782017-2018 was probably the worst I was in terms of mental health. My student bux had run out and I was too embarrassed to borrow money from my parents. Since I wasn't making any progress on my thesis anyways, I started a full-time internship at a big corporation to pay the rent. Most days I would finish my tasks in 1-2 hours and then spent the rest of my time browsing twitter and trying to trade crypto. It was my first "real" job so I felt extremely depressed thinking how this might just be what the rest of my life will be like, doing bullshit tasks in this corporate environment where on the surface everything seemed amazing, the pay and benefits were great, but the people there seemed miserable or in any case unlikable to me.
I did a double pincer on my mental health by consuming both alpha male grind culture and fringe schizo-accelerationist content so I ended up developing this hatred against... basically the world and being alive in general. I harbored this feeling of impending doom as if the economy was about to collapse or worse yet things would just continue like this, except everything would just slowly get worse day by day.
I ordered benzo RCs online and started experimenting with supplements and diets to cure my depression and insomnia but mostly it just made things worse as I started getting panic attacks and sleep paralysis.
Took a solo summer vacation to Portugal but all I did was read Nietzsche and Celine, get chased by dogs and make zero friends.
I had quit imageboards at that time since they were blocked at work, so I have quite a lot of random notes (crude attempts at writing poetry/songs, patently ridiculous startup ideas or lame faux-Nietzschean aphorisms), but it's mostly just funny to me nowadays. Except for the last one, that kinda spooked me. I have no recollection of writing that, but it doesn't seem to be quoted from anywhere.
No.19885
>>19884Did you translate that or did you really write that stuff in english?
No.19887
>>19886lmao the first one sounds like something by Bethlehem
No.19891 KONTRA
>>19884The vacations to Portugal while only binge reading Nietzsche and Celine remind me of a lonely train trip I did to Vienna. I got stopped at the border and striped because my passport was outdated, went back home to search for it, stoped my trip at Salzburg after the only interaction I had in a day was with a Turkish man telling me with a giant smile that Vienna’s girls where easy to "ficken" while mimicking it with his fingers. It think I also brought Nietzsche with me…
No.19893 KONTRA
>>19878>Have you gone insane once Ernst?Yes. No details, but it's a common pattern that occurs and is manifesting differently for everyone via personal problems.
t. took uppers (and downers in the beginning also) while staying awake sometimes for several days
No.19896 KONTRA
Nothing went my way the entire fucking day. I forgot to buy a new bus pass so I had to make a detour, then my mother said I need to help shovel gravel on the weekend so it's not even the question of me wanting freetime but having time to fucking study.
Finally spent some time at the library. I wasn't too productive but I was there. It's still a nice place.
The classes went fine I think. The interpreter training one was really interesting. I won a packet of tea again. I think I actually realised the secret of the synonym game.
German class was fine too. I showed the Nietzsche book I picked up ot the lecturer and had a short chat about how I think his poetry is bad but I kinda feel comforted by it.
I got home and then had another fit of rage over how none of the groceries I asked for were purchased so my meal plan is out the window now. I'll have to spend money on lunch.
I think the anger was mostly the weather. There's both a wave of warm and cool air entering the region and that drives me fucking mad whenever it happens.
No.19897
I left work an hour early today, instead of an hour late. A two-hour swing. Mentally and physically, it feels like a day off.
No.19900
>>19897Good for you.
Do you regularly work overtime? Do you at least get paid for it?
No.19904
>>19900Yeah, I work overtime every week. By law, any hours over 40 in a week pay one and a half times my normal rate.
No.19905
>>19896>I think the anger was mostly the weather.As a card carrying member of the Ernstchan anti-therapy gang, I'd have to recommend therapy at some point.
No.19906
I haven't counted, but to me it looks like half the threads in the catalog are Today threads.
No.19910 KONTRA
I got paid and I picked up that very cheap humidifier at work. Of course it was crap that didn’t work and no takesies backsies so I have to throw it out. Oh well. Honestly I’m not even in despair over it.
I made up with my father, though according to my mother my conduct made quite the impression on him.
It finally rained and I’m no longer angry.
Also I finally ran after skipping 4 or so days. I decided to go faster and I also dended up going for half an hour instead of 25 minutes so I basically just set a new personal best.
Felt fucking brilliant.
No.19911
>>19909Triple your post count with verb conjugation.
EcKinsey & Company approves.
No.19915
I will probably have a few weeks where I won't be on EC because I get my own place and I heard internet takes a few weeks. I won't use my phone to browse EC. Let's see how that turns out. I can already hear a German rejoice.
>>19909Because the present (today) is the ever pulsating glue point of past and future already.
No.19916
>>19915I once had to wait six weeks for internet.
And the current apartment also took several weeks, but they gave me some "mobile access" stick. Sadly I live more than 5km away from the next big city (one of the largest in Germany) and thus mobile reception sucks. It was enough to check emails.
That said, do people even have "landline" internet anymore? Everyone is doing everything on their phones anyway, aren't they?
No.19917
>>19916>adly I live more than 5km away from the next big city (one of the largest in Germany) and thus mobile reception sucks.Are you the northerner?
Well, shit anyway. Six weeks is tough. I updated my prepaid mobile contract and tripled my data volume for 5€ more per month. Should satisfy my needs, though not watching youtube while eating could become reality. I significantly use my phone more often to do things on the internet since commuting and work is where I spend most of my time now.
>do people still use landlineSure, streaming/video content is the big deal here. And maybe downloading games.
No.19918
>>19917Addendum: the first time I lived alone several years ago I got Unitymedia
NRW beste and it took not that long, a week or two max. Or is my mind memory playing tricks on me?
No.19920 KONTRA
I fail to get things done on the weekend repeatedly. I shoveled the gravel like it was asked of me. I had a bad headache throughout the day.
For a few hours I felt manic.
No.19922
They just installed speed bumps in the parking lot at work. Rolled over one for the first time today. Unpleasant. Even at 5mph. Avoiding them should be possible if I plan my parking appropriately. Stay near the end of rows and near entry/exit points to minimize the chances of doubling back if traffic is heavy.
>>19915Why does internet take so long to hook up?
>>19919Bacall.
No.19923
>>19922>Why does internet take so long to hook up?Not him, but basically, because this is Germany.
It took my colleague 9 months to get an internet connection. And this wasn't just nine months of waiting, it was nine months of beurocratic nightmares. There was a three-month period when she had a landline (all landlines are now via VoIP, by the way) but couldn't use it for an Internet connection, because the provider tried to set up an appointment with their technician by calling the landline during working hours. Every time she tried to schedule an appointment, they emailed her back that the appointment couldn't be set up, because she refused to take their calls. They agreed to call her mobile each time, but then continued to call the landline.
No.19924
>>19922>Why does internet take so long to hook up?Mainly bureaucracy. The old account has to be deregistered, the new one has to be registered, if you want to keep your numbers that has also to be done, and the isp companies like to take their sweet time.
Oh, and one company owns all the wires and everyone else has to pay fees to use their (badly maintained) infrastructure and there are court cases about this on the regular.
No.19925 KONTRA
>>19924This post needs to be fact-checked.
>and one company owns all the wiresTwisted pair subscriber lines are almost 100% owned by Telekom. But this applies only to twisted pair and only to subscriber lines. Vodafone owns and operates all coax subscriber lines. Local fiber networks are often owned by municipalities and leased out exclusively to tier-3 providers via long-term agreements.
> Use their infrastructure1&1 (Versatel) and Vodafone do operate DSLAMs in significant numbers, with their own uplinks.
> badly maintainedHow can you assess this? What kind of maintenance do you even think can or should be done on networking equipment?
No.19927 KONTRA
>>19926The truth does not fear fact checking. Your baseless slander has been exposed.
No.19928 KONTRA
>>19927The portogreek in defense of big telecom. Checks out.
The badly maintained infrastructure for example is a well-known fact, but the proofster Ernst would probably also ask for proofs if someone talks about badly maintained roads or municipal piping No.19929 KONTRA
>>19928>The badly maintained infrastructure for example is a well-known factYou think they don't oil the door-hinges on the gateways or maybe they don't re-pressurize the copper lines?
You have already made it more than obvious that you have no idea what you are even talking about. It would be better to shut up now.
In case you are wondering: your crappy data rates with telekom are a result of insufficient peering.
No.19931
>>19922>>19915How much do you pay for your internet and how much is the speed?
No.19932 KONTRA
>>19929Nobody has been talking about data rates. But good job making it clear you a) can't read and b) are just talking out of your ass.
No.19933
I had to purchase gasoline without ethanol. For my snowblower. Won't use that for another month or so, but as I had immediate need for lawnmower gasoline, I decided to buy something both small engines could use. They didn't sell it at the first two stations I visited. Only the 90/10 blend various regulations and subsidies have normalized. Found some pure stuff at the third stop. Available from one pump out of 20. The guy ahead of me was filling gas cans as well.
>>19931Close to $200 a month bundled with cable.
No.19934
>>19932Is this some not so-subtle attempt at trolling or are you actually abysmally dumb?
>talking out of your ass1) 1&1/Versatel and Vodafone do operate DSLAMs, even if the subscriber lines that are hooked up belong to telekom. You can find out by checking easybell, they use 1&1/Versatel as a carrier were available, Telekom otherwise. See
https://github.com/n-thumann/easybell-carrier-map, there is a tool that makes use of this fact. Here is a video of a nice man explaining to you that not all DSLAMs are owned/operated by Telekom.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1xBSXaytpA.
2) The coax network is not owned by Telekom and has not been owned by Telekom for about 25 years. It was sold in the early 2000s. The regional operators were subsequently consolidated and now, it is owned by vodafone. You can read this up on wikipedia, starting here. Quote: "Am 9. Mai 2018 gab die Muttergesellschaft Liberty Global bekannt, dass Unitymedia an die Vodafone Group verkauft wird.[9] Mit der Fusion von Vodafone und Unitymedia ist eine Monopolstellung beim Kabelfernsehen in Deutschland entstanden"
3) Regional fiber networks are owned by municipalities and leased out to tier-3 carriers. Example
https://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/NetCom_BW . Similar Model M-Net, where all the local public works own a stake in tier 3 operator. See
https://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/M-net From 1), 2) and 3), we can conclude that Telekom does indeed not own all subscriber lines, neither do all other carriers have to use their infrastructure. So much for me talking out my ass.
Now, we come to where you are talking out of your ass. You have not made it clear what maintenance you think should be done on all the "wires" Telekom owns. You have, until now, failed to explain how those wires should be maintained, how their maintenance is neglected, and what the consequences of this supposedly are. Educate me on the basics of wire-maintenance, please I beg you. If you can't at least tell me how a subscriber card, a controller card or carrier-grade Router should be maintained.
No.19935 KONTRA
>>19934Imagine having a meltdown over some throwaway post in the successor to the little brother of a german version of a nepalese yak milk fermenting board's clone. Are you banned on /fefe/ or something?
Get a life, nerd.
None of this would have happened if you weren't such a condescending piece of shit No.19936
>>19935>condescendingYou mean: someone knowing more than you? That must happen all the time.
>none of this would have happenedyou mean, you would not have been embarrassed?
No.19938 KONTRA
>>19936>You mean: someone knowing more than you? No. You can know more without being a condescending piece of shit.
So, let me restate: You're an illiterate, yet awfully smug piece of shit.
No.19939
>>19935Replying like this to a genuine informative effort post. What's going on?
No.19941 KONTRA
I can't fucking get anything done for some reason.
Ordered some books from China.
Hammered my budget a bit. Added a small table of estimated expenses that are certain or are just planned to happen. (Book preorders and the like that I have not picked up yet but are bound to happen or stuff liken that.)
I failed to buy opera tickets because they were sold out. Instead of running I ended up doing extra lifting.
No.19945 KONTRA
What a smug retarded pathetic little piece of shit
>>19938 is.
No.19947
>>199462017. Is that really Ingvar Kamprads Volvo?
No.19948
>>199462022. Buying crap for the apartment.
No.19950 KONTRA
>>19947>IVs Volvo.No, it allegedly is the Volvo the director of IKEA in the czech republic bought some time in the past and somebody sold on the internet as such.
>>19948Same here, just it's 2024. What kind of crap did you buy? I bought a small table (and will probably buy a second one because it can act well as a nightstand) and crap like a pack of drinking glasses, kitchen utensils, some stuff for the bathroom and unplanned two pillow cases because that is how IKEA makes money
no really, I needed those.
I cannot remember when I was at IKEA before this. While I lived alone in the past, that was in my home town and my parents gave me household items they did not need anymore. I still have furniture that is mostly gifted by my parents and what they bought between ~1985 and 2000s. But now for that little crap which makes a household running smoothly I had to quickly make decisions and frequent a few selected stores (including IKEA).
While I was there the first time in ages
on a weekend, which is always a mistake I vaguely remember Tyler Durden or Ed Nortons words about the homely nest that is so happily endowed.
No.19951
>>199462018 or 2019. It's been a while. No stores in Buffalo.
No.19952
>>19946Late spring 2024, went there to eat a lot of cheap hotdogs with friends
No.19953 KONTRA
>>19946A few weeks ago. I bought a french press.
No.19954 KONTRA
I felt fucking awful yesterday and I was afraid I stepped on a path of terminal decline health-wise but for the first time in maybe weeks I slept without getting drenched in sweat so something got fixed I think.
Though this is kind of a “housewife’s” view of medicine where “pain” means a sort of purging of poisons from the body.
No.19955
Stopping at an African enclave train station to proselytize the natives on African history and neocolonialism. People must know about Patrice Lumumba. It was harsh seeing the death of Amílcar Cabral simply assigned to "Americans", but, as a leftist, I understand that revolutionary consciousness won't be grown overnight.
No.19958
>>19954Your liquids have been in unbalance and that was the long required drainage.
t. dogtor
>>19955A progressive leftist would listen what the African people's opinion is and then just take that undebated because they know best what is true and right. Non-white conservatism is fine. After all, you don't want to be caught being the source of heteronomy.
No.19959 KONTRA
>>19955> doing missionary work in the streets to convert the unbelieving massesLike a mormon or a Jehova's wittness. And all of them bring salvation, some after the world revolution, some after the rapture.
Difference is: the Jehova's can't bring us heaven on earth, and they don't promise it. The socialists promise it, but would bring us hell on earth.