No.22650
>>22636>Pachelbel's Canon in DHappy, as though I am nostalgic for a life I never actually lived.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NlprozGcs80 No.22651
After years of hearing americans bitch about paper drink straws, they have finally arrived to my shithole country.
They work fine.
What the fuck was the problem?
No.22652 KONTRA
>bump the old thread incessantly to bring it to systemkontra just to be the first to be able to make a new one with another shitty snapshit
Sorry you don't have anything else in your life. Have fun, I guess.
No.22653
>>22651Oh no, the gretafication has begun, you will get your steppe version of Anal Lena Bareback soon and become poorshitstan in nö time!
>>22652I delivered this small performance for you, though. You should have adjusted you Startblock better it seems xaxaxa
No.22654 KONTRA
>>22651There isn't an actual problem. It'sjust tribalism.
Like soccer fanatics complaining about the color of the arch-rival's jerseys.
No.22655
>>22651Depending on the manufacturer they might soak instantly and disintegrate, plus if you have one of those containers you need to puncture the tinfoil, if they are providing only a paper straw the entire thing might be a complete failure of a design.
That said, what really annoys me is those wooden spoons that have replaced plastic spoons. They come from China and you can't really wash them beforehand (unlike the plastic ones), and they have shit shapes.
No.22657
>>22651I found them sensory unpleasant, but maybe it's just my personal preference.
And yes, it's a tribal political thing in America. Also there were photos of paper straws in plastic bags but maybe they are cherrypicked for political reasons.
No.22658
Third day of phone upgrade, changed browser from Brave to FF with uBlock, because Brave is a buggy mess.
Also Poweramp is a nice music app, used the seemingly discontinued Music Play Go before which was very basic, despite also being nice.
Meanwhile without connection, my 6 year old phone only lost 3% battery over 24h, maybe I'll use it as backup storage device.
No.22660
Opened a beer.
In Finland, it's already 4 o'clock, but I have another hour and a half to work.
No.22665
Is it considered
throwing someone under the bus if a coworker- through laziness and/or incompetence- screws up and instead of covering for them you explain to their boss exactly how simple their task -which they failed to complete- was? I am tired of doing the former and today chose the latter.
>>22658My old phone is sitting in drawer. Not sure what to do with it. Probably going to fill it with music.
No.22666 KONTRA
Broke my running record today. Had a very good lunch later. Turns out there was food home all along, I just didn't check the fridge.
Translated one page of classical Chinese. Trying out new software for it. (Bot trying to use DeepSeek as a crutch and also a CAT software called OmegaT for the actual edition.)
I feel like I'm learning a lot.
No.22667
>>22665I don't see a problem with this. I have no problems taking all the responsibility for things I am responsible for, but I'm not going to cover for your idiotic ass if it's only making my life harder. Solidarity goes both ways.
No.22674
Today I had to shit. So I was sitting on the shitter, a Happy Weekend in my hand, when I saw on page 212 a cunt and I instantly recognized her. Last year at a Rastplatz is where I fucked her; her Möse was unwashed and smelled bad and she was seventy-five years old.
No.22675 KONTRA
Went shopping for groceries. Took back the bottles to get the deposits back. I spent the first day of spring in a pretty good mood I guess.
Worked some more on translating classical Chinese. It's going rather well I feel like. Today was a fine day.
No.22676
>>22674Peak Autobahn literature.
No.22694 KONTRA
>>22692I have to do something with my hair too. I’m starting to look like a mushroom
No.22698
>>22697Are you a yuppie or how do you know what's trending with them?
No.22699
>>22698I'm a yuppie on the poorer end of the spectrum, indeed.
No.22700 KONTRA
Having to write an essay on two books, but the use of google scholar to get references was defended as a crucial step by the professor.
I'm supposed to write something on an okay novel and an absolutely dogshit book but I have to pretend I'm a scientist doing real research. Humanities is such a circus.
No.22701
>>22699Maybe you weren't so poor if you didn't consume so much Yuzu
No.22702
>>22700>Humanities is such a circusAnd you are just another clown willing to do the tricks and entertain yourself and others.
You like it, just admit it already.
>>22701I'm not really poor yet on the lower end of what an academic degree can get you. Yuzu for everybody!
No.22704 KONTRA
>>22702>And you are just another clown willing to do the tricks and entertain yourself and others.I wish, I actually want to learn relevant things. Some classes are serious, which ironically are the ones were the teachers seem to be less adamant about being seen as a real scientific academic. Of course the class on literature is the one that pretends the hardest this is real certified research. It doesn't matter, I'm a fish in water, I'll gather a hundred citations that defend what I want to write, cast away the other ones and voilá, another social sciences banger. Why can't we just admit we're writing essays on books? Why must this class be the one that's so adamant on us putting on our scientist outfits before applying makeup and spraying each other with flowers from our lapel?
No.22705
>>22697I thought it's not yuppies but weebs because yuzu is Japanese. Never tried the fruit itself but the yuzu juice is very tasty.
No.22706 KONTRA
>>22704>seem to be less adamant about being seen as a real scientific academicSo people like you? Der Apfel fällt nicht weit vom Stamm.
I know some humanities lecturers are horrible but some find a good middle ground between zealous and hater.
That said, it's a systematic approach which is something else than being a critic. How to approach things differently, these are mainly human made objects in a human centric system where materiality and symbols collide in a way I never found explained adequately to my satisfaction, not some mathematically graspable universal constants. I hardly believe that your lecturers think they are doing STEM research, they pretty much will be aware of the methodological difference.
In the end, there are zealous people, people somewhere in the middle and haters. The key is that they all study humanities and they all like it in the end, else they would just shut up and do a real job and not waste time with made up fantasies tbh.
No.22707 KONTRA
>>22705Is it used in Korean kitchen as well?
It's used in fusion kitchen where you get burrata with gochujang as well for example. Korea has a moment, no? K-pop and korean food.
a humanities student might be able to lecture us about food diplomacy after he studied all the scientific methods of historic food studies No.22708
>>22707A humanities student might be able to lecture us about orientalism, cultural appropriation and cultural imperialism. After that you'll be afraid to talk to foreigners and will have seizures when thinking about yuzu.
And it's not a bug, but a feature.
No.22709
>>22708Portuball and me are the normal breed of humanities students not your telegram pin ups, though.
No.22712
>>22709>Portuball and me are the normal breed of humanities students>and melol, lmao even
No.22713 KONTRA
My brother has been asked to read Viollet-le-Duc as he would read the Torah for his class. I was completely oblivious to the fact that architecture was full of mystics and Kabbalah even to this day
No.22721 KONTRA
>>22711Update: the new dental hygienist was better than the old one. Teeth cleaned, X-rayed, and poked. All good.
No.22724
>>22723Maybe the algorithm is made in such a fashion as to make people unhappy so they keep coming in order to get their dopamine high.
No.22725
>>22723My sister had a similar experience on TikTok. My theory is that new accounts are temporarily boosted by the algo-gods for whatever reason. Proof: none.
Beautiful coat on the doggo. Looks beagle-sized. How big is(s)he?
No.22726
>>22725Your videos are shown to a certain amount of people first, If the engagement is good, more people will be shown our videos. If you don't have engagement, you are sorted Out and that is it.
If you usw TikTok you get these random zero or one or two likes Videos. Often in bad quality. Sometimes a boomber making a Slide show with pictures of themselves and emojis pasted in and so on.
T. TikTok pro
No.22727 KONTRA
Saw 40 minutes of a Marvel movie on discord. Very enlightening to see the level of culture most people experience as "excellent". Absolute travesty and Kulturterror.
I slept in very late and I felt a bit drained afterwards.
I have a slight cold but otherwise I'm feeling remarkably good. Most likely the sunshine.
Did some reading and also worked on some notes.
No.22728
>>22727>Saw 40 minutes of a Marvel movie on discord.Es gibt kein richtiges Leben im falschen.
No.22729
>>22726So the whole "keep posting regularly at good times, maybe your videos will gain traction and you never know when they go viral" is a lie?
... I mean I should have expected it. Still it's pretty disheartening. There are videos of fat ugly dogs who do literally nothing that have thousands of likes and I put so much effort into mine.
>>22725Thank you! He's about Labrador-sized, an Appenzeller. A truly good boi. Very sniffy and eepy.
No.22730
>>22729You need to add rapid-fire snippets of current music, a fortnite kill compilation and a text2speech heartbreaking sob story over it to keep the current gens concentration focused on your video.
Cute dogger, have some kotters to cheer you up as well.
No.22734
Has any Ernst ever been in a position where they understood that they had to make a career change but also felt like it isn't worth it?
I've got an office drone job at a major company. The money they pay me covers my living expenses, but the work that I do probably will be automated at some point in the near future and I have no real marketable skills other than being able to speak a foreign language or two.
For the longest time now I've had this idea of picking up a trade, preferably something interesting like getting into the whole access control systems business. However I'm kinda put off by the idea of starting from scratch in a different field and having to actually work instead of sleeping at my desk doesn't sound too appealing either. What would you do in my place?
No.22735
>>22734I was in sort of the same position, left a cushy federal job in order to dive head first into some extremely complex IT stuff.
Was worth it and I still have plenty of opportunities to slack off, heh
No.22744
>>22729+1 cute dogger.
>AppenzellerSeems I don't know my dog breeds. Had to google that one.
>>22734I changed from white-collar work to blue-collar. I'm happier now, spending days on my feet, than I ever was behind a desk. If another field is more interesting or engaging than your current position, go for it.
No.22746
The day is almost dawning and I couldn't sleep much again. I'm under extreme stress, depressed, my heart hurts (tachycardia) and I feel that I will go back to my previous dead end job at warehouse full of coworkers addicted to online betting.
Today will be a long day of job hunting I guess..
No.22751 KONTRA
I had one class cancelled because they were doing a thesis defence in the department and they asked us to attend that (to have the required number of people in attendance) but I just legged it and stayed home. I forgot I had a class afterwards so it wasn't that sweet of a deal. As I was getting ready I knocked my headphones off the table and as the case landed it opened and one of the buds just landed in the dog's waterbowl much to my enjoyment. I was a bit afraid that it's broken or something but it turned out to be working fine after a bit. Noise cancelling worked too because some hobo tried to chat me up and I had zero fucking clue what she was saying.
Regardless I was 30 minutes late for the next class. Went to pick up a book since I was late anyway. It was Canetti's "Die Blendung". On the counter stood a copy of "Inspirational Thoughts of Michelle Obama" and like yeah. Somebody bought that. It's secondhand. I wonder if it was genuine curiosity of ideological obligation. Probably the latter. It's always the latter for shit like this.
Classes themselves went fine and then I got home and wasted time on discord VC before going to bed incredibly late.
No.22752
>>22734Are you translator or tutor? Gf is in a similar situation, she doesn't know what career to switch to.
No.22754
>>22734Several languages? Certified and not some self taught internet hobby? You can try policy shit, bi-national institutions or (private) intelligence. But getting in might not be so easy and needs some interest in it. Jobs are not as plenty as garbage on the street of some random city and you sometimes don't even know the right keywords to look out for.
No.22756 KONTRA
Awful day to be honest. Woke up late, went to class a bit late, still managed to squeeze in a short library session though. Found some more worthwhile stuff to process and read the Tang penal code a bit but decided against borrowing a copy.
My first class got cancelled so I went and sifted through the offerings of the bookstands, something which I haven't done in a while. Found nothing. Was amused by a Lenin quote collection.
Went to my last class after wandering around. Did some more reading before class started. Following class I talked with the lecturer a bit and then came home. There was an anime screening tonight but I was beaten so I decided to just get home honestly. No idea why I felt so drained even though I did practically nothing today.
No.22766
>>22734If it paid as much, I'd love to work a job where I'm on my feet, working with m hands
My time as computer repair monkey at a small office was the most enjoyable job I've had, aside from that it didn't pay for shit.
No.22776
At work, I think nothing of walking 100 yards to meet somebody or to do something that needs doing. On days off, crossing the house to get a towel from the dryer feels like too much.
No.22778
One week vacation is over.
I have to get up at 9 and it will be a very long day, but I am not tired at all yet.
The worst thing is that I realized that the first time I didn't think about work was yesterday, and also the first time I felt a kind of relaxation effect and now I am thinking about work again.
If I just had an idea - any idea - I would instantly start my own business. Wageslaving sucks.
No.22781
>>22780God how I hate bavarians
No.22803 KONTRA
Depression core for me
No enjoyment, staying in bed
Am on medication since a week ago, hoping it will work as I inceease the dosagr
No.22804 KONTRA
Went to the doctor's. I accidentally deleted the date from my calendar but I remembered it properly.
I experienced some serious moodswings today for some reason. And I think I developed a cold too.
Classes were okay again.
Watched some anime with friends. Arranged some notes. Gonna try sleeping reasonably and I will pray I don't have a cold tomorrow.
No.22805
My sister has tested positive for COVID. While I have been sick a number of times in the past few years, I don't go to doctors or test and have therefore never had a confirmed diagnosis. Now, if I fall ill in the coming days, I will. On the other side, if I manage to stay healthy I can reasonably claim natural immunity.
The waiting is the hardest part. Unless I get sick. That would be harder.
>>22780Ordering mine now before the tariffs kick in.
No.22817 KONTRA
>>22803Stay strong Ernst, good luck.
>>22815That just looks like classic South-Korean transhumanist beauty standards to me. Meh…
No.22819
>>22817>That just looks like classic South-Korean transhumanist beauty standards to me.That's a very specific assessment. Maybe a bit too specific.
No.22820
Up until quite recently (until about 2-3 years ago but now more than ever), I refused to give any new meaning to my life. I was raised an atheist by a stable family and I had no other goal than do exactly as my father did in terms of studies and family life. Nothing could have meaning because all new meaning came to question the one I gave to my life beforehand. I did this so that I wouldn’t have any desire, in other words I didn’t want to exist. After the reality of my repressed desires started to make my unconscious will to follow my father step impossible, I started getting aggressive with everyone, I got uncontrollably angry very often around my family, especially at my father’s wise cracks, one could call this hysteria. I got into a progressively deeper depression in my early adulthood which lasted 5 years and almost killed me in the end.
New meaning was finally imposed to my life in a way where it was impossible for me to refute it anymore. Made me insane. Now meaning is everywhere, I can enjoy art in a way I couldn’t before. I can grasp the symbolic importance of my life’s events and use it to create a framework for new individual desires.
No.22821 KONTRA
>>22819What I meant by that is that it looks like a lot of K-pop stars to me
No.22825
>>22824inb4 he's just fallen for another french witch
No.22826 KONTRA
>>22823It was a lot to handle at first, the power to derive meaning from the mundane is dangerous for obvious reasons. Let’s say I choose my own meaning, it’s a less alarming way to put it.
>>22824:3>>22825I don’t see myself anywhere close to a woman in the near future lol
No.22829
>>22819It's not really specific, South Korean plastic surgeries and their obsession over looks is a well known stereotype.
>>22815I think, ideal futuristic sex-bomb superwoman is a one who can change her appearance and convince man's reptilian brain that she's multiple women. You know the stories of kind when celebrity cheats his supermodel wife with an ugly chambermaid. This is an instinctive behavior stemming from male strategy of impregnating as many women as possible.
No.22830
>>22829>South Korean plastic surgeries and their obsession over looks is a well known stereotypeIS it, though?
No.22832
>>22831I came across women who have an interest in kpop and who date asian men/koreans and I cannot shake off the feeling that the former influenced the latter.
Which low SMV asian created that chart, though?
No.22833 KONTRA
>>22831Kind of, I've already seen succesful asian men use K-pop codes of seduction. I think it's actually easier and more intresting for a man to use k-pop as seductive framework than women in the west.
No.22834 KONTRA
I fucked up my knee while running. Went out to have lunch with a friend. Talked shit for a few hours.
My knee hurt so bad at one point I thought I won't make it home.
Not much else. The moodswing is still pretty bad.
>>22815I love when pajeets running fourth rate "dissident right" "save evropa" and "trad accounts" can't help it but accidentally dickride India, blowing their cover.
It keeps happening.
(I don't think a single one of these tradwest statuehead whatever accounts is ran by someone actually white, it's all pajeets and South Americans.)
(Yes, you all missed the point. That post is funny because of the cheeky attempt at making India look positive, not because of the dogshit AI image.)
No.22835
>>22834>pajeetMy my, that's some problematic chud lingo you have there, friend.
Had you ever met, worked with or visited Indians in India you wouldn't talk like that.
No.22836 KONTRA
>>22835I walked into this one, didn't I?
No.22837
>>22834A knee compression sleeve will help with the pain. Not to wear while running, but for walking around until it heals.
No.22838 KONTRA
>>22834Go to a doctor. Also, what the American says.
No.22842 KONTRA
I bought an overpriced Lain t-shirt
No.22843 KONTRA
/int/ - Tiktok and Twitter reposts
No.22844
>>22842Does it fit well? No price is too high for a proper fitting t-shirt.
No.22845
>>22844The trick is to get one of a good fabric one size smaller.
You do have a body that allows you to wear tight t-shirts, don't you?
No.22847 KONTRA
>>22845> good fabricProtip: they are all the same. You are getting fooled by marketing.
No.22848
>>22844It hasn’t arrived yet. I hope it’s not too bad. Will review it
No.22850 KONTRA
>>22849
It was overpriced mainly due to the astronomical shipping cost. I already have an idea of what the t-shirt should be, the quality of the fabric of the tshirt isn’t important.
No.22851
>>22850> the quality of the fabric of the tshirt isn’t important.lolwut
No.22853 KONTRA
>>22851Isn’t important as in, it’s not what will make this t-shirt fun to buy and own
No.22854
>>22843A scholarly mind won't hesitate to use the best sources for an argument
No.22855
>>22853Ah, I see. Lucky for you you're not in the EU. Brussels would flog you for that waste.
No.22857
My State and Federal tax returns have been prepared and filed. I had previously gathered all necessary documents, but filling in boxes still took six hours. Way too many stock trades in 2024. Fun to look back at some of them, like RKLB at $7(why did I sell?) and MSTR at $525(really glad I sold). Wash sales added an extra wrinkle which had to be ironed out. Not hard, but tedious. Anyway, glad to be done with the taxman for another year. And a full month before the deadline.
>>2284560/40 cotton-polyester is my preferred blend. I also never put T's in the dryer. The risk of shrinking- even on low- is too high. Lost too many good shirts that way.
I have some skin-tight, and some a bit baggy. Each has its role, its time and place.
No.22861
>>22857> Each has its role, its time and place.This sounds delightfully assburgery.
Desire to know more intensifies.
No.22863
>>22861Wearing at home: loose and longer fit. Typically my oldest T-shirts. Some with paint stains, some with holes. Still comfortable.
Wearing at gym/running: tight and shorter length- falling only to the waist.
At work: tight and longer length. More bending and squatting here, so I prefer the shirt to fall just beyond the waist.
Anywhere else: same as work shirts, with some gym shirts mixed in.
I have roughly 50 T-shirts in my wearable rotation.
No.22880
>>22876I use
Dove soap. No ancient wisdom teachings, but it is made with 1/4 moisturizing cream.
No.22884
>>22863> I have roughly 50 T-shirts in my wearable rotation.How did it happen? You owned 40 t-shirts and decided "I need 10 more"?
No.22885
>>22884From my own experience I can tell you that I had 60 and threw away 10.
No.22886
>>22884>I had 60 and threw away 10.This. I acquire T-shirts until their accumulated mass becomes overwhelming, then I sort and purge.
No.22888 KONTRA
I decided to finally get the C1 English paper out of the way (to fulfill my college obligations) and I just booked a date and my mother told me a few hours later that "actually that's when we're having a holiday" and I was so fucking pissed because I was taking the initiative, doing something on my own accord and then bullshit family shit is getting in the way.
It just felt so demoralizing that yet another thing I tried to do wasn't working out.
Had a workshop meeting. It went fine. The cute japanologist was there. She got back from Japan a week or so ago. She found my jokes funny.
After the meeting the group split up, one of the girls tagged along with me. The Asian department's library was closed, so we ended up crashing at the Germanistik library.
I worked a bit on my projects and then headed to class. It went okay-ish.
Had another class afterwards and then I came home and somehow finally got the strength to translate some texts. I will try to finis the thing I've started today. I could get this shit published.
Anyway, the fluctuations continue, but I feel like tomorrow may be better than the last few days were.
>>22837>>22838Gonna get one tomorrow, but thankfully it mostly recovered (after like one extra day of it hurting on and off, but that's just what I get for being impatient and running after the bus or trying to rush up and down escalators). I'm thinking about letting it until Sunday, so it can fully recover.
But yeah, proper equipment is necessary.
No.22894
>>22888>I decided to finally get the C1 English paper out of the way (to fulfill my college obligations) and I just booked a date and my mother told me a few hours later that "actually that's when we're having a holiday" and I was so fucking pissed because I was taking the initiative, doing something on my own accord and then bullshit family shit is getting in the way. What do we learn from this? Communication is the most important thing anytime, anywhere.
No.22895 KONTRA
>>22888Your continued disrespect towards your parents is evidence that it is not through the study of the classics that one stops being 小人。
No.22903
>>22805Update: I am
not immune to Covid. This sucks.
No.22906
>>22903Well then, get well y'all
No.22920
>>22906Thanks. Took the day off work and spent it watching mindless television. Same plan for today.
No.22931 KONTRA
I went on a weekend trip with the woman I am dating. It was preddy gud. Great to listen to the waves again.
I still ask myself If I should have gone to that sea food snack bar to have some slightly overpriced fish dish or If I would have been disappointment by the quality anyway. The Google ratings were mixed.
We got some local fish produce from the supermarket, though it's all things herring. Better safe the money for eating out in Big City™ again this month.
No.22933
>>22924Similar show used to scare me a lot when I was a child.
It had spooky intro:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvgCZGAWR6Q No.22934
>>22924Shatner low key competing with a second in command again, huh?
Go get 'em Tiger!
As if... No.22937
>>22927This is more my speed.
>>22933Looks like
X-Files meets
CSI. Would watch/10.
David Duchovny has a new series premiering next month. Going back to his bread and butter: secrets and conspiracies. A number of high-profile actors have done documentary/fun-fact shows on the History channel, but Shatner is definitely the king.
No.22938 KONTRA
Insane how much more motivated I'm feeling in the past couple of days. I've actually realised half of a translation project over the weekend. Tomorrow I will do some small work on it and I think I will finally have stuff to publish again.
Slept awfully though. I woke up four times for no reason. No nightmare, no pain, nothing. I just woke up.
Helped my mother with shopping. I wasn't really needed but she's been getting episodes of dizziness so I accompanied her.
Knee's doing fine but I skipped running. Too many people at home + I didn't want to accidentally overdo it before it's completely healed.
I lifted instead on Friday and my arms still hurt because of it but it's mostly muscle pain.
No.22943
Just saw a Tesla with a FCK ELN sticker
No.22947
>>22943Yes, soys are angry, disappointed and insecure now that they contributed to a rightwinger's personal wealth in hinsight.
Has anybody reliable numbers about Tesla getting recked because morality of lib tards is strong? Euros will buy the e-Golf instead but Americans cant buy Chinese or euro because of tariffs.
No.22948
>>22947By giving a Nazi salut Elon Musk promoted his cars. He sent a subliminal message "they're not worse than Ford and Wolkswagen".
No.22951 KONTRA
Week 3 of lamotrigine
I feel a bit better. I'm not just staying in bed and feeling terrible.
I don't feel "happy" but I have a bit more energy to do things and tasks feel like they take less effort to initiate.
No.22952
Work asked if I could come in today. I was considering it. I'm nowhere near 100%, but overtime pay is one hell of a drug. While weighing my options I started coughing. Came to my senses. Told them no.
No.22955
>>22951Small steps in the right direction, ernst. Glad you found something that's working for you.
No.22956 KONTRA
Woke up with a stuffy nose but didn't think much of it. Had breakfast, lunch and then went out. Took some books back to a non-uni library. It was raining but it was moody and cool.
Went to the university library. Looked at a book and talked with the librarian a bit and then I went to class and I was feeling a bit sick but I was in so there was nothing much I could do.
After class I bought a pack of medicine and had an energy drink and an apple and I felt cured and took part in the second class. Not just cured, practically invincible.
Second class is a bit tiresome because the lecturer invited an Erasmus student to a college class which is kind of supposed to be a closed affair for members of the college and we're holding it in English and it's sort of just crushing to listen to Hunglish to one and a half hours.
Otherwise I'm in an insanely good mood. Don't know why. Very good stuff. I'm getting things done.
Gonna work on a conference presentation tomorrow.
That is if I don't just hit the bed from this cold but I don't think this will get worse.
No.22959
>>22937It was X-files on steroids because it pretended to be documentary while consciously bullshitting viewers. When you're adult, that's just laughable, but for a child that was very impressive.
No.22969 KONTRA
Feeling much better. I think by tomorrow I will be 100% fine. Which is good because I have a presentation to hold.
Skipped classes today. Worked on some translations and did some reading.
No.22971
73° today. Warm with the sun shining when I drove to work, and just as pleasant coming home. The day just hits different with great weather. Like everything doesn't suck. Long hours and hard labor are tolerable so long as there is a light at the end, a decent evening of seeing the sky and not being cold.
Additional info: someone on my street had a cookout. Can smell their bugers and hot dogs. Lucky bastards.
No.22974
>>22971Yeah, slowly it's getting warm here again as well.
Good riddance another winter is over, only about 4 more to go...
Additional info: had a company dinner yesterday and ate an capprese buger with mozzarella and basil pesto.
No.22976
>>22971I cannot agree with everything being tolerable with good weather but I am so Happy that double digit temperatures are here again.
No.22991
>>22990>Perhaps the hangover is just hitting me worse than I'd like to admit.Certainly will play a big part. It feels so much more shitty and a reason why I rarely do it anymore.
>Yesterday I went to a couple pubs to have a few beers aloneWere you hoping to talk to people or just go out anyway?
No.22992
>>22974>only about 4 more to go...Since I moved back North a few years ago, each Winter ends the same way: with me swearing
Never Again. Then November hits and I hunker down. I am beginning to see the value in setting an actual timeline to get from A to B instead of my usual one-day-at-a-time approach to life.
>>22976Another winter in the books and Daylight-Saving time has begun. I guess you guys have another couple of weeks before clocks move.
>>22988>dipshit international relations guyWhat did he do?
>>22990Sometimes old journal entries lead to a flood of memories more vivid than the text, sometimes it's like reading about someone else. I don't know why I record some things and not others, or why my reaction differs. Can't imagine not writing anything down though. If my life amounts to nothing else, I will at least fill volumes.
No.22997
>>22990Drugs are bad, mkay?
No.22999
>>22992>I guess you guys have another couple of weeks before clocks move. End of march. I indeed did only recently learn that DST isn't switched globally, but some are earlier than others.
That said, I am a proponent of abolishing it.
No.23005 KONTRA
Amazing day again. Sat in some really good sections. Yeah I enjoyed it all. Save for how I had to supervise the Buddhist section. One guy cancelled like two days ago, another was late, so the section only had one presenter so the professor who was leading the section remarked that "Why the fuck did you make me get up for this so early?" and I told him "Well sir, we got up for it too."
"Yeah, but you people are used to it."
"Sir, my classes are in the afternoon, so we're rowing in the same boat."
I was sent in precisely because apparently the girls knew it that he's a grumpy fuck and they needed "a man" to deal with his shit. Bit of banter honestly. Like 100% just banter shit. We shook hands and everything. Proper shit.
The rest of the stuff went well enough. I saw some more foreign policy chit ranging from dismal to interesting. These people seem just as detached from the real world as shitting studies PhD's. Except they think they are the salt of the earth as they parade around in suits.
It was surprising to have another professor just tell me that "she's happy to see me" even though she never taught me. The only time we ever met was as "opponents" when she really harshly judged things I did. I guess that just means that in her eyes even with the harsh criticism I was worth spending time on.
After the event we sat down in an empty classroom and I brought out the bottle of fancy sake from by bag and we drank to our success (I worded it like that, while the others were just happy it was over).
Also had two bottles of wine. Like a few hours of talking and stuff. Lot of talking. Who has relatives where in the Carpathians etc.
I was drunk as shit by the end. Lovely feeling. Like flying.
>>22992>What did he do?Just being a condescending asshole in general who thinks he's better than everyone. Like laughing at someone asking him a question. In retrospect we should have cut the faggot down to size.
No.23011
>>23007> I felt pretty self-conscious about going aloneBut why? It's nothing special.
I often go on business trips, so I also often eat and drink alone. There's really nothing to it, and it's very improbable that anyone even just wastes a single thought on you "oh look at that loner".
Also, it's fun when you're alone and not distracted to just watch the people around you.
No.23012
>>23011>It's nothing special.It is quite difficult for some people because they think These will be judged for it. I think a bar is different from eating in a restaurant. I often lunch alone or dine when on holidays. It great tbh. But a bar is a bit more difficult. You are right about the people watching part and I enjoy that too but it can get lonely when you see people having fun and suddenly want that too.
Ofc you can just try to Talk to people in a bar but again some people will have difficulties doing so.
No.23013
>>23007Good thing you overcame the fear of not entering a place and then had a good time!
No.23014
>>23012>It is quite difficult Isn't that why you're going out? Confrontation therapy? As I said, it's nothing special, but it's difficult for you because you tell yourself it's difficult, yet I still can't see a reason for that, except your paranoia.
No.23019
>>23016Now I know what your problem is: Pathological overthinking
No.23020
>>23016It feels pretty bad for me, too. What if someone you are faintly acquainted with recognizes you?
> Derpina, Chad and I met that weirdo loner Ernst yesterday, you know? That weird ugly guy I told you about. > Oh no what happened> Well he was sitting in the pub at a table all by himself, you know> Of course, he's a loser with 0 friends because he's so creepy why else would he go out all alone, how pathetic> Yes, I know, and when I told Chad about the creep, he made jokes about calling him over, and then he did it and we had to talk to him for like 2 minutes and he's so weird > Oh no I would have died from cringe > I did like literally, and then I was angry with Chad because of it and then he fucked me and now I'm not mad anymore, but can you imagine that creepers like that even exist? I mean how does he even dare to go out> Yes it should be illegal for such guys to go out alone they ruin everything for everyone I hate them so much Nah, thank you. I know people will talk about me like that when they see me, probably even to my face. I'd rather stay inside.
No.23021
>>23011>>23020A thing that I noticed several times when I was out with my friends, but for some reason they were elsewhere at the moment and I was standing around alone. It happened more than once when I was alone, that unrelated people would start to act low key hostile, usually groups of guys. They weren't vocally threatening, more like "claiming my space", giving me the stink eye, things like that. Maybe I just noticed it more, because I had more time to notice when I wasn't distracted with my friends, but I'm pretty confident in my judgement. I think you have a higher risk getting in a conflict when being alone, simply because there could be some guys thinking you are easy prey which entered their stomping grounds.
They instantly stopped when my pals came back. I suppose it's a social order thing, they suddenly realized that they were not "above" me and bullying me comes with the risk of getting in a conflicht with a whole pack.
No.23022 KONTRA
>>23018Turns out they didn't just have a case-study, they had an entire field manual complete with instructional comics.
Now I want more inside material
meant for internal use, not for public circulation leaked from cults and political cults. They have to tone down the crazy in public and can't show their true power levels, so they keep the truly batshit bullshit to themselves.
https://www.xfamily.org/index.php/True_Komix_-_The_Love_of_God No.23023
>>23021Accurate. People are animals.
No.23024
>>22974> live near Alps> hate winterRRRREEEEEEEEEE
Also, are you OK with the raining seasons in Thai?
No.23026
>>23021Yeah they're 100% gangstalking you
No.23028 KONTRA
>>23027Learn to be less of an asshurt sissyboy.
No.23029
I think being sick affected my muscles. After returning to work, I was sore all week. Legs mostly, but also my back. Maybe dehydrated. Should drink more Gatorade.
>>23022tfw no flirty fish gf.
No.23031
>>23029Some years back, Jehovah's witnesses used to send hot girls accompanied by hot milfs to my door, but I never let them in, and they stopped after my octogenerian neighbor called them nutjobs and told them to fuck off.
I imagine if they would have managed to reel me in, the lure would have disappeared and they would have paired me off with one of their damaged goods instead. And with the Jehovah's it's no sex before marriage, anyway.
No.23033
>>23031Heh, reminds me of how I have been donating to Doctors without Borders for the past 12 years or so because a cute girl approached me in the city.
No.23036
>>23033>>23035Once thought a promoter had locked in on me, and I was looking for a way past her, she started to tell at me 'wait, hey wait a minute' I was like 'so what are you trying to sell', it turned out I actually knew the girl and she wasn't promoting anything.
No.23042
Something is interfering with my speakers. I can hear a low
crackle. Not loud. Much investigation- moving it to and fro- has narrowed the culprit to- my wall? Near the wall: crackle. Further away: fine. Now, I either get used to the ever-so-quiet-barely-there-but-definitely-there sound, or I move the speakers away from the wall. Decisions...
>>23040>glassesAre your intentions honorable?
No.23046
>>23040> The glassesAre you the wacky henchmen of the bad guy in an eighties teen movie set in the fifties?
No.23047
>>23042>Are your intentions honorable?I want to explore the reactions of people if I wear such glasses during a normal study day. It’s funny, it shows the implicit desire to see everyone naked without really breaching their privacy
>>23046I may just well be
No.23051 KONTRA
I am sick. Cannot believe I get sick in march, days warmer than ever. Life was with less sickness as a semi hermit. Now with public transport every day and seeing people in crowded spaces and often low on sleep it is a given.
No.23053
>>23051>Cannot believe I get sick in march, days warmer than ever.A classic: First rays of sunlight, go outside with T-Shirt, sun goes away for 5 secondss, suddenly ice cold, get sick, we've all been there.
No.23055 KONTRA
>>23053I wore pullovers and a jacket or coat.
No.23056
I cleaned up the wires around my computer today. Cat has been playing in them lately. Used pic related to bind and cover what I could. Not perfect, but easier to defend until he gets bored and moves on to his next obsession.
>>23051>Life was with less sickness as a semi hermitAvoiding people is the only way to stay healthy. Get well soon.
No.23058 KONTRA
Finished translating another text. Okay-ish day otherwise. Skipped lunch again.
No.23059
>>23053Not me.
I get sick from germs, not the cold.
No.23063
>>23056For cable management in Desktops, the it-guy at my place of work mostly uses pic related. Advantages over what you used:
- you can have cables enter and exit the bundle at random locations
- it can be wrapped around a pre-existing bundle without opening the bundle
- no pulling cables through the hose with wires etc. when it's full
Disadvantages:
It is not as cat-proof.
For a real rowdy cats, use pic 2, I guess.
No.23065
Today I saw Americans write about "venti iced americanos" and while I believe to know what it could be, it most likely isn't.
Yet my imagination keeps me from researching what it actually is, because my idea of a "venti iced americano" is just so great.
No.23066
>>23065 The world is a strange place. Reality is often more absurd than our imagination.
It's cold dishwater No really, it's a bucket full of thinned down coffee, chilled with ice. No.23068
>>23063>real rowdy catsWith the wires safe, he turned his teeth toward my adapters. I couldn't wrap those and was forced to get creative. I took one of my drawing boards (basically a large piece of Masonite) and leaned it against the wall leaving a small gap to conceal my power strip and plugs. The cat is only 8 months old, and everything is still a game. He'll grow out of it. I hope.
>>23065>"venti iced americano"I did not know what that was
>>23066...and now that I do, I sort of make these at work. Hot coffee I need to drink fast + access to an ice machine = energy to survive the day. I prefer cold milk to ice, but in a pinch...
No.23069
>>23066Yeah, I know about americano itself, disgusting as their watered down beer.
Sadly mostly the only "regular" option in coffee machines in hotels in Thailand, so if you want an actual coffee for breakfast you need to get 2 espressos and thin them down with milk.
"Venti chilled" however...
>>23068Get a bunch of toys of all kinds.
Destructive behavior is just an outlet of a pent up demand for play and you need to find some most appreciated toys.
Mine like small sacks filled with cherry kernels, both sit on them and toss them with their back paws by doing some kind of horse kick. Then hunt after the säcki, toss it some more and fantasize about killing it.
Small toy mice however always got the cold shoulder, simply not interested.
A long twig mounted somewhere so it hovers a little above ground also is great, but they get destroyed rather quickly.
No.23070 KONTRA
I went for a run after like two weeks. Hurt like hell for the first 5 or so minutes and then it gradually subsided and I finished the session with little issues.
Went out to buy groceries afterwards and I jogged across a crosswalk and I thought I was going to fucking die and yes, my knee was fucked up again. It's still fucked up. Put some kinetic tape on it and also iced it for a bit, though I'm unsure how much this helped.
Worked on making more notes in Obsidian. I'm really liking it. I thought it was a meme but it's really just a digital Zettelkasten.
Actually helped me figure out where my research has "missing links" right now so I can focus on covering those.
Though I'm woefully behind on "normal stuff" again.
Played some video games with a friend. I suck shit at Command and Conquer apparently. (Then again he also mentioned that he plays incredibly dirty and it's not like I ever really played Red Alert 3 that much.)
Anyway, I'm going to bed early so I can sleep well and do a lot of good things tomorrow. Hopefully.
(And maybe it'll do my leg some good.)
No.23071
My job right now is going kind of ok, though today was a particularly frustrating day with one problem I couldn't solve and another, entirely unexpected one actually having me work for almost an hour longer than usual.
Apart from that I actually have started taking everything easier, but there's still some subtle, yet profound feeling that something is "wrong", so to say. I can't even say what or how, but it's new. Before that I always worried about what I will do next day and so on, but I have managed to free myself of that mindset, but it has been replaced by something else I can't even identify yet.
What I notice is that I feel a weird kind of tired, which makes it harder for me to do my physical activities because it needs a lot more effort to actually step outside.
No.23073
>>23069Right now his favorite toys all have bells. Either a stuffed fabric shape with one sewn on the outside, or those plastic balls with a bell on the inside. Things that make noise when I toss them for him to chase. He hasn't caught on to the game of
fetch yet, but every now and then he'll surprise me by bringing one back instead of staying put and waiting for the next throw. Oh, and plastic straws. We first gave him one to chew on when he was teething. Filled one with snow from outside so that he could gnaw on something cold. Now he loves to chew them. A little too much. He'll pull them from my drinking glass if I'm not careful, lol.
No.23075
>>23069> ventiIt's pseudo-italian for a midsized coffee at Starbucks. Mid-sized meaning 0.75l liter. 12 ounces is tall, 16 ounces is grande, 24 ounces is venti, 31 ounces is trenta. If you give it
Imagine how retarded that sounds in German. Eine Seele, ein dreiviertel Liter dünner, kalter kaffee und die Neue Zürcher, bitte.
No.23076
>>23075>Eine Seele, ein dreiviertel Liter dünner, kalter kaffee und die Neue Zürcher, bitte.What's it with those American sizes, really.
0.75l coffee, if I want that much I'd get a second one or bring a thermos, because you know, paying 5-10 Euros for a jug of sugar & fat emulsion with traces of cheap coffee is a stupid thing to do anyway.
But I notice this pseudo-cosmopolitan behavior here more and more as well, with especially young women on my way to work wielding those overprized cups every morning.
That alone probably costs about as much as I feed myself for the whole day.
And once they arrive at work and take their last sip, they hop onto r/de and passive-aggressively complain about boomers berating them to skip the daily avocado toast if they want to safe money and get farther with their income... until they jump to the next chain bakery for lunch and get 2 meagerly belegte Brötchen for lunch for 10 Euros.
Surely the issue is the government not collecting enough taxes and handing out more kickbacks for those tortured souls.
>>23073Plastic is a fucking cat magnet.
Packed bread comes with a small plastic & metal zipper of sorts here and one of my kotters can be sleeping across the flat, the moment this zipper thing silently falls onto the dinner table, she furiously comes running and wants to chew it.
But given the suffocation or constipation risks, I rather not have her do that.
You have enough places to use their claws?
No.23077
>>23076> And once they arrive at work and take their last sip, they hop onto r/de and passive-aggressively complain about boomers berating them to skip the daily avocado toast if they want to safe money and get farther with their income... until they jump to the next chain bakery for lunch and get 2 meagerly belegte Brötchen for lunch for 10 Euros.Surely the issue is the government not collecting enough taxes and handing out more kickbacks for those tortured souls.
There are male versions of this, driving a golf GTI or similarly overpriced small-penis-vehicle, traveling to Thailand to spend thousands on whores, new tech-gimmicks every month, tickets for soccer at 60€, etc. when these people are old and realize they have not build any wealth, they will demand higher pensions, financed by taxing your savings, which have already been taxed when you earned them, then taxed for capital gains, so why not tax that money a third time. It's only just, certain people have a standard of living to keep!
No.23078
>>23077>traveling to Thailand to spend thousands on whoresOi m8, those are life mending experiences and everlasting memories not possible to be measured in gold!
A car serves a wider purpose as well, despite me not having one and people widely downplaying the actual cost of owning one, I remember the comfort and possibilities of going anywhere whenever I want. Public transport just can't compare, neither in comfort nor options, at best in short, inner city commutes, but even here I rather walk 1 hour then take the bus for a total of 25-30 minutes.
Healthier and one hasn't to deal with society.
But those small, easily substituted, yet greatly expensive things that just pamper to a small, fleeting comfort of not having to do something yourself, those are IQ<89 spendings.
"Smart" appliances that just push surveillance and propriety, "convinience" food that makes us sick and hardly noticeably broke by forming habits and the tech gimmicks I grant you.
But in the end this pointless consumption should one day mostly finance me a comfortable living abroad, so society better proceeds with it while leaving me with a better value by not indulging in it.
No.23079
I couldn't find a decent job and had return to the awful dead end job I got last year.
I need wake up 3am so I get there 5am ... and also about to drop college since is pretty much impossible work from 5 AM to 3PM and go to university from 6PM to 11 PM.
I fear that I will just kill myself soon or later. Life is only getting worse.
No.23082
>>23079>and also about to drop college since is pretty much impossible work from 5 AM to 3PM and go to university from 6PM to 11 PM.That's why I tend to laugh at people who tell students with poor parents that they should get a job while at university. Sure, you can do that, but it certainly won't raise your chances of completing your degree. Rich kids get help from their parents in the meantime, and don't have to bother.
When I was at university, we could apply for state financial aid
yes, BaFöG in Germany, but you could only get it if you were missing one credit at most. Good luck with that after three semesters, and tests with failure rates of at least 1/3, some 80% and higher. Meanwhile at the liberal arts department, failure rates were literally zero. I guess it's because they were smarter than us. Absolute joke that they made it harder for tech students, which were in great demand at that time, to get financial help, while they made it super easy for people who studied stuff which even the students themselves didn't know what they were going to do with it after they got their degree. I mean I get the idea, it just wasn't working out at all.
>>23076>berating them to skip the daily avocado toast if they want to safe money and get farther with their incomeReminds me of my part-time working mom...
>"Ooh I have no money, everything is so expensive, tax the rich!!!">check out her fridge>full of ridiculously priced organic food, where 100g spread was priced at 4€, and that was a decade ago.Y-yeah mom, it's those rich people's fault...
No.23085
>>23082>>23082>>23082I don't even get mad anymore and just laugh at my own misery: no friends, no gf, no education, zero social skills and no hope for tomorrow aside suicide when things get unbearable.
The only good thing out of it is that I will finally have money for hit the gym and eat healthy nutritious food.
No.23088
I still can't understand cat people.
Quite everything about having a cat sounds horrible, yet they act like it's the best pet one can have.
Literally beaten wife tier.
No.23090
>>23089>We all fail at lifeBased on what metric?
No.23092
>>23089>>23089I'm just an insane third world worlder with awe inspiring amounts of self control and discipline despite be absurdly depressed. I still take showers, brush my teeth and all good hygiene rituals, I even use good skincare products, but people can tell of an empty husk.
I love sleep after my belly is full of food. Nothing beats s good nap after lunch.
No.23094
>>23086Never seen that before, it's even a replenishable scratching place!
Boughted and also got one of those ball stack playthings.
Just as
>>23088 noted, spending some cash on my feline overlords is money well invested.
No.23097
>save most of your money for wealth reasons instead of demanding more from people who exploit your labor power to their own benefit and laugh about your poorness
rated:DDD
No.23098
>>23092Maybe being depressed and controlled are two sides of the same coin?
>>23079>since is pretty much impossible work from 5 AM to 3PM and go to university from 6PM to 11 PM.Could you take fewer lectures per semester and take a few semesters more? You wouldn't be the first one to do that, or the last.
> I fear that I will just kill myself soon or laterDon't do that, at least you live in sunny bunda-land.
No.23099 KONTRA
>>23097Me: fire.
You: live-long slave to wasting your meagre income on trinkets.
No.23100
>>23099> live-long slaveI just want to draw everyone's attention to this Ernst's bad english
>>23097So, how does your demanding go, Herr Revoluzzer?
No.23101
>>23098>Maybe being depressed and controlled are two sides of the same coin?Don't be meek here in Brazil means be a target of envy, greed, rage... I just want live a peaceful life and I rather be meek and alive.
>could you take fewer lectures per semester and take a few semesters more? You wouldn't be the first one to do that, or the lastI can't do that. I have until 2028 to complete my degree or I will be expelled.
>don't do that, at least you live in sunny bunda-landBunda, hot brazilian women, are commodities reserved only for rich Brazillian men, criminals and men from first world countries. Socially awkward men like me need pay for sex... and even get rejected by prostitutes sometimes.
You have no idea of how bad things are for introverted men in Brazil.
No.23103 KONTRA
>>23102I really don't know what you want to tell us with this picture, but from the filename I can infer that it's some retarded shit only retards care about.
No.23104 KONTRA
>>23103Dont be so butthurt, Dagobert.
No.23107 KONTRA
>>23104I know the words, but they make no sense.
Touch grass, friend.
No.23109
/int/ - owners of wealth
No.23110
Not much sleep last night, but work time has arrived. Many such cases.
>>23094re: scratching pads. It seems ridiculous to pay $5 for what is essentially a few pennies worth of corregated cardboard, but they are worth the expense.
No.23111
So far I've met 3 kinds of Buddhists online
1. Self cultivated sociopath: learned meditation from Sam Harris, uses it to perform beter at their computer job and avoid feeling bad about cheating on their partner
2. New age neurotic: lectures you about scripture, has an emotional breakdown every other week due to domestic & personal issues. Will eventually be groomed into ecofascism.
3. 2 enlightened 4 u: turns out, not having to work for a living is the secret sauce for being good at Buddhism. Despite knowing better, has an ego and self identity that they regularly affirm in their small social circle of admirers. Atop an anthill, even a gopher imagines itself a Buddha.
Maybe one day I'll meet a non-phoney Buddhist, but chances are, those don't hang out online
No.23112
>>23111>trying to meet sensible people onlineThat was your first mistake.
If you disclosed WHERE you met them I could probably find more.
No.23113 KONTRA
>>23111If I read a few more Nichiren books I'd probably fall into the second category 2bh
No.23114 KONTRA
>>23111Online Catholics are no better. With a lot more reactionaries and male pick me.
No.23115
>>23112Why does this woman have 4 toes?
No.23116
>>23114Are you talking about online catholics or american online catholics?
No.23117 KONTRA
>>23116Mostly French speaking online Catholics. There’s a lot of young conversions of people who used to be only moderately religious or even atheists, each year the pilgrimage to Chartre beats its last number of pilgrims. It mostly correlates with neo-puritanism, fascism and right wing ideology; most of the churches gaining traction are sedevacantist. But amongst all that there’s a few very interesting people who come in good faith.
No.23118
>>23117>There’s a lot of young conversions of people who used to be only moderately religious or even atheists,Well, people can't exist without anything they can believe in. Modern americanized individualist secular society only yields unhappy people, so they seek the path to happiness elsewhere, be it religion or nationalism or climate or communism.
Maybe with a Europe that is growing stronger it will also grow stronger in its identity overall and the national identities and give people a strong base on which to build instead of all those grifters.
No.23120
>>23119It’s been like a day and I’m already completely fed-up with people generating this artstyle.
There’s zero substance here. No point to the aesthetic.
And I say this as someone who has no deep connection to Miyazaki’s films.
No.23123
>>23101I believe I'm so enraged, so angry, desperate and insane that social contact hurts me, even if it means talk with people on the internet.
I'm browsing imageboards since 2006... I don't feel good among normalfags or any other people, well, I think it's time to leave humanity for good.
I thought I could browse ernstchan, but I think I'm way beyond help.
Goodbye.
No.23124
>>23123I thought I am an introvert and don't like people. Turns out I was just quite depressed. I still don't like certain social situations and certain people and groups of people but I actually need to talk to people, get in touch with them in order to be not depressed. Isolation for me makes everything worse and depresses me the most, though enough things are depressing already, I can deal with these things easier with that social factor satisfied. You should put too much trust in your mind in the state that you are.
No.23125
>>23124I meant to say that you should
not put too much trust in your mind, since you are depressed.
No.23126 KONTRA
>>23122Uhh, that was creepy
I would rather slurp rancid tuna salad out of my own ass
Or scour my boobies off with a rusty S O S pad
Or hump a piece of splintered balsa wood
No.23128
>>23123>... I don't feel good among normalfags or any other people, well, I think it's time to leave humanity for good.Please, don't leave humanity for good.
>>23101>Don't be meek here in Brazil means be a target of envy, greed, rage... I just want live a peaceful life and I rather be meek and alive. I don't know much about Brazil, but that sounds a lot like Janteloven, with an added twist of low-trust-society-violence. Not a very palatable combination, I agree.
Maybe you can loosen restraint in certain situations, be a little more chill with yourself and others, but still modest. You don't have to be a show-off.
> I can't do that. I have until 2028 to complete my degree or I will be expelled.That's a real problem. You invested much in your, I can tell, and it would be a shame to lose it all. Another trick German students used back in the 2000s was switching schools, when done cleverly, it enabled you to avoid such deadlines.
> Bunda, hot brazilian women, are commodities reserved only for rich Brazillian men, criminals and men from first world countries.It is like that in most other countries, but usually not to the extend people think it is.
> Socially awkward men like me need pay for sex... and even get rejected by prostitutes sometimes.Feeling so rejected must hurt. But I think the problem might be that you are somewhat guarded in real life. That makes it hard for the prostitutes to figure you out, and figuring out their clients can make the difference between life and death for prostitutes. There are a lot of freaks out there, and those women need to watch out for themselves. Do not hold it against them or you.
> You have no idea of how bad things are for introverted men in Brazil.No, I don't. But one thing I have learned is that being introverted doesn't necessarily imply being socially awkward. It's also true the other way round: not all extroverts are suave dudes who woo women left and right, some of them are literal laughing-stocks.
No.23129
>>23126>Or hump a piece of splintered balsa woodFuck's sake I never understood that last part.
To me it always sounded like "bossl wood".
After so many years I can finally see.
>>23127Are you the Ernst who replies to posts with his complete non-understanding of pre-social media pop culture?
No.23130
>>23129Took me years to get it right, first thing I heard wasn't 'slurp tuna salad', but 'pull barbed wire', which sounds even more unpleasant.
No.23131
>>23130Right now I am wondering why I never actually bothered to look up the correct lyrics, especially since I actually do own the CD. But since it's just a skit, maybe it's not printed. Too lazy to go looking right now XD.
And just listening through it I have no problem understand everything but bossl wood. It still sounds like bossl wood.
No.23132
>>23131> Own the cdOwn a bootleg a classmate made back in '99. It's in my room at my mom's house, and I don't even have a CD-drive anymore...
No.23133
>>23132It was actually one of the first CDs I bought with my own money.
I don't think I have any burned ones from that time anymore, but I rip everything right away anyway.
I only have burned CDs in my car, one of which is from autumn '07 and it's still working.
No.23134 KONTRA
>>23133First CD I bought was '10 kleine Jägermeister'. I was fucking dumb.
No.23135 KONTRA
Yesterday a professor told me about a book that could be tangentially related to my research. Though he didn't remember the exact title, only who translated it. He sent me the title + a BA thesis on the topic so I checked out a study (which I happened to own at home) and then also went to the library to read the book and the thesis.
The thesis looked impressive at first, but I quickly realised that it wasn't printed double paged and he got away with a bunch of shit we couldn't, like including uncommentated, lengthy translations in the middle section. (What for us would have been an appendix.)
I did find some interesting bibliography items. The book itself was only tangentially related to my topic.
But still I added a few more items to my own research material list.
German class went fine. Afterwards I ended up in an hour long discussion with a history PhD/Researcher about digital literacy, the USSR and how fucked up contemporary politics are. Learned some disturbing facts about the state of Hungarian governance.
He seems to have abhorred his position as a researcher at some think tank, retreating into "apolitical" historical analysis, but I was a bit jealous.
I don't know.
People tell me I have a good heart, but I often think that the flowers of evil would blossom quite fast if was actually tempted by power to become a lackey of sorts.
My knee seems to have recovered. I put tape on it for a second day and it's as good as new. I could run after the bus, go up and down the stairs no problem. Even with my bag on my shoulders. So tomorrow I will have a running session 100%.
No.23136
>>23118Speak for yourself, communism makes me miserable
It's how I know it's the only correct belief system
No.23137
>>23134Don't feel bad about, my first CD was the Steuersong
https://youtu.be/bClxnZd7JtUThough it was quite a late age to buy a first CD, maybe there was something else first.
No.23138
>>23137Excellent.
Somewhere in my mother's record cabinet there should still be the Suparichie Single.
No.23139
>>23136Hot take: most belief systems make you miserable.
No.23140
>>23136>>23139Guess it works like this:
>Adopt a belief system>Know deep inside you that any belief system is just an arbitrary set of rules, a futile attempt to make sense of something which has no inherent sense>become miserableGood news: You can simply be miserable without going through the hassle of adopting a belief system.
No.23141
>>23140No. A belief system is necessary to any being gifted with language.
No.23142
>>23140People with belief systems are evidently less miserable than those without though.
No.23143
>>23142Depends on the type of belief system. But we might confuse cause and effect here, miserable people may adopt certain belief systems to cope with their state:
"It's not my personal problems, it's capitalism/liberalism/Shitmany/Trump/Greens. I won't clean my room and take meds, I'll wait till political situation changes".
No.23144
An external belief system provides a standard against which you can measure your behavior. Everyone falls short, but there is value in knowing just how badly you missed the mark. Keeps you humble.
No.23145
The only way to be truly free from misery would be to destroy language
No.23147
>>23146Language is words. The passage from sensory input to meaning
No.23148
>>23147Define "words". Are hieroglyphs words? Is a Pepe a word?
No.23149
>>23148Hieroglyphs are a very good example of word. Words are the lens that makes us able to interpret reality. Other words for it would be ideology as Zizek defines it. The passage from the
absurd to the object is made possible by language.
There’s interesting parallels to be made with god’s creation of reality in abrahamic religions. God said led there be light. And there was light. God is this passage from the primordial void that is reality without an observer to the subject. God is words, is language, is what makes us humans.
No.23150
>>23149So as per your original post we should kill all humans.
No.23151 KONTRA
>>23150I guess it can’t be the way.
I’m still searching for a solution. Love is one, the fusion of beings beyond language, and understanding of the limit of our condition of subjects. I’d recommend love and meditation before thinking about murder.
No.23152
>>23151Another question: Can there be any communication and understanding without language? If so, provide examples.
No.23153
>>23152Niggers communicate without language.
No.23156
>>23145Animals, unable of speaking, still can be miserable.
No.23157
>>23156Yea they do. My theories aren’t foolproof yet…
No.23158 KONTRA
Ah clever fools who don't want admit they have convictions. The blind eye always with others.
>>23140>It all does not make SenseA belief system
>>23143>It's individual problems not structural Another belief system
No.23160
>>23158Having convictions =!= having a belief system
Bamboozled again, friend.
No.23161 KONTRA
>>23160if you believe in something, you are convinced of it.
If you believe in markets, you already are deep into a belief system, a system of convictions that lock into one another.
No.23162
>>23161Those two statements don't have anything to do with each other and only expose you as an obsessed communist who is butthurt that his dumb belief system is dumb, plus they don't even disprove my statement.
Go sit in the corner with the other dunces.
Btw, what I believe in is love after love.
No.23164
>>23163>but I will have convictions that make up a system Having convictions =!= having a system
Maybe you should adopt a belief system that makes you less retarded, honey.
No.23168 KONTRA
>>23164You have enough convictions to form a system. Not sure which belief system makes you deny that.
No.23171
>>23168The most effective ideology is the ideology of not having ideology.
No.23172 KONTRA
>>23168>You have enough convictions to form a system. Assumptions over assumptions, plus having convictions =!= having a system
>Not sure which belief system makes you deny that.There is no system, just the conviction to believe in the fact that a random number of convictions does not make a system.
No.23173
>>23172I don't deny the possibility that someone could have a set of convictions that don't cohere into a system. There's plenty of incoherent people around.
But since you're not posting manifestos about anorectal violence, or distilling youw own piss for medicinal purposes, it seems in your case you have simply failed to examine your own convictions to identify the system underneath. Nonetheless, the belief functions. The same is true of the vast majority of normal, "apolitical, non-religious" people, who believe passively. So you're in good company.
No.23175 KONTRA
>>23173Thanks.
>>23172Yes, yes your pile of convictions will never cohere to anything and never has. You never read anything coherent that informs what you think, and I am the tooth fairy when bored.
You are a good righteous citizen, lets speak the truth. And an annoying citizen on top.
No.23176
>>23158> >It's individual problems not structural > Another belief systemYes, and? I believe that Earth is round. You believe in Aum Shinrikyo. We both have a system of beliefs, yet mine is more truthful and practical than yours.
For the record, I don't deny existence of structural problems. But let's face it, you live on easy mode in a 1-st world country. There are problems in Germany, but making your whole personality and lifestyle about hating Greens or capitalism or something like that is a huge psychological cope. Clean your room, exercise and you'll feel fine.
No.23177 KONTRA
>>23176I'm pretty sure Russian oligarchs have a more comfortable live than me. However, your post does not makes sense.
>I believe that Earth is round. You believe in Aum Shinrikyo. We both have a system of beliefs, yet mine is more truthful and practical than yours.Does not make sense. I'm not even sure why you bring these up.
>I don't deny existence of structural problems.So you agree with the structural problems pointed out by whom?
>you'll feel fineWhat makes you think I don't feel fine?
Also can you explain to me logically why I should accept globalized capitalism as German citizen? Even though I had luck being born here and not in a poor house of a nation state produced by Germany among other nation states there is no rational explanation as to why I have to take sides with this. Even if Germany has long been a winner in capitalist (world) competition, people here still have to sell their labor power to exist and sell it to people who live off their work and try grow their abstract wealth.
No.23179
>>23176there's no such things as personal problems, are problems are structural.
individual responsibility is bourgeois propaganda
for example: many people don't have girlfriends. we are led to believe that this is a personal problem.
in fact, problem is structural: government doesn't provide girlfriend
simple as
No.23180 KONTRA
>>23173>I don't deny the possibility that someone could have a set of convictions that don't cohere into a systemIt's not "a possibility", it's strictly logical.
The defining trait of a system is, well, that it's systematical. Else it's just random shit. I never said or claimed anything else.
That's why
>>23175 is an idiot. That is my conviction, my creed and my holy belief.
I can also have the conviction that he's very annoying, even more so irl, and that has no friends because he's such an annoying idiot, and I believe that his belief system is based on being an irritating asshole trying to sound smart while in reality he sounds dumb.
Well shit, turns out I just invented a system of beliefs! I think I will adhere to that. Thank you, annoying idiot Ernst for helping me see the light!
No.23181
>>23180no such thing as "randomness", is bullshit invented by anglo mathematicians to trick normal people
you've been brainwashed
No.23182 KONTRA
>>23180Are you so butthurt about adhering to a liberal belief system like most people do or what exactly makes you act like a retarded child and deny this?
No.23186
>>23177You're a good illustration of my original point.
One could say that your belief system makes you miserable. Instead of appreciating what you have (as 1-st worlder in 21-st century) your beliefs make you suffer because you're not an oligarch and you don't live in some imaginary communist utopia.
But it's more likely that you chose this belief system since it perfectly matches your depression, frustration and laziness. "It's normal that I'm unhappy, I'm living in capitalist hell after all. I'll just wait until capitalism collapses, and then my problems will magically go away".
Well, it's your decision, maybe you like it more that way.
No.23187 KONTRA
>>23186First of all: you explained not what I asked you to explain. Because you cannot?
>One could say that your belief system makes you miserable. Wrong.
(1) The feeling of being miserable comes first, then comes a good explanation for why it is like that and that can be depressing to realize, indeed.
(2) You assume I am miserable. I feel quite good actually. Just because I think capitalism
its globalized form is normal development is a shit system in which violence and suffering are inherent and its beneficiaries are a minority, does not mean I cannot be positive about other things. As the saying goes: a good beer does not know critique
and cuddles, good sex or having friends neither
>your beliefs make you suffer because you're not an oligarch and you don't live in some imaginary communist utopia.I don't suffer because I'm not an oligarch. My personal (and other peoples) suffering comes from societies being organized around abstract wealth maxxing of heroic few to whose maxxing I personally need to contribute by wage labor so that I can have a roof over my head and food in my belly. This is where the individual life worlds and structural organisation meet.
>Instead of appreciating what you have (as 1-st worlder in 21-st century)Empty moralism. Sure, on the level of nation states, Germany is quite a Chad., large parts of the German people have it better than some African in his mud hut or some salsa mud from the favela, right? A roof over my head, a full belly and health care are great, but capitalism and all its misery
for the african, the latin mud and even the German Michel with two kids and a riggedy rigged wifey, who is afraid of losing his job and the respect of his unthankful wife and spoiled commie kids, who has to perform and be competitive, not just in his job, but also when applying for housing for example, sometimes he will think that he has to be buff as well in order to be a winner guy and not a loser in free competition is not needed for this to happen. You simply don't need a class of owners of the means of production and people who work for them and be given only a small percentage back from the fruits of their labor. There could be more for everybody. That is why I critisize the current state of things. It's badly organized, even luckily my belly is at least full. Could it be worse? Yes. Is that a reason to be satisfied with how it is and accept the status quo? No. Even you should understand this reasoning since it is structually close to retarded Entrepreneur speak that puts forward how you should not be satisfied with a given situation
though for them it happens within the gutter they were born in and want to stay in, their imagination is limited and tied to the status quo in a sense.
No.23188 KONTRA
>>23187
>But it's more likely that you chose this belief system since it perfectly matches your depression, frustration and laziness. "It's normal that I'm unhappy, I'm living in capitalist hell after all. Haha. Most that can be replied here can be read above. Though: what makes you think that I am lazy? I put much work into what I think deserves work to be put in. You should stop your overconsumtion of Telegram and political cartoons and focus your eyes on the offline reality.
>"I'll just wait until capitalism collapses, and then my problems will magically go away".Yeah, a lot of my and other peoples problems might actually go away. Why are you mad about that? Communism is there to get rid of certain problems, not all problems. Not sure why I have to explicitly tell you this, but looks like it actually is necessary to do so.
>Well, it's your decisionYou are right, I decided to settle on good arguments that explain the cause of certain problems and not go after the words of people that have nothing to offer besides moral advice, kitchen sink psychological and rallying calls that want you to comply
clean your room and think like an entrepreneur idiocy, it all wants you take part in the game instead of just thinking about exiting it and create another way of living with each other No.23189
How can you hate someone when you’re structuralist?
This is a genuine question. I feel I can’t hate anyone, but the thing above him that controls him is ok to hate. Maybe I have contempt to people adopting some structure. But never hate.
No.23190 KONTRA
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>>23187>>23188tl;dr: "I am really full of myself, also poopoo peepee"
Really wondering if you're the schizo, the schizo larper, or the farthuffer.
Maybe all three are one and the same person.
No.23192 KONTRA
I just relaxed mostly today. Watched some anime with a friend and then played a lot of Command and Conquer. I keep losing matches, but allegedly I have been improving.
Did some reading and I found a book that might be interesting and a copy for two euros so I ordered it from abroad.
Also on the book front, I stamped another half a dozen books with my seal. I found an old ex libris stamp my parents made for me, dated 2014, and that just made me realize I've been collecting books for over a decade now.
I pushed down so hard on the seal stone that it's sharp edges cut my palm.
I basically feel like I did nothing worthwhile today. I'm neglecting my duties again.
No.23199
What if you learned that imagined worlds are real?
And that every author who ever invented a character is a sort of god for that respective world?
What if this world is imagined, too, and our God doesn't even know it's real?
No.23200
>>23199What of you learned that all doors are created by hitting people? The stronger you hit someone, the better the door turns out to be.
No.23201
>>23200Then there’d be like super strong murderers who’d punch people into Venetian doors and shit
No.23202
>>23199But who was phone?
No.23204
>>23200I am already in the club
No.23209
>>23208>Busy intersections with a 4-way stop sign...but why?
No.23210
>>23209Traffic is not consistent enough to justify a lighted signal, and Americans have collectively rejected roundabouts. They confuse and frighten us.
No.23211
>>23210That still doesn't explain why there would be a 4-way stop sign construct instead of declaring one road the main road.
No.23219
>>23215>Being a pilot has actually been one of the two professional I had as a kidGoddamn did I have a stroke writing that?
I meant "one of the two professional paths I had my mind set on as a kid".
>>23216Nope, as that's basically ground piloting.
No.23224
I just saw a car that was sprayed with the word cheater on both sides and a broken heart as well.
No.23225
>>23224Was it really "cheater" or was it "Fremdgänger" or something like that?
No.23228 KONTRA
>>23225Cheater, and it was amateurishly painted. White on black car. I found it funny tbh.
No.23229
>>23135>>23192Hi Ernst, just a quick question (also asking other Ernsts as well):
How do you have the discipline/self-control necessary to task switch from work to playing videogames/relaxing/internet surfing? It seems you are very capable of of deciding when to initiate and when to stop participating in certain tasks (although this could just be me comparing myself to only the outward representation of someone). Obviously not every day is a success, but I seem especially bad at it.
I have diagnosed ADHD (yes I know, a bit of a meme - but I've had trouble with time management/organization/prioritization since I was a child, and have undergone neuropsych testing).
For example, I finished some work at 1am yesterday, but stayed glued to my laptop until 6am and therefore missed a good chunk of my classes (and sleep!). I waste time very effectively because I tend to allocate time that I am not using effectively in the present to the future where I do not have to be responsible for it.
Maybe it could the case of the "executive function" bell curve - where there is biological variation in the ability to regulate behavior:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D6Qfl4A9voMedication (inb4 lol american) gives variable results for me - it doesn't necessarily help with task switching but improves inhibitory control while working i.e. I can get the impulse to be distracted away from work but am able to control it and refocus on work.
I've tried a billion different things - body doubling, constant reminders, multiple alarms, alarms that require finishing a puzzle to unlock, peer shame/embarrassment. Nothing works. What does Ernst do?
No.23231
>>23229I woke up at 12pm and it's nearly 8pm now. I wasted nearly the entire day.
No.23233
>>23225> FremdgängerYou can write that on an MB Sprinter, 7m version. But on a normal car, you would need to make do with Frmdgng., otherwise, you wouldn't be able to fit the broken heart.
No.23234
>>23228Berlin or Hamburg?
>>23233If you don't apply the paint with a fire hose, you could easily fit "Fremdgänger" even on a Smart, if you're smart (heehee) about it, and then the broken heart underneath, or on the hood.
Also, when vandalizing cars, the windows are free, too.
t. car vandalizing pro
No.23239
>>23229>How do you have the discipline/self-control necessary to task switch from work to playing videogames/relaxing/internet surfing? Easiest way to stop one task is to start another. Regardless of how focused or
into it you feel, if you are physically in the act of working/playing/sufing your mind should follow. Easier said than done. I know.