No.17288
Slept like shit, woke up constantly, felt slightly sick in the stomach, but I also felt my thoraric vertebrae not being properly aligned, so I amounted it to that.
Then I had some very weird diarrhea that splashed so badly that I actually had to wash my lower half in the shower because it even splashed against my dick, AND I had to clean the toilet.
Then I had lunch and felt weird in the stomach again. It's leftovers from yesterday. Wondering if it could be some kind of food poisoning, but shouldn't that show its effect already a few hours afterwards and not the day after?
At least it doesn't seem to be EHEC because there was no blood.
Now I am drinking a chamomille tea to soothe the upset stomach.
No.17289
>>17288>Wondering if it could be some kind of food poisoning, but shouldn't that show its effect already a few hours afterwards and not the day after?I had food poisoning at least once and I had to constantly throw up in the morning the day after an evening meal at Burger King
you hardly can hold any food you at that stage btw. So shitting your guts out might be a form of food poisoning and it might take a while for your body to 'detox' (?). Could also be something else. Did you eat very hot/spicey food yesterday?
No.17291
>>17289I ate some grilled stuff that I made a rather spicy marinade for, but it's not as spicy as I often eat, so I don't think it was that. And that would certainly feel different.
But the leftovers also don't seem to be problematic - a salad made from broccoli, dried tomatoes, pasta, feta and sunflower seeds.
Let's see how it develops. Tue+Wed I will have to travel for work, and it's some important appointments so I would hate to miss that because I am shitting out my guts.
No.17309
In the french populist/reactionary online media sphere exist a small group of sculptors from the south called the
attelier Missor. They mostly sell plaster statues of Napoleon and Nietzsche, have no artistic education and have to guess how to everything, have gone in huge debts to create a 2 meters tall marble statue of Napoleon they offered to the city of Nice, have a dress code consisting of beige shirts black pants and suspenders, they spar together at the end of the work day and refer to each other using the formal address. Kind of a hyped up larp group, they claim to take on occidental art where it has been left off...
The master, Missor, wanted to build spacecraft as a child and has grown bitter because adults laughed at him and repressed his creativity, he walked the streets of Paris for all his youth, damning the whole world in an unending bitter depression and feeling lost. While wandering the street, he stopped in front of a huge statue of Napoleon and the statue starded to talk with Missor and asked him to scuplt statues of the emperor. He obliged.
I honestly find them extremely touching, kind of inspiring and harmless as they are now. They'd have their in a Disco Elysium like fiction.
Here's a self made documentary about them that is subtitled in english:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaohYL32-nI No.17310
>>17309Why do they all look like bougnoules?
No.17311
>>17309We have to admire their dedication. But sincerely hope they do not get the chance to fill public spaces with busts of Chopin frowning on all passers-by.
>>17310It is because they are French.
No.17312 KONTRA
>>17309Sounds like the LARP of 1900 LARPers. I would rather read about 1900 reactionaries. It's kitschy and reminds me of nazi artists in that regard.
... just found out that Arno Brekker did a portrait of Anwar El-Sadat in 1980.
No.17313 KONTRA
>>17310As
>>17311 said, they come from the south of France and more globally the south of europe. Though I think there's one actual arab in the group, I sincerely can't profile them for sure.
>>17311Yea it's ridiculous...
No.17318
>>17310They are all Portuguese.
No.17319 KONTRA
>>17317This guy came in Switzerland very recently to give a lecture to the nationalist party.
He's basically a lolcow at this point. His last high deed to date is to have licked his foot on a drunk stream and proceeded to cry over how superior the white man was.
No.17328 KONTRA
Also apparently last time when I got drunk on that Hohol vodka I ordered a book and it just arrived. It's Shukshin's I came to bring freedom, a historical novel about Stepan Razin. I think I was listening to Shostakovich's symphonic rendition of Yevtushenko's(?) poem and I somehow stumbled onto the novel and it was a euro so I ordered it. Yeah, the puzzle pieces are all falling into place.
No.17329
A stranger qt girl almost smiled at me! We were on adjacent seat rows in the train, I was faster and arrived a minute before her in the metro, we "met" back in the metro, our eyes crossed by mistake and her mouth muscles tensed in a way that could be interpreted as a smile. First time that ever happens to me.
>>17327Good luck, sino-ernst
No.17331
>>17329>metroI was calling bs on any Swiz city having a metro but a city in the french speaking part has. But I think your city has been known anyway. You are the same guy that in the past was part of a theatre group I guess.
No.17333 KONTRA
>>17331Shit, you are right, I doxxed myself.
No.17334 KONTRA
>>17333You doxxed yourself long ago, no?
No.17335 KONTRA
>>17334I may have yea. I think it stays vague enough for most users here. But I’ll be more attentive going on.
No.17338
>>17335I'm pretty sure you are the same person that talked about the lake as well. Whatever. Hungary lives in the outskirts of Budapest and you could pretty much find out who he is by attenting classes :DDD
That said another Ernst and I pretty much live in the same city. You can infer that probably from enough posts when digging.
No.17339
>>17338I am most certainly the same Ernst who talked about the lake. But I was young and even cringier back then. I think my reasoning at the time was that the total lakeside population must be of around 1 million if not more located in different and numerous urban poles.
No.17357
>>17352I suspect the use for certain forms of milk to be the cause for the different taste and I asked the AI what to think about this. Condensed milk is used in British recipes and the likelihood for it to be in British sweets might be higher than in German sweets.
After using the RISE prompt method I got a more precise answer that reasoned Brits use more condensed milk in desserts historically and also more milk powder and less cocoa than products for the German market that uses more fresh milk and German consumers prefering a more pronounced cocoa flavor in their chocolates and less sweetness.
No.17362 KONTRA
>>17361>Apparently no-one else submitted a print copy for safekeeping, so I'm officially the biggest fucking square in the entire department.I don't even have physical copies of any of my graduate theses myself.
The two demanded physical exemplars went straight to university and onto the desks of the examiners. Not sure what happened to them. I think the university has to store one exemplar them somewhere.
No.17365
Took the day off work. Have a lot of paid time off. Why not use some? Went to the gym. My visits have been sporadic this year. Still strong in some areas. Weak in others. Ran in the park. Cut it short because my stride felt a bit off. Probably the heat. Had some energy left, though. Mowed the lawn. Should just kick back the rest of the day.
No.17366
Two days after my weird gastroenteritis there's nothing anymore. Everything's well, didn't feel anything anymore even yesterday.
Whatever that was.
No.17369
Mom is at journey in Alps (Austria/Italy/Switzerland). What should I ask her to bring from there?
No.17371
>>17369Cheese is a safe bet.
>>17370Verboten
No.17372
Beef and pork pelmeni with smetana and Lao Gan Ma, what a simple but great combination. I did not use garlic powder but imagine it to add well to the flavor profile.
>>17369Oligarch coded journey.
Italian cookies are great No.17373
Found something delightfully insane made by an apparently autistic person of which I can't really tell if it's a real girl or a tranny.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ly5lvj_XanA No.17374
>>17373>38 viewsYoutube recently recommended a video to me with ~200 views. First time I noticed the algorithm digging deep to fill their sidebar.
No.17375 KONTRA
I ran again today. Hand some scones for breakfast with tea. Wasted time online. I went to the store to buy tea, bread and some snacks. On the way home I picked up that book I ordered while drunk.
I then had lunch and napped a bit. Had tea. Revised the vocab a bit but nowhere near as much as I wanted. Gonna go to bed early today.
>>17369Kräuterlikör is great 2bh. If you dislike herbal booze, then Chocolate is always an option.
>>17372老干妈是中国文化
No.17380
Just received an email that my graduation has been above average and that I can get a certificate for it, kek.
No.17383
>>17381Thanks. Curious if they will use metrics on that certificate. My BA documents had those. It doesn't matter for the job hunt anyway.
No.17384
>>17383Eh, in Germany more certificates is always better if you don't have actual work experience.
No.17386 KONTRA
>>17384Sure, I always add my workshop certificates and participation in events like a summer school. But you can also see from my resume that I have received an excellent grade, there is no need to add it I'd say.
No.17392
From the weird diarrhea on monday I didn't take a single shit this week until this morning when I shat a literal brick. Now I feel three kilograms lighter.
No.17397
Situation changed from "no work to do" to "a lot of work to do". But switching context is hard, so I'll spend Friday as usual -- studying topology and French and start working from Monday
No.17399
Posting for the sole sake of countryflagging.
No.17400
>>17399German fucking katoeys, is that you?
No.17401
>>17400>>>/b/23390> ~dickgirls waiting for meeee> >2.jpg> >Sat, 8 Jun> >next weekendseems like it.
didn't look it up, but katoeys == dickgirls, ight?>>17399hf
:3 No.17404 KONTRA
P.S. they have toy cars at their desks
No.17405
I applied for an AI meme job.
>>17403Real men are like little boys.
No.17409
>>17403Let me guess, you're INTJ
No.17410
>>17409I took the test and I'm indeed INTJ according to it. What type is Ernst btw?
https://www.16personalities.com/ No.17411
>>17410Also INTJ. It sounds like the personality of a typical person frequenting imageboards.
No.17413 KONTRA
>>17411I'm ENTP/ENFP. I'm special imageboard-wise
No.17415
>>17413lmao look at little fag-boi crying!
picrel is you trololololo
No.17416 KONTRA
>>17413Besides these types contradicting in behavior, the description also suits the INTJ in some way. MBTI is shit. What type does this proposition match?
No.17418
>>17416>What type does this proposition match?INTJ of course
No.17423
>>17415U jus’ hate on me cuz I’m different. Nuffin that yall INTJs would understand anyway…
No.17424 KONTRA
I had a massive headache most of the day which prevented me from studying. Strangely enough it went away after I had some instant ramen for dinner. Cramming vocab. Will do grammar tomorrow I think.
Honestly I thought the store selling "Finnish butter" was some fucking meme like how hipsers kept going on about Irish butter a decade ago but no it was actually really good and I only realize now that I'm subjected to bad quality local butter. The bread I bought sucks too.
You know whenever I think about foodstuffs I am always reminded of the pops from Victoria II and how you have to supply them with goods and I just think about how many different goods I "require" each day as a European citizen. Coffee, tea, lemon juice, bread, milk, salami, butter, vegetables etc. It's maddedning in a sense but also comforting that I do things.
I have a dehumidifier again. Will see if it can stem the tide a bit.
No.17425
>>17410INTJ
>>17420Didn't know what that was, but this:
https://www.tarot.com/tarot/tarot-birth-card-calculatorGave me The Hermit and The Moon.
No.17427
>>17423You're basicaly a grille lmaooooooooooooo
No.17429 KONTRA
>>17427Your creativity is out of this world.
No.17435
>>17410>>17434Different Ernst here, EC INTJ gang 4 lyfe bitches!
How tf is Gandalf an INTJ by the way? He's way too good with people. I call bullshit on this random bullshit graphic I randomly pulled from the web.
No.17436 KONTRA
>>17435Being introverted doesn't mean you are socially retarded.
No.17437 KONTRA
>>17435It is bs. I would say INTJ is simply somebody coming from research.
No.17441 KONTRA
Imageboard horoscope came out as ENTJ-T.
No.17442 KONTRA
>>17432This cast me down because I spoke the truth.
In the future, all relationships will be monetized. You will see therapists and prostitutes.
No.17443
>>17438I feel there's a joke somewhere with easily influenced zoomers and EcKinsey's "Young, fresh, feminine" slogan.
No.17457
I'm reading The Democratic State by MG and a short book on Metadata.
Cannot decide which books to read next. I have more MG stuff, but also a popular book on aerial intelligence by one of the persons who established it at the CIA in the second half of the 20th century. Bought a copy of Vilhelm Flusser Toward a Philosophy of Photography after listening to this
https://soundcloud.com/joshuacitarella/vilem-flusser-combination-game Switzerland could be very interested in this. I'm not sure if I would agree with Citarella in how he transposes the content of this book to social media of today, though. Need to read myself. But I also want to start with these school books by the GDR. Elemental Statistics for example. What mathematical knowledge do I need for this? I cannot even remember if I had statistics in school at some point. I think I had probability calculations.
There are also books on biology, microbiology and on mechanical engineering but in a poplar version. Sounds all interesting. I guess the biology knowledge might be dated at times but for the basics it will be alright.
I would also like to read more about data-driven journalism and get my toes into GIS.
Even when unemployed I don't have enough time for all of this and that is sad.
No.17458
I was in absolute fucking despair after waking up. Breakfast felt unsatisfying. Then I had to go to the hardware store to help my mother pick out a new lawnmower because my father is lazy and decided to just postpone it forever instead of helping and since "I'm the man" I gotta know what makes a good lawnmower.
"See? This is no good! It's only 1000W! I have no idea what this means but when a man says it it sounds good."
When it came down to it we had to pick between a "Korean" (latest fad) and a ""German"" (It's Chinese) one but we went with the latter because it was larger plus the inside was deeper so it wouldn't get stuck on random shit and I argued that since I will be the one using it the most I'd much rather not feel like it's pulling on my dick each time I have to use the fucking thing because it's a cheap piece of crap that has a flawed design.
Went to the store too. I bought a pack of coffee. They had sake but it was very expensive. I wish I had a bottle of sake. I associate good times with it.
The thing about Eastern Europe is that you sometimes forget that things can be nice and people aren't always out to get you. Like when they advertise a coffee as being an "Italian roast" and "spicy flavour" and "imported" they might actually be telling the truth and it's actually good and not the Dutch protestant bitter shit that kills your soul. So I enjoyed this blend a lot more than I did the other I bought a week ago.
Things can be better, things ought to be better.
Had a satisfying lunch and then crammed vocabulary outside. I had a second lunch. I mowed 1 quadrant of the garden with the new machine and weeded out around the tomatoes. They are too big to replant so I guess I will have to watch them over and prune the weeds regularly around them. I accidentally found two more as I was working in the garden.
I read a very interesting article on intellectual life in the 40s and 50s, focusing on the exploits of Imre Lakatos and based on it, cultural life in the period had 3 types of people in it. One were muscowite gigajews (not antisemitism, it's true, they knew it too. Lakatos actually invited someone by telling them that "Listen we have way too many Jews we could use a Preacher-son like you!"), the second was dipshit proles who got a position by the virtue of their class background and the third group was people who graduated from the exact same college I'm the member of lmao. (Of course they were the good guys.)
The entire article's fucked in a sense, can't really tell you why it makes me feel like I'm going mad just reading it.
The author quotes Kissinger: The reason that university politics is so vicious is because stakes are so small.
I assembled a short reading list of sorts for the MA thesis. I've already decided which text I will centre my MA on, but I will seriously need to read up on Daoism to tackle it.
Once the exams are done I want to rest like a week and then jump into translating shit hardcore.
I have a friend and his MA thesis had a 100 pages long appendix and I want to compete with him. I want the entire Huangdi Sijing in the fucking appendix. (Probably won't happen, but having one of the four parts in there would be enough of an achievement too. But I shouldn't dismiss myself like that. I actually feel like my ability to read Chinese has gotten a lot better.)
Plans for tomorrow: Actually do the goddamn grammar review, mow down another quadrant and try to improve my mood somewhat.
Idk if there's any point to doing any more vocab reviews because at this point I know like 99% of the 2k words in the deck and it's just mind numbing and time consuming. I just want this over with. Let me put the fucking degree on the wall already.
No.17469
>>17461Condolences. Having shoulders to rest things on is a very nice thing to have.
What did you do to get a plate?
No.17474
>>17469Took a spill riding my bike. Was transitioning from the road to a sidewalk and cornered too fast. It was dark. Tire hit the sidewalk edge and I hit the ground.
>>17458+1 for large lawnmowers. Had a narrow one with low clearance. Was almost glad it broke. Sized up on its successor. The only other significant feature to consider are wheels. How easily they raise or lower.
No.17478
>feminine energy
MODS ARE BOUGHT BY ECKINSEY! FACT!
No.17489
>>17478I already have a two-week plan on how to exude more feminine energy now. Monitoring EC with red lipstick on rn.
What ritual to perform tomorrow? Ach, that is too much planning and male energy. I will be spontaneous and just try to have fun.
No.17490
>>17489SHUT THE FUCK UP CUNT KILL YOURSELF I'M GOING TO JACK OFF NOW
That was my expression of emotions inside of me and unapologetically exploring my sensuality.
No.17491
>>17489>Buy yourself something>Unapologetically explore your sensuality>Lipstick and heelsAll of those insentives combined sound like evil unbridled individualistic consumerism, not feminity...
No.17492
>>17489We can advertise on crystal.cafe
Write to their administration and say, hey high quality imageboards should support each other in these hard times
And we can all start taking HRT
No.17493
>>17491You might just be onto something here, girl...
No.17494 KONTRA
>>17493I know it was posted here humoristically... Still gave me vertigo.
No.17495
>>17491It is. Besides baking cakes for my hubby and bearing his children that is.
t. stay at home mom
No.17500
Turns out if you weed out around the tomato plants they just sort of fall over because the weeds were propping them up. Fucked how nature is a system. Anyway, I had to use some small bamboo sticks to prop them up.
I did a light grammar review and finished the last vocabulary review.
Marked all the important bits with page markers.
It's gonna be over 30 degrees tomorrow. I want to go to the city to concentrate better. Apparently I'll also get some money back. Turns out the college managed to submit an application and it was successful so they re-funded our concert tickets. I don't actually remember the amount of money but it'll be nice. I just have to fucking pick it up.
Written part of the state exam is on Wednesday. I will do my best. The final struggle is almost at hand. I will be victorious.
>>17490>I'M GOING TO JACK OFF NOWYou really shouldn't. It's actually fucked up how masturbation is basically normalised now. It's not a good thing, it fucks up your mind and your mood. The less you do it, the better.
No.17501
>>17492I for one, welcome our feminized Ernstine overlords!
No.17503
>>17500>You really shouldn't[...]Not sure if using braindamaged internet incelscience for trolling purposes or actually believing the braindamaged internet incelscience.
In all seriousness: I have been regularly choking the chicken, on an almost daily base, for over 20 years now. I am not an incel, I am not a neet, I am not unhappy (in the sense of intrinsic unhappiness). Functionally, I am what you would call a "normie".
Brotip: Smartphones and modern internet are way worse, they fuck up your mind and your mood. The less you do it, the better.
No.17504 KONTRA
>>17503My findings are based on empirical research and experiments I conducted on myself, not brosoyence articles.
No.17506
>>17504Without actually knowing about it, I will claim that your study design is inadequate, also see my last paragraph.
No.17507 KONTRA
If I stop jacking off I become too sentimental.
>>17505lol
No.17508 KONTRA
>>17506It is long past time to address these matters seriously and effectively.
No.17511
>>17507Ah yes, post-nut clarity. Or in you case, blueball depression.
No.17513
meanwhile on [random female dominated community]
> the male needs to be milked at least exactly 21 times per month to ensure a healthy prostate.> if you are not in the mood, encourage your partner to masturbate.>>17505really made me rofl
>>17510known feel.
No.17514
>>17510Reminds me of a story of a friend. He had sex with a woman and according to him it was so boring and unexciting that he simply stood up, went to another room, and light up a cig.
Bad sex is really torturous and I guess I have been both a victim and an offender in the crime of being a boring sexual partner.
No.17519
I recently realized I hadn't created or worked on anything for my own pleasure in the last 10 years. In other words, all my preadolescent and adolescent life. Why?
I was a creative kid, writing, acting in and directing somewhat serious plays with my classmates that were shown in school, drawing imaginary worlds, writing fiction, filming "horror movies", creating some kind of paper drawn point and click adventures to educate brother. Why did everything stop at puberty?
I have a few theories, one being that I quickly became somewhat of an outcast during middle school, this aggravated up until I was 15yo. But it's BS, I always was "somewhat of an outcast", often being alone by my own volition during school breaks, doing my shit. I even opened up during the second half of my adolescence... And even if it was, I barely see the link to be made with this and creativity, especially the will to create.
I think the truth is more along those lines: my puberty corresponded with a gradual and constant increase of my screnn medium consumption, reaching its possible maxima during the covid pandemic, where my life became nothing but media consumption.
I already liked video-games as a kid and watched a lot cartoons. When hormones started to kick in, my libidinal urges were insidiously reoriented in the mediums I consumed, I became passionate about passively consumming them. Being weird and disregarded by girls made me even more strongly indulge in a virtual world where all my pulsions were satisfied by ultra-consumption.
It culminated with my discovery of pornography, as I started searching terms like narutoXsakura on google image and saw them kissing, I didn't expect the existence and sheer volume of extreme cartoon porn. It really fucked up my constructing pubescent brain like no adult at that time could imagine. A sexual desire that only could be satiated by the virtual, and became more and more virtual. And I know I am far from the only sacrificed kid whose entire adolescent sexuality was permantly hurt by cartoon porn.
Every aspiration I could have had was directly warped and digested by the internet and virtual video game worlds. And as companies saw more and more money to be made from this vital energy grabbing machine, the techniques sharpened. As I got older, the algorythm became fine and trained, and society was closing up on itself. When COVID came, all the benefit that could be made from not only my free time, but my entire waking time, was made. My attention was entirely accapareted by the digital spider-web. It finally truely fucked me up and gave me a bad depression. That I spent in my bend looking at videos and porn (real people this time). As I said, my creativity and my sexuality, both libidinal expressions were affected, but it also strongly affected my school results, especially during high-school.
In conclusion, I consider very seriously that my adolescence has been sacrificed. With this knowledge, I hope to gather the ressources within to revolt and reconnect with my will to create and experience more fully life.
No.17520 KONTRA
>>17519You have your whole 20s, lad.
t. 30yo who has to relive a hybrid 30s is my 20s I lost to depression but I'm too old to actually relive it like that
No.17522
>>17519Sounds like every other life story, maybe with less pandemic.
Stop whining and man up. And quite literally touch grass and turn off your screen lest you end like Hungaryball (I will assume here that you're younger than him) with his unhealthy perspective on sexuality.
Btw, do other languages have a word for the "youngest" or any group? I am talking about the term "Nesthäkchen".
No.17524 KONTRA
>>17520Yes! I have shit loads of time and will try to use it carefully.
>>17522>stop whining and man upLost 7kg in a month, started lifting and swimming each once a week, trying to stop smoking, reduced from four fags a day to one every three days, I never read as much as I do lately. Definitely improoving
>Btw, do other languages have a word for the "youngest" or any group?"Benjamin", is used to refer as the youngest of a group, but is most of the time used to describe the last born of a family.
No.17525
>>17524>Yes! I have shit loads of time and will try to use it carefully.Try to be conscious about it and if you at this age have the feeling of regret not doing something then sincerely to these things because you - surprise - will regret not having done things later on and its not nice when you realize you wasted a lot of time. Better late than never, is what I can tell myself.
>"Benjamin", is used to refer as the youngest of a group, but is most of the time used to describe the last born of a family.Pretty much what a Nesthäkchen is.
No.17526
Cut my hair. Took off a few inches. First time in over a year, so still some length left. Wanted something more manageable heading into Summer. Mission: Accomplished.
>>17524Congrats. WAGMI.
No.17527
>>17524>BenjaminHow c&a and christianpilled.
No.17530
>>17529They worked for me. But they don't work for everyone, have many side effects and cause addiction.
Start with cleaning your room, washing your penis, moderate physical activity and so on. If it doesn't help, try ADs.
No.17531
>>17530>They worked for me. But they don't work for everyone, have many side effects and cause addiction.They worked for other people I know. I don't want to deal with side effects. Addiction, hm. Don't know. I have a sugar and screen addiction but I never had a real drug problem albeit I did them for some years with regularity but not in an I can't stop kind of way.
>Start with cleaning your room, washing your penis, moderate physical activity and so on. If it doesn't help, try ADs.I have all the basics down. I need to be more with people, it has been a problem before and I notice again how I feel to lonley. Also of course the no gf feeling. It has been so long, even sex has been to long. But I don't feel like chatting up somebody because I feel depressed and fear rejection then because my depression can be seen through. But then again you know, I know many woman have that problem as well, and they just don't want to be lonley either. Rationally it's known, but emotionally I can't get it going.
No.17533
Went to the city. I basically got everything I wanted done today save for a complete "active" review of the deck where I actively write the characters.
Went to the pharmacy and also picked up the price of the concert ticket.
Went to McDonald's because my brain told me I wanted a cheeseburger. My stomach afterwards told me I didn't want a cheeseburger. Felt a bit dizzy. Had an energy drink. Crammed.
Ordered a Chinese sci-fi novel.
Came home, crammed some more, ate the leftover tiramisu. There's still like 350 cards to learn but I just simply grind my brain smooth if I do this shit for too long and I learn nothing. I know a lot of this shit it's just that there's a lot of pesky nouns I need to know in case the essay/picture describing part needs it.
I should focus on grammar more anyway.
I think I will be able to pass the written exam. I will just look through the examples they gave us for exercise types and I will be fine to take it. Then onto surviving the oral part but like, who gives a shit I could talk about China for hours probably.
Been thinking about what the dream-roll for the oral exam would be and I think it'd be
1. History – Zhou period
2. Literature – Chinese works of history from the earliest times to the Han period
3. Philosophy and religion – Chinese legalism
The nightmare roll would be
1. Probably something medieval or the Ming
2. Also probably something medieval but I feel like literature's probably the only area where I'm well rounded
3. Any of the three Buddhist topics
Realistically speaking there should be no nightmare rolls because I will prepare for everything and I will know everything at a serviceable level.
No.17535
>>17529ADs helped my younger brother a lot but didn’t help me. You have to get evaluated by someone competent I’d say, see a psychiatrist in the course of a therapy who could prescribe with the specific antidepressant that’d be the most adapted to what you live, or even not prescribe you anything, even if it’s rare
No.17536 KONTRA
>>17535Therapy is a lie and antidepressents are a lie. So-called depression is the natural state of mind of defeated losers, they are in that state of mind because they are defeated losers, it's good and natural that they should feel this way. In any natural society, they'd be driven away and killed by wild animals or just freeze or starve to death. Nature is cruel, but nature is good. If you are depressed, you should be thankful that you are alive. Of course, it would be more merciful to just gas sub-par existances, but, unfortunately, slave-morality is rampant.
No.17538 KONTRA
>>17536What's the most natural, industrial type of society possible to you?
No.17540
>>17538National Socialism.
No.17552
>>17519> It culminated with my discovery of pornography, as I started searching terms likemay I interest you in the art of hour long goon sessions?
>>17536> t. cavemanIf the only tool you know is a club, every problem looks like it can be resolved with murder. We know.
No.17553
>>17552>If the only tool you know is a clubWhat an ironic statement
No.17574
>>17572The coins say great fortune lies ahead for the Superior Person.
No.17576
Were you bullied? Were you the bully? How did you react to school bullying around you?
No.17577
>>17576Ernst was too boring and unimportant to be a bully target, and too weak and way too lazy to be a bully himself.
>How did you react to school bullying around you?I was glad that I wasn't the one being targeted.
No.17578
>>17576Define "bullying". There was never any US school tier bullying where I grew up, but I was also never a particularly popular or unpopular kid.
I would say I was never "bullied", I just didn't really belong to anyone and was mistreated a few times, but not systematically.
However, I did bully people on two different occasions which I feel bad about in hindsight. In both cases it was with a group of kids to which I didn't really belong.
One kid's mom one day visited all of us and the bullying stopped there. The worst thing about it was that I actually started it because I gave him an embarrassing nickname that kinda stuck.
The other kid was from our village, but just unpopular and not in our school, and they were teasing him and sometimes I also did. He had also never really been part of a group and I know he had at least a slight resentment towards me; he probably hated the others.
Years later I was working as a substitute pizza driver for a friend and he was at the place and tried to make fun of me for being a pizza driver. I say tried because it was more laughing at me for being a pizza driver and saying something along the lines "ah now you really made it".
I am too proud and petty to apologize for being a shithead kid, but he was certainly justified in behaving like that.
No.17579
>>17578>There was never US-type bullying where I grew upThis. There was one gay kid who was bullied by a couple (male/female) who had been held back. They knew each other from a stoner-clique outside of school. One day, he hid in the bushes with a pipe and beat both of them bloody.
No.17580 KONTRA
>>17578>US school tier bullyingI know one instance of a childhood friend of someone I went to high-school with who allegedly successfully hanged himself from bullying, so it exists. My high-school friend was still traumatized and percieved banter as attacks, which alledgedly spoiled his HS experience.
No.17581
>>17580Banter is attacks. It is meant to establish dominance hierarchies. People are just dishonest about it and do not admit it, because it can't be brought in line with what they would like to think about themselves.
No.17582
Exam done'd. Like Hamilton, I had to write as if I was running out of time. Except I was literally running out of time. I had to rush through the final question on post cold war balance in order to have enough time to write out an essay on the enlightenment and the end of the Ancient Regime. I don't think I got any questions wrong, but I was unable to review long form answers due to the time constraint and I'm quite sure they came out as rushed. My careful calligraphy went out the window when only 30 minutes remained, but I hope it's all legible. Now I wait.
No.17583
>>17581>Banter is attacksYeah, and you're supposed to defend yourself.
If you hang yourself away from it you're most likely not cut out for real life in the first place.
No.17584 KONTRA
>>17583>hang yourself away from itGod, what an atrociously literal translation. You fucking imbecile retard should be shot for stupidity, you worhtless piece of shit have no right to make any utterance when civilized humans converse. Be happy that you are allowed to read along and stay silent, you mongoloid retard.
(Hopeless...) No.17586
Let's coin a new term: We know "Zangendeutsch" for literal translations from english, but the other way round:
I suggest "forceps english".
No.17587
>>17586> forceps englishclearly not the yellow from the egg; the term doesn't roll from the tongue.
No.17589
>>17587I know it is under all pig, but such is it stop.
No.17597
According to my new age Buddhist friend, karma works like that: you get what you pursue. For instance, if you spend life following lower animal instincts, you get reborn as animal.
I think, my grandpa is going to be born in Latin America when he dies. He loves soccer so much as if he's Brazilian. And on every occasion he starts to tell about his journee to Cuba during missile crisis. He's workaholic, so he's going to be Protestant amigo instead of Catholic one.
As whom are you going to be reborn if you continue your lifestyle?
No.17599 KONTRA
Also he's seriously emotionally invented in post-1991 Latin America tier politics. Still likes Yeltsin for some reason (everyone else stopped after he became president) and passionately hates Putin, enjoys hating him.
In Latam he can love Pinochet and hate Chavez.
Or his obsession with coffee. He even asks me regularly, "Do you drink coffee? Why not?"
No.17600
>>17597>According to my new age Buddhist friendPeople just need some kind of ideology to complete their internal worldbuilding, don't they? It doesn't even matter how ridiculous it is. Luckily, most of those ideologies are harmless.
>As whom are you going to be reborn if you continue your lifestyle?Not sure, but you bet I'll try to cheat the system and try to get reborn as something where I can max out my spare time/work-ratio.
No.17601 KONTRA
>>17576Honestly in school we bullied the shit out of each other. I was a target a few times, but I got off easy compared to the people who were literally bullied into physically lashing out and changing school. (Mainly because I was just sort of out of the way.)
Speaking of that:
What was "the incident" at your school?
Ours was that a guy who was bullied for being an edgelord (watched too much anime, no really!) once got so mad that he broke down a door with his bare hands and they had to get his therapist to stop him. (He also tried to open a locker with a big knife in the teacher's room once to get back his bluetooth speaker lmao.)
No.17602 KONTRA
>>17600>try to get reborn as something where I can max out my spare time/work-ratioGet Bürgergeld and work and what you like.
>People just need some kind of ideology to complete their internal worldbuilding, don't they?As if you don't adhere to any kind of ideology.
No.17603
>>17602>As if you don't adhere to any kind of ideology.Probably I do, but at least I can deal with not knowing everything about the world, instead of making up ridiculous stuff and then act dead serious about it. Everyone: Feel free to post fat guys tipping their fedoras now.
No.17604
*ominous bullying in the distance*
No.17605
>>17603I sense bad vibrations, brother.
No.17606
>>17576In elementary school I participated in bullying like rest of the class.
In middle school I absented from bullying because I felt that it was wrong. I'm proud that at 13 I was already that conscious.
Here are a related stories. In elementary school we were driven to library with classmates. And they presented to us local noname writer, but he was presented as a celebrity and everyone wanted to take his signature. I didn't have a pen and the bulled guy offered a pen in exchange for me becoming his friend. I took his pen but didn't become his friend.
Another story is that both guys whom my friends bullied in secondary school were of unusual ethnic origin. So teachers thought that it's because they are racist and our class had to go through "lesson of tolerance" with invited specialist - young girl (probably still in university), who was bullied by the class during that lesson.
>>17600You fate, determined by your laziness: become a tree. Dogs piss and shit on you and you can't move.
>>17605I can sense that he used to be bullied.
No.17607
>>17601>What was "the incident" at your school? I can think of the two incidents. Since one of them I remember poorly, I'll tell about other one.
There was a girl, shy and unattractive. She was weeb, chubby and short. Also was daughter of someone in school administration.
So she sent her nudes to some guy, he resent them to someone else and eventually entire school (even me) saw it. The girl was below 16 at the moment.
No.17608
I deactivated my TikTok two days ago because I felt depressed and looking at the stats of my TikTok use and the fact that it is an immense distraction and avoidance machine and the discourses you inevitably get curated that impact my mood made me take that decision even though I miss the archive I built, there is good content to be found I cannot access all the recipes I saved for example which is a big downturn tbh. Also many other education, interesting or funny o wholesome tiktoks, but getting through the rollercoaster first is just too much of a negative at the moment when I struggle with isolation and its vicious circle. I'm bored and I don't want to start reading a book yet, or watch an hour-long video or listen to a podcast. On many occasions throughout these two days, I caught myself grabbing my phone just to realize I did not have easy access to TikTok anymore.
No.17609
>>17608fucking hell man what is it with that runaway sentence that just won't stop like a teenage not stopping to take a breath while telling you about her uninteresting day and not stopping while you wish you could strangle her or yourself just to get out of this situation like really just like yesterday when that dumb cow from the class above said I looked like a cow can you believe that she was sooo mean and all while looking like a cow herself that fat slut I just can't even
Good for you, an important step in the right direction No.17610 KONTRA
>>17609Find friends. EC is no good for you, it seems.
No.17611
>>17610Consider that you've just uninstalled TikTok - the right to criticize which websites other people use isn't earned yet.
No.17612
Installed Tiktok. First impressions:
1. There is some fun, some cheap dopamine, but it gets boring in 5-10 minutes.
2. I understood that I live in a social bubble and got very snobbish about people I see outside.
Will report more later, when recommendations get adjusted for me. Unless I give up the idea.
No.17613
>>17601>What was "the incident" at your school? No incident so to speak, no one was ever thrown in a bad spastic feat. But I recently learned that an old schoolmate which I remember relatively fondly had allegedly been a bit too violent in his sexual interactions, so much so that a girl made a rape complaint to the cops. From what I heard coming from my friends, he most likely indeed was a creep and maybe even an all out rapist.
>>17612Be careful trooper. Don’t get lost.
No.17614
>>17597>As whom are you going to be reborn if you continue your lifestyle?My next life will be spent as this one: In American suburbs. Strip malls, highways, overpasses, trains, sidewalks and tree lined streets. Home sweet home.
Wouldn't mind fewer people. Not
rural fewer, though. Just respawn on the outskirts of a city which is dying faster than Buffalo.
No.17615
>>17610There was a very, very subtle, almost unperceivable criticism of your writing style in that post.
Changing that makes people more inclined to actually engage with what you say instead of how you say it.
I would post a hyperactive vertical video about that topic, but you are on cold turkey and obviously going through some ehavy withdrawal and I don't want to make it harder for you.
No.17616 KONTRA
>>176118-)
>>17612TikTok is only interesting once it is adjusted. The blank slate TikTok you get when downloading the app is the normiest norm shit available. I imagine YouTube shorts and Instagram reels are like this at its best.
No.17617
>>17614Very selfish. It's time for you to be born again elsewhere so others may have the chance to experience America in a next life.
No.17618
>>17616I doubt that Tiktok can be really adjusted for me and I'm going to adjust it for epicly cringe shit (so bad that good).
One the other hand, normie stuff is very interesting. We live in society bottom text. It's curious to see what is in the head of a checkout worker. Or a guy sitting near you in subway.
No.17619
>>17618If you adjust it to you, it will have interesting content for you. You find a lot of different niches on TikTok. Even meme right wing shit. Also incels and the men women stuff in abundance you so deebly care about . You are the guy in the subway next to you. If you think something else you must be below 25.
No.17620
>>17619Imagine getting defensive over tiktok of all things. You are certainly at least mentally not over 25.
No.17621
>>17620I'm simply sharing the observations I made while using this app.
>frantically looking down on TikTok simply because you are over 30Ok bro, you are not childish at all.
No.17622
>>17621>franticallyOh no, he's already having withdrawal delusions! Quick get the haldol!
No wait, let me enjoy your immense butthurt for a little longer. No.17623 KONTRA
>>17622You know it's true. Thanks.
No.17627
>>17619On a second thought, it's the format which is a problem. What can you put in a 15 second video? A little pun, a factoid, an aphorism. This is a format too small for serious topics which need text or practice. And too big for right wing (or any other) memes, they just needs jpgs. For the incel topic - I don't want to watch content, I just like arguing with Germies. Well, for general linguistics my curiosity level is learning factoids. And for studying French tiktoks by French (not tiktoks about French) are silly and visual enough.
Tiktok is for humor scenes and dances. OK, I may be interested in dances.
No.17628 KONTRA
>>17627>What can you put in a 15 second video?TikTok allows uploads of one hour videos by now, Mr. Expert. I watched TikToks from 7 seconds to 10min.
No.17629
>>17627TikTok does not replace reading a book, that much is certainly true. But you can still learn from a 5min video. TikTok is snacking of different types. Snacking nonetheless opens up new worlds of meals and flavors to discover and a ot of snacks in one topic can give you an idea for further or serious research. TikTok is a medium with a format that is its limits. That is why you can only get certain uses out of it while others are prohibited. The same is true for a book. You can choose to be a media snob or you can just pick and use to your liking and understand that different media can be handy depending on what you want. That said, each medium can exert control over you through its design.
No.17630
>>17628As you taught me, medium is the message. You can technically give lecture or stand up show in opera, but no one will do it except weirdos.
No.17631
>>17630You started your critique from a premise that the format problem is rooted in time. I'd say next to time the video format and app design as video snack swiping is the bigger problem/defining factor. Also, why not give a lecture in an opera house? You can cross formats and media with surprising results.
Let's rather discuss if vertical format video increased the likely hood of dance videos since with vertical format you have the camera usually catch the whole body at once, which is important for dance videos inlike boomer horizontal photography habits.
No.17634 KONTRA
>>17633in my tracksuit, lurking EC on my phone (vertically, because I'm not a psychopath)
No.17635
btw, how hard is it to train the TikTok algo?
I tried it for a very short time and after a while I just got "stupid things americans say", "american reacts to [...]", "why america suxx", "america - the biggest 3rd world country", "DANCE THE DANCE, #dance123 #123dance #12dance3", "why I never gonna return to america" and so on.
Reinstalled the app and all I got was "feminism suxx", "feminst destroyed by chad", "hoe gets wrecked by logic", "DANCE DANCE DANCE, #123123123dance #dance123213123", "How to be a manly man", "POA 101, send dick pics" ...
Never tried it again afterwards.
I assume it was because of the first thing i got served and viewed. Do you have to actively ignore content to get a somewhat decent algo?
No.17636
>>17635I tried once and got stuck in a loop of swisspride and shitty geography oriented content. I decided to re-try a few month after and to try to make the content interesting by appealing to my animalistic side. I started to like beautiful women and got stuck in a beautiful girl loop. It took me a month to decide to stop. TikTok is good for presenting girls.
No.17637
lmao tiktok german is talking about tiktok like swissball is talking about his french ex
No.17638
>>17635>Do you have to actively ignore content to get a somewhat decent algo?I would say so. You often get what you watch (long enough and with a certain sound). If you ignore certain content it won't be displayed to you and the algorithm will try something else. I don't know how they calculate what you might be interested in but it worked often enough. It also depends if you follow somebody or like a TikTok.
When you get all "America this America that", you watched all this shit to the end because you were curious enough to watch the trash normies watch and seemed equally interested in the content, albeit for different reasons.
When I first used the app I got countless blowjob references videos by women over 30 making themselves a pony tail in a video and having a text something along the lines of "my man knows what will happens next" / "when I did X and now have to calm down my man" etc. And yeah you get a lot of gendered content: how to be alpha, Pua, why men suck, go lesbian etc. etc. You even get these when you have a refined algorithm that touches upon certain asthetics or niches you are interested in. Though I have to admit I was guilty enough to watch enoughof these because I was not able to not be curious what this take will state.
You basically can get nearly every topic in varying quality if you just spend enough time scrolling and actively try to manage your behavior against what the algorithm calculates.
My roommate actively ignores all German Tiktoks but still gets them occasionally. It's also a form of testing I guess.
>>17636>got stuck in a beautiful girl loopYeah. But you must also know that it is said the algorithm prefers people considered beautiful
apparently because more attention is given and that means time spent No.17641
I worked out three of the history topics for the exam.
Also gardened a bit.
Replanted another tomato plant so it's not in the fucking shadows all the time and also put this basil plant my mother got in a pot. I will probably use it for pizza once it gets stronger.
The apple tree had a branch break under its own weight, but thankfully it didn't fall on top of the tomatoes. I want to say I would have been mad bit it's kind of like the "Lord giveth, the Lord taketh" because it's not like I did anything to have those tomatoes there in the first place. Would have been a funny, cosmic sort of irony but it didn't fall on them. I ended up chopping it up slightly.
No.17642
Was searching my TV settings while Youtube played on the desktop. Some long ad played through. Something about diabeetus, I think. Wasn't paying attention. On the one hand, Google made money- which is bad. Because they're evil. On the other hand, an advertiser had to pay money for a spot no one watched. Which is good. Because marketing is also evil.
Calling this a draw.
Thank you for reading. Enjoy this ad for...I don't know. Some ancient Chinese secret.
53YT11V2https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ouEUnOy8yU>>17641My sister decided to try fresh basil. Bought a small potted plant. Looked dead two days ago. Today it seems fine. Weird. Don't know what her cutting/cooking plans are. Probably tomato sauce. Probably for pasta.
No.17643 KONTRA
>>17642Basil plants need regular watering (I mean most plants do, but most plants don’t look this fucking bad if you forget to water them after a single day) otherwise they start going limp and then dry out, but are surprisingly resilient despite how dead they can look. As long as they don’t actually dry out 100% they can bounce back in a few hours after you water them.
No.17645
>>17642Why don't you have all kinds of adblock installed?
No.17647
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
over many a quaint and curious shitpost of forgotten boards,
while I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
as of someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
"Must be my mother", I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door---
only this, and nothing more."
Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow;—vainly I had tried to borrow
From my feed surcease of sorrow—sorrow for the lost waifu—
For the rare and radiant maiden that which was my true waifu—
Nameless here for evermore.
No.17648
I hate white people white people shouldn't be allowed to exist. Without white people, there would be no racism, no capitalism and no climate change. If all white people were killed today the world would instantly be so much better and people in the community could get white people houses and stuff so why not kill white people?(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)
No.17649
>>17642I've been reading over Michael Bazzells privacy book. And thought about it when reading the post from an American.
Does Ernst know Bazzell? What do you think about him and how do Europe and American compare on data privacy? I mean the US reads bad but I wonder if the EU is really that much better? I guess in Germany privacy is valued enough that governments don't public your data online. Something like mugshots are not a thing, especially.
No.17650 KONTRA
>>17649Privacy from other privates? Certainly better in EU.
Privacy from the government? loving every laugh
No.17654
>>17645I browse with no add-ons. As God intended.
>>17649Don't know it but seems similar to
How To Be Invisible. My mother kept that on a bookshelf for some reason. Maybe had secret plans to get away from us kids. I flipped through. Recall it mentioned using an LLC to hide ownership of assets.
>governments don't public your dataThey also sell it.
DMVs Are Selling Your Data to Private Investigatorshttps://www.vice.com/en/article/43kxzq/dmvs-selling-data-private-investigators-making-millions-of-dollars No.17655
>>17643After initially ignoring the plant, she realized it needed water, lol. Also, her plans are to make tomato, mozzarella, and basil sandwiches. No fresh sauce for me.
No.17656
>>17654>I browse with no add-onsJESUS CHRIST HOW HORRIFYING
Do you also fuck thai ladyboys without condom?
No.17658 KONTRA
Ffffffffffck
I’m so stressed out I feel sick and my exam is in a week.
No.17660
>>17659I outyouthed you, I’m now the Nesthäkchen of EC.
The next step is naturally to outacademy you and I’ll have fully replaced you in EC’s social order!
No.17663 KONTRA
>>17662I don't know the results, I think that if I fail to hit the grade I need - it'll be for a very small margin. I'll go at it for round 2.
I've managed not to care much for now by
getting laid.
No.17664
>>17663The prole way of dealings.
t. Emile Zola
No.17665 KONTRA
Woke up to the rainstorm.
Mother did the groceries but forgot the butter so I went out and bought some to save myself from an autistic deadlock where my routine is halted by a single item missing. If something interferes with my idea of how things should be, I feel crippled and I need to fix it.
I keep preparing for the final stretch. I worked out three literature topics and also took out my notes from like year 2-3 and I re-read most of modern Chinese history based on them.
Honestly fuck writing notes, I will just use my old ones. It's not like I need to remember everything, I just need to talk for 10 minutes. Kind of sad. The lack of erudition.
The weather was kind of humid after the rain.
Found out that the mosquito spiral beats the mosquito repellent spray on all levels. Haven't been bitten a single time.
Also helped with cleaning the pool a bit. We're getting ready to fill it up with water.
No.17667 KONTRA
>>17642> Some long ad played through.>>17654> I browse with no add-ons.[insert stupid + lazy american joke]
it costs too much time and money to watch ads. Some sites use >90% of their data traffic just for ads.
The energy costs (and the fiat money prize tag) are not worth it; just think about the environment.
If you are not installing an ad blocker
right now, you belong to the part of humanity actively destroying our earth !!
https://chromewebstore.google.com/detail/ublock-origin/cjpalhdlnbpafiamejdnhcphjbkeiagmhttps://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/ublock-origin/https://microsoftedge.microsoft.com/addons/detail/ublock-origin/odfafepnkmbhccpbejgmiehpchacaeak No.17668
One of the oddest tiktok things is when there's a video playing and someone is occupying at least 1/3 of the screen and just silently reacting with exaggerated facial expressions to whatever is being said by the background video.
I wonder if it would be possible to have an AI generated reaction person that lets me know I'm supposed to feel about all of these EC posts.
No.17669
>>17667> adsI prefer term infocommercial violence. And it is long past time to address this issue.
BTW, unironically there is a professor in Moscow state university, who belongs to Stollman's cult and has a blog about "information violence":
http://infoviolence.org/ru/vblog/video001.htmlBesides ads, he includes in this term javascript and copyright.
No.17670
>>17668This way they are exploiting your mirror neurons.
No.17671 KONTRA
>>17667>Some sites use >90% of their data traffic just for ads.The complete ad/marketing industry is another reason why capitalism has to go.
No.17672
>>17668>watching TikTokThanks for your service, pal 🫡
No.17673 KONTRA
>>17672I'm not. It's these short form videos making their ways onto other platforms.
No.17685
>>17676>posts video on platform other than tiktokqed
No.17692
>>17691I only ever get those with French food items like cheese, wine, or sweets. People laughed about french people saying the word brownie
Brö-nie for the Germans that wonder how it was said.
No.17693
>>17686But what about the older woman for whom you're learning Chinese?
No.17696
>>17689>content in the form of [...] youtube videos.Oh Ernst you're killing me :-DDDDDDDDDD
No.17698 KONTRA
>>17693That's her.
Started learning Chinese before I met her :DD No.17699
>>17696I found back to horizontal edutainment, aren't you happy?
No.17700
>>17699>I stopped drinking beer, I only drink wine anymoreOh Ernst, you're killing me :-DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Plus I bet you constantly watch shorts No.17706
Worked all day. Done now. Not usually out late on Sunday. Driving home, surprisingly little traffic. Or maybe not surprising. Sunday morning is for doing things. Sunday night is for dreading Monday.
>>17691>Female>FrenchPeak
Tik Tok.
No.17707
>>17701Yes, because if I didn't it would have looked a bit like this:
>I stopped drinking beer, I only drink wine anymore, and some waterYou're absolutely killing me, Ernst :-DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
No.17720 KONTRA
Finished fully studying the present rental code as defined by our national Civil Code.
Folks, we're staying.
No.17722 KONTRA
>>17720Read it as "rectal code".
No.17724
>>17722Article 148 of the civil code stipulates that whoever, by negligence, harms another person's health in a manner severe enough that they can't attend work for a period longer than 2 days is liable for criminal charges.
No.17727
My car failed NYS inspection. Cracked rear light. Wanted $500 to fix it. Went to another place. Waiting on a quote. Searching in the meantime. Replacement light housing is $50-100.
Youtube vids look easy enough. May fix myself. Definitely not paying $500. Hate dealerships. Only went there for the inspection. This same place passed the car last year.
With the cracked light.
>>17720Will a fight be necessary for you to stay, or do you expect the landlord to back down when you assert your rights?
No.17729
>>17727I don't know. E-mail was sent.
Now I await his response.
No.17731
>>17729Good luck.
Childhood is when you identify with Melanie Griffith and Matthew Modine. Adulthood is when you realize Michael Keaton was the hero.
https://www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pacific_Heights_(film) No.17732
>>17730>decided to wear a tielol
It's a formality in your case I'm sure.
I have an interview lined up and I wonder what to wear. It's an office job. The last one was an office job but I think I overdressed in the end by wearing a shirt.
No.17733
>>17732My rule of thumb is to be rather overdressed than underdressed.
Unless you're wearing some three-piece suit with matching pocket watch and monocle nobody will give you shit for appearing with a regular shirt, non-jeans pants and normal shoes and even a jacket, but wearing your old chucks, grindcore band t-shirt etc. would probably make a worse impression.
Unless you want to work at one of those professionally teenaged (plz insert a good translation for "berufsjugendlich" here) startup joints where they scoff at shirts and suits before they go bancrupt after a year.
No.17735
>>17733Luckily I already wear pants and formal shoes casually. I just feel a bit stupid with the shirt. But I will wear a shirt just to be safe as you mentioned. Somebody recommended a T-shirt with a jacket. The rising temperatures say no.
No.17736
>>17735>Luckily I already wear pants So you usually wear a skirt?
Are you a grille?
No.17737
>>17736Pants = never any jeans.
No.17741 KONTRA
>>17740I preferred the YouTube design before the last new update over the 2007 design. But sure, many are overloaded or impractical.
No.17745
Consciousness of death going strong here. Big metaphysics.
No.17748 KONTRA
Woke up early, exercised and then got dressed after a shower, almost threw a hissy fit because I couldn't find my suit jacket but it just fell down in the closet.
Got there on time relatively. Half the people didn't show up for the MA interview. They told us that they just signed some cool agreement with Fudan University, so next after my first year of the MA I'm going to Shanghai for two years most likely.
The interview itself was crushingly boring and I hated every second of it, mainly because the department head looked bored. I felt like a clown, doing a dance with my supervisor, trying to amuse the Khan.
My supervisor said "Well, Ernst we know well" and then he replied "Well, I don't." and he said it in the most insulting way possible that I genuinely felt insulted. He also didn't seem interested in my award I got in that national academic contest. Or much of anything. His indifference was insulting.
The part where he said "I congratulate you" after hearing about the award without even looking up at me felt like a spit in the face.
I think I have talked about this before how I felt like I was owed a handshake at least. Or some kine of verbal acknowledgement. Well, now I got the latter, and I think it only made things worse emotionally.
Honestly, after each time I have the misfortune of encountering the guy and being subjected to him (the institution) and the way he carries himself I am filled with nothing but despair and hatred.
I will not let the fucker bring me down. I will keep my head high and focus on my own thing. It's the only way forward.
After the interview I had a coffee with my supervisor. Discussed what I've been up to and the like. I actually had tea. Wasn't feeling up to the task of a second coffee on an empty stomach.
Initially I was a bit afraid because he said "I want to talk with you" and I thought it was going to be something serious but it was just "We haven't seen each other in a year, let's catch up!"
It was fine. I guess I should count myself lucky. Most BA students don't have lunch with their supervisor or smoke cigarettes with a lecturer or drink with them.
Got two more days to prepare and the pool's filled up, so I don't think I will subject myself to the library again. I will just study at home. Gonna review all of the philosophy and history topics tomorrow.
>>17732It's a formality for everyone. Not one person got below maximum point.
As for the tie. I should wear ties more often. I felt great while wearing it.
I need to get a job where I can wear a suit and a tie like fuck.
No.17756
>>17748>I need to get a job where I can wear a suit and a tie like fuck.Become department head.
No.17757
Woke up with sun in my face and a massive boner.
No.17758
>>17748> I felt great while wearing it.Then wear them not only to a university interview.
Tie LARP: you work in finance in an English-speaking megapolis. Act and dress like it.
No.17759 KONTRA
>>17748>I think I have talked about this before how I felt like I was owed a handshake at least. Or some kine of verbal acknowledgement.You think too much about this academia thing, I'd say. As you said, do your own thing, and don't expect people to be congratulating you for your merits. Academia is a lot about academic merits. Everybody that sits there has gathered the results of some kind of merits. Maybe they don't care that much about the specific merits simply because it is not their cup of tea. I never got a handshake for doing what I did and I find it a bit strange to expect this congratulation as well for getting an award as a BA. People told me that I do good work, they hinted at an academic career or understandingly nodded their heads when I told them I wanted to do a PhD.
>I guess I should count myself lucky. Most BA students don't have lunch with their supervisor or smoke cigarettes with a lecturer or drink with themMost people don't even want that I could imagine. I also had breakfast sort of with a lecturer once I worked for and we talked about doing PhD. We have no contact anymore whatsoever. I know some people at my old university. That is fine. But in the end none have been really beneficial in getting a PhD.
So my advice to this emotional event of yours is that you should continue what you do academically but rethink your expectations of academia to not be too disappointed about it and its rituals and reality. You will find people who support you, you already seem to have them. Not everybody will be like that, you will probably even have "enemies" at some point. And don't make your person dependent on academic success too much.
While I still want to do the PhD on that topic I developed, with distance I care less now. I don't actively look for people to support me and that can solve the financial issue for me as well. I still need to write back to a known academic in my circle from the US, I got declined for a good reason but was forwarded contacts that I haven't reached out to yet. Still need to write a thank you email. Well. What I want to say is: don't get caught up too much in it. From my experience, it is not worth it. Especially if you have other problems as well that need your attention. It took me quite some time to realize I should fix other things instead of concentrating on getting a PhD / having academic success.
Also, make sure you go to China.
No.17761 KONTRA
>>17759do you have access to papers?
need hälp
>>>/b/24330 (
https://doi.org/10.1049/icp.2024.1807 seems the last on that topic from those)
No.17762 KONTRA
>>17756Making my own department with blackjack and hookers.
>>17759Yes I know. I know it. It's just that even when I know it, it still hurts a bit for some reason. It's not logical.
Kissinger is right that this feels and is vicious because the stakes are very low.
No.17763 KONTRA
>>17708And suddenly I was cured. Date went well but it turns out she isn't a perfect human being or someone I'll stay with forever, our souls becoming one, etc.
No.17764
>>17763What did she do? Fart?
No.17765 KONTRA
>>17764Nothing in particular. It's just how it goes.
No.17766
>>17764>>17765She farted, hands down.
No.17767
>>17761I did not know SciHub has been DNS blocked in Germany. Haven't looked up a paper since end of 2023 I think. Also no new papers. That is really shit, what do people do these days?
I don't have any other sources than you already mentioned. Looks like the r/scihub discusses alternatives all the time.
No.17768
>>17762>It's just that even when I know it, it still hurts a bit for some reason. It's not logical.That's alright. I wish I could say something mindful about it but I have a problem with knowing and feeling and rationality as well and working on a solution.
Do you want to be acknowledged and handshaked by academic higher ups to prove your worth (to yourself) perhaps? Academic validation is one way to fill gaps left by others I'd say.
No.17770 KONTRA
why can't none of you academia snobs with free(*) access to uni-lib upload some papers as *.pdf for this neet?
DOIs were provided.
*you only had to sacrifice your sanity and morals in order to access it.
No.17772 KONTRA
>>17770You just have to ask and I’ll check my access. Where are said DOIs?
What’s the probability I get arrested for doing that? No.17773
>>17772>What’s the probability I get arrested for doing that?Doing what? Looking up forbidden knowledge?
No.17774 KONTRA
>>17764>>17766Now that I could stop and think about it, I believe it was a mix of what I perceived as a lack of interest in her part for myself, and how we don't share the same ideas of what relationships should be. I'll have to continue looking.
at least she paid for dinner :DDD No.17775 KONTRA
>>17773Posting restricted academic pdf files on EC
>>17774And you dare calling it a Swiss level infatuation. Where’s the long process of self destruction? How dare you just walk away
No.17776
>>17767Germany is not a rogue-state, the Internet must not be a lawless space!
No.17777
>>17775>Posting restricted academic pdf files on ECHoly shit are all zoomers such sissies?
This is academic knowledge, which should be shared and made available for everyone.
Journals are raking in money for doing nothing (because reviewers are also not paid, but you still have to pay for your own paper), so fuck them.
There's a reason why they did everything they could against scihub, but they brought it on themselves.
In fact I had a professor who told us that if we can't get something through institute access we should get it elsewhere, wink wink.
You are doing the right thing by spreading the knowledge.
And if all else fails, single publications can usually also be acquired by sending a nice email to the author.
No.17778
>>17772the main article would prolly be
> https://doi.org/10.1049/icp.2024.1807since that seems to be the "break-thru".
but would also be interested in previous works done.
> https://doi.org/10.1109/JPROC.2022.3203215> https://doi.org/10.1364/OFC.2023.Th1B.7> 10.1364/OFC.2023.Th2A.11> 10.1109/JLT.2023.3339391> 10.1109/JLT.2024.3379676basically anything since attached *.pdf from
https://ieeexplore.ieee.org/author/37275212900 which isn't open access.
(maybe even 10.1109/SUM53465.2022.9858323 and 10.1109/SUM53465.2022.9858223 since it seems close enough)
BUT I would decide which of those are worse digging in, after reading the first paper - so prolly not worth your effort :3
> What’s the probability I get arrested for doing that?if u paranoid, use whonix
https://www.whonix.org/wiki/Downloadalternatively, just delete post after a short while - if i am not fast enough, it's a me problem :)
No.17779 KONTRA
>>17775Btw you could also upload that stuff to a dropbox and share the link here, or upload it to catbox or whatever, if you don't want to upload directly on the EC which is probably closely monitored by the BKA, BND, BfV, MAD, FBI, NSA, Mossad, KGB, OMON, tiktok marketers, Gestapo and the 中華人民共和國國家安全部.
No.17780
>>17779> dropboxhighly likely monitored.
on a coding competition DoD-Jury-Person and Dropbox-Jury-Person were buddy-buddies :D No.17781 KONTRA
>>17775>Where’s the long process of self destruction?I will simply skip it.
I think having regular sex keeps things in perspective. No.17782
>>17777>You are doing the right thing by spreading the knowledge.I pertinently know that and instantly agreed. I have no knowledge on how much monitored is the spreading of academic knowledge. So I ask. Doesn't mean I never pirated anything.
I remember too that .xyz was used by eastern euros as a pdf sharing platform or something along those lines, the question was asked back then as to what risk it represented for the site.
>>17778I'm sorry my institution doesn't have access to any of these papers
No.17783 KONTRA
>>17782> no accessAre you training to be a beautician?
>>17777Sounds like something a pedophile would say. Are you a pedophile?
If you are as smart as you claim to be, you should find a way to either pay or get access without roping some undergrads into pirating papers for you. What a loser.
No.17784
>>17782> I'm sorry my institution doesn't have access to any of these papers:(
stuhpid humanities!!>>17777> reviewers are also not paidit's even worse: some papers actively ignore reviewers, because they want to publish even shit papers.
https://arstechnica.com/science/2024/02/scientists-aghast-at-bizarre-ai-rat-with-huge-genitals-in-peer-reviewed-article/some fakes are harder to detect, but this was so obvious, that even the unmotivated, unpaid workers noticed it but they got ignored.
science publication could be done for soooo cheap with a simple p2p network.
publishers should be abolished completely; we simply do not need those anymore. would free up grants for reviews, if universities do not need to pay those license fees anymore.
A lot has been done towards the direction of open access, but it is still a long way.
No.17785 KONTRA
>>17783am not that guy, but the person who asked.
am neet. have 3 letters from dentist reminding me to pay 95NG, half of which i could get back from krankenversicherung, but couldn't effort the 95NG in a single pay last few months. you expect me to pay for words? :DDDD
gonna send an e-mail to the authors now >.<*
No.17786 KONTRA
>>17783Note sure if larping or actual retard, but you should go back to the cabbage where you belong.
No.17787
>>17782> I have no knowledge on how much monitored is the spreading of academic knowledge.not too sure, but some copyright holders are real sharks. e.g. the *.mp4 song in
>>17704 got taken down pretty much instantly everywhere that had automated detection. even if it was fair use commentary. I doubt any copyright holders even know of EC's existence. maybe some secret/intelligence agency lurk or crawl here, but those are usually not interested in banal copyright
the contrary: it would make their lurking or crawling more likely to be detected
> what risk it represented for the site.not 100% sure how it is now, but afaik you had to respond within 1 (work?) day if someone reported illegal content on your site. only if you ignore complaints, you might be liable. you do not have to actively review all content yourself. how are you even supposed to know if something is copyrighted or not? you simply can't. maybe EC can be forced to share the IP (if still saved. was it 1 or 2 weeks?), but a single hop should be enough so you, as poster, are 100% on the safe site. only if some agency really, really, really wants to track you down, you might wanna consider more than 1 hop in order to mask your IP.
In all honesty: EC is too small. No copyright holder would be interested in paying a lawyer for the time needed to write a take down request. the impact of EC is just not worth it.
No.17788
I would like to play a game, but since yesterday I've been feeling under the weather. I don't feel sick, but I also don't feel fine, I am not sleepy-tired, but just "stretch my limbs away from myself and do nothing" tired.
I got bitten by a tick on sunday, but it can't have been there for more than four hours, I removed it as soon as I noticed and TBE needs more than two days to incubate.
No.17789
Can't you use VPN to access scihub? Or Anal-Lena Bareback's great firewall is unpenetrable?
No.17790
Reaching that point again where I have no clue what I'm doing
Like what the fuck is China even
No.17793
So many posts. Did you consider that a uni access pdf will have the date, time and uni ingrained in that pdf for every other Ernst to see?
>>17789A VPN does not change the fact that the paper is not available on scihub and that scihub apparently doe snot update its database anymore.
No.17795
>>17793>Did you consider that a uni access pdf will have the date, time and uni ingrained in that pdf for every other Ernst to see? No, tell me more. Does the journal website embed the credentials or what?
No.17796
>>17795I don't know how it gets watermarked, probably by the publisher when a download is requested by an institutional ip or however that works. When I downloaded articles or books via the uni VPN I ot watermarked pdfs with the institutions name, date and time. You can see this in pdfs from Scihub as well btw. For example a paper from scihub I downloaded had the watermark of
>University of Chicago, date and time. and usually an ip adress No.17797
>>17796Huh, I just checked, I do indeed have a bunch of papers with the uni library's watermark.
I am too lazy though to check if other papers I have without watermark are also free access.
No.17810
> *.pdf watermark
shouldn't it be trivial to remove it?
can't be more work as adding it... and that is automatic. so removing could be done automatically as well (like removing EXIF from image files?).
maybe we could add a little script to our tinyboard/vichan fork for automatically removing any *.pdf watermark? (has that been done before? If it's not a simple copy&paste, doing it from scratch shouldn't be too hard, either)
No.17812 KONTRA
>>17810>shouldn't it be trivial to remove it?>can't be more work as adding it...shouldn't it be trivial to take square roots?
can't be more work
as squaring...
No.17814
>>17810Since I don't know anything about that I think the easiest is to ask the authors of the paper for a copy explaining you are highly interested but don't have the money to pay for it.
No.17815
It's so humid.
Yesterday there was a big thunderstorm without anything really cooling down.
I just opened the windows, but instead of getting more wet, hot air it didn't amount to anything.
No.17818
Speaking of free knowledge, tomorrow is another court day for the internet archive.
I already donate money, but they also have a petition going on. Doesn't hurt to sign it, does it?
https://chng.it/JHN9bR7kzs No.17858 KONTRA
Of course nobody fucking said that the list of topics on the website is not complete because THERE WILL ALSO BE A CHINESE LANGUAGE ORAL EXAM FUCK THIS DEPARTMENT.
THEY HAVE THE SAME DOCUMENT UPLOADED TWICE TO THE FUCKING WEBSITE AND I GET TOLD ABOUT THIS SHIT LIKE 8 HOURS BEFORE THE EXAM.
TAIPING HEAVENLY KINGDOM 2 INCOMING
天生萬物以養人
人無一善以報天
殺殺殺殺殺殺殺
No.17865
>>17812good point.
never rly looked too deep into *.pdf and how it suxx. does it have integrated DRM?
I was naively assuming you can just .read() the header/watev, scan for the field(s) and .write() without those.
to be quite honest, i don't like *.pdf as a file format anyway and never understood why we (still) use it. Anything digital should default to dark mode (to safe energy!! - saving the world one small step at a time
still support light mode as option for the sight-impaired, of course. Barrierefreiheit und so).
DRM is destroying our world as well: it costs additional energy and tries something which is theoretically and practically impossible to achieve. Trying to enforce something physically impossible via laws is stupid af. Next thing habbening is pushing the legal prohibition of breathing natural O2, because it is not Nestlé®
-O2™ or what? 🙄
No.17875 KONTRA
Just finished my exams. Long live my youth and summer vacations!
No.17884
>>17882He's not in school anymore. Uni summer break means working a job to pay for shit.