No.13316
>>13314This analogy is obviously faulty: veterans loosing limbs is seen not as something good, but as necessary sacrifice for the bigger goal ("fighting for democracy in the Middle East", in case of Americans).
Meanwhile, for people with gender dysphoria, their bodies and lives are damaged for nothing.
No.13318
>>13313I haven't. Too bad there is a German novel on its way since Monday.
>A hero on the sidetrack of world history OR Once a 68er, always a 68er>Karl and Emilie are children of the war and post-war period, born into the silence of a provincial family. The sister soon isolates herself more and more, Karl becomes the leading agitator of the '68ers. A few decades later, communism is only a phenomenon of old age. And while most people move on to modern times, Karl clings to the old ideals: he is the last communist to die in 2010.>Eberhard Rathgeb tells the story of two stubborn siblings who understand each other less and less, of a man who wants to change the world and yet is increasingly distanced from it. Rathgeb takes his characters seriously, even when world history has long forgotten them.It is rumored that the novel is about Karl Held who died in 2010 and was the famous agitator and head of the Marxistische Gruppe (Marxist Group)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHwvLAmQlgMNow, maybe I should look out for some Rachel Kusk.
Maybe good shorter books, albeit no need to be classics, anyone?
No.13319
>>13318>Alt-68erAlmost as trite as Berlin as a setting
No.13320 KONTRA
>>13319Yeah, but if it's a novel that traces Karl Held in some way, that would be interesting. Many Alt-68er became green etc, nobody wants to read that. But somebody who never changed his political judgment
what else to expect from somebody who helped to found a fringe Marxism without revolutionary theory, just Marx Capital (value theory) + a theory of the abstract free will + a theory of the state on the other hand bears some interest to me.
The problem is not so much a trope, place or whatever but how you will tell it.
No.13322
>>13318Disgusting. Who wants to read that.
>>13320The green party was a conservative party with some hippies mixed in, then the Frankfurt spontis around Joschka Fischer saw it and decided to use it to become rich and powerful, in which they succeeded.
The conservative environmentalists left and founded ödp, which since the mid 2000s has shifted to the left and niw tries to outgreen the greens with open borders, move all Africa to Germany. They favor a Climate visum: everyone affected by climate change should be allowed to love to Germany, so Germany will have a population of a couple of hundred millions by 2050.
Btw., if anyone here thinks this would not work very well for purely practical reasons, I will call them a racist, a Nazi and a climate denier and petition mods to ban them. If Germans weren't fucking Nazi racists, 500 million people could live in Germany tomorrow. Fuck Nazis, fuck afd.
No.13324 KONTRA
>>13322>From 1933 to 1940 Gruhl worked as a farmer. Up from 1947 to 1952 he studied German, history and philosophy in Berlin.Curious gap, Mr. Gruhl.
No.13325
>>13323What you crappy little communist a-hole? You pretended the green party was founded by some disgruntled k-group leaders, and when someone calls you our in your damn lies, you silence him with
> No one askedNo one asked about the buying of your communist hero, either.
No.13326
>>13323Who asked about the biographies of your idolized k-group-leaders? Who? Where? Why did you post that? Du Kommunistendrecksau.
(Retardposting) No.13329 KONTRA
>>13325>You pretended the green party was founded by some disgruntled k-group leadersAre you dumb or are you dumb?
>>13326You are such a clown. And the worst is that you are not even trolling, no. You are really like that. No control, no sprezzatura, devoid of nonchalance. A little bundle of anger since the days of emotional neglect and abuse from mummy and daddy. I think it was daddy, you even told us in the past. Zäh wie Leder, hart wie Kruppstahl. But it won't get you anywhere of what you probably desire.
No.13330
>>13329>>13323Dude, it's just an opinion about some political shit, no need to have a meltdown. Please, be civil
No.13333
>>13329You are a subhuman it's obvious. Yoga arrogant way of arguing shows it. So you really believe people are only allowed to post after you asked them to do so? You simply take the right for yourself to grant others the word, while smirking like a kike.
And from what do you derive that right? Again, no one asked YOU about Karl Held. Why can you just post about Karl Held? What are you doing much better? Your arrogance is unbelievable, and unfounded, yet, you keep getting high of your own farts. You miserable dumb little pissant
No.13334
>>13330It's not just an opinion. That fucking communist tries to establish his own rules:
- posts about fringe literature about communist leaders: allowed
- everything else: only when asked to post by himself
The little pissant knows nothing about anything. Like everyone in his field, he's a grifter who will tell lies and only lies.
No.13339
>>13338AGAIN? That's like 3-rd or 4-th time in last 2 years. There is no use of this app anymore except passing the "skip unit" tests once you have have learned material from another source.
No.13340
>>13338Stop being such a drama queen, honey. 读万卷书不如行万里路, you know?
No.13349
I was high the entire day I think. I had some leftover french toast for breakfast and then I exercised for like 45 minutes, I had a hot shower and a coffee and left for university. I felt like I could take on the world. First Chinese class went great, the lecturer even complimented me on being able to fluently translate the sentences allotted to me.
After that I went home to have lunch and started filling out my MA application. Architecture student I know asked me "Hey Ernst, where did you decide to apply to?" and I was like "Wait, that shit's going on right now?" and she wrote back saying that I have like two days to complete the application process. I filled out the basics. I just need a piece of paper that certifies that I am a member of the college.
I think there are points involved, but as I am told, this is largely a formality if you did your BA here. "Professor X and Y will have a discussion with you and after you leave they will decide whether to accept you or say yes to your application."
I don't know if I should upload all my conference attendances under "Professional events" and such. I guess I should. If I've learned anything "More paperwork = Better". I will upload them tomorrow and finalize my application completely.
I went back to class for the evening. Had a second cup of coffee before leaving. Classical Chinese Texts 2. This time it's going to get real and we will read Buddhist shit. But I stand by it. I will open my heart and learn something new.
Told the lecturer how I had a laugh at myself because I was amazed while reading about Hermeticism and achieving gnosis to ascend to the one to leave the seven spheres behind and then I realised that it's just like fucking buddhism where you achieve nirvana and and leave behind the six realms lmao.
I'm really gonna give it my all. We're starting with the Heart Sutra and then moving onto the Lotus I think, at the insistence of the person who is actually supposed to head the class but is never fucking here so he torments this PhD with teaching us classical Chinese.
After that we arranged for the German classes for this semester. I had a short discussion with the lecturer afterwards. He was smoking in the courtyard and listened to my ramblings about my intellectual misadventures and me asking about the procedure of submitting a form to the headmaster about something.
I was honest with him and said that I feel like I have risen from the ashes. He said he's glad to see it after the hard times I've fallen on last year.
I have one class tomorrow, which will be on Western reception of Eastern thought. They decided to give it a title quoting Goethe, so it's called the "West-East Divan". Gonna be fun I think. I like the lecturer. Finally gonna bother reading Said's Orientalism.
No.13356
I guess I should write a bit about my travels during the last month.
First I went with a group of other students to Shanghai & Hangzhou (again) and then to a couple of cities in Yunnan, a province in the southwest of China. Hangzhou was nice, mostly just strolled around the West Lake and got invited for a fancy dinner with plenty of good baijiu by an acquantaince of one of the other students. In Shanghai we probably should've stayed a bit longer. I wanted to revisit a street that was super lively with lots of bars and people drinking on the sidewalks when I went there last time but this time it was pretty dead, admittedly it was Sunday and sort of cold but still a letdown that so little was going on considering it's such a metropolis.
Kunming, the capital of Yunnan, was pretty chill, but not really much to do in the city itself. We went to a club that had an open decks night and were the only people there so my buddy got to try his hand at DJing. In Dali we stayed in the Old Town which apparently used to be a backpacker hotspot back in the day but now is thoroughly commercialized with rows upon rows of the same chain stores selling generic "local products". Tucked inbetween are still some more authentic and original places like some live music bars but you have to really know what you're looking for and overall the vibe is off. Lijiang was even worse in that regard since Dali at least had original old buildings, but this was just more of the same fake Disneyland stuff. Glad I decided to leave the city and go for a 1.5 day hike through the Tiger Leaping Gorge. Amazing 山水 scenery and pretty cozy guesthouses with good drinks & food. Dunno how to feel about how touristy they managed to make it as well. There's cafes at every scenic spot and sadly trash thrown everywhere, though the old grannies selling (overpriced) snacks from little tents every kilometer of the way were kinda cute. Despite not exactly getting my fix of untouched nature, this was probably my favorite experience from the trip. Gonna try and hike more here in the future.
Gotta say traveling with that group of six, I sort of enjoyed taking on a more leading role and picking out many of the acivities, though my half-Chinese friend also helped a lot. I'd say there were a few duds but overall a fun time for everyone even though everyone got progressively tired as the trip went on. Maybe getting rooms with more privacy rather than having to sleep in double beds some of the time would've helped to be less fatigued.
No.13357
>>13356ct'd
From Lijiang I flew to Bangkok where I first stayed close to the red light district around Nana Plaza. Complete change of pace, Bangkok immediately met me with a much more chaotic and lively atmosphere. Hookers grabbing you when you walk by, massage girls constantly calling out, geriatric johns strolling about etc., but in the end I didn't even end up going into any of the gogo bars. Gotta say despite all the surface-level liveliness of it, watching the scene got tired pretty quickly.
A few days later I met up with a different classmate and we moved to a cheap place in Bangkok's Chinatown. Probably my favorite place I stayed, it was tucked away in some alleys next to a temple which would play some strange music during the day. Place was slightly run-down but it had a balcony with an interesting view of the surrounding dilapidated buildings.
At this point I was kinda tired of sightseeing and annoyed that my friend from uni completely relied on me for planning everything from accommodation to activities and just went along with everything.
Bangkok itself I enjoyed a lot though, much more lively and diverse than anywhere in China. There's an insane hustle and bustle in many places of the city until late into the night if not around the clock. It has a very cyberpunk feel with all the skyscrapers and the Skytrain and malls with lots of walkways on the one hand and then the extremely stuffed and dirty narrow streets full of food vendors and mangy cats roaming around.
Most of the time we ended up just going to different outdoor gyms in parks which are plenty and then trying out all the different affordable food options. Also did a bit of shopping and went to the cinema at the malls. Nice to be able to see some of the recent movies that didn't get a release in China. As lively as the street food and market nightlifte is, the bar scene seems decent but not that great. One of the things from Berlin I miss is the classic Eckkneipe with cheap draft beer and a mix of workers, students, internationals etc. (I am probably thinking up a very idealized version of it right now)
We also went for a couple days to Pattaya which I wouldn't really recommend unless you're a whoremonger. Beaches are fairly dirty and filled with tourists. I think here I came the closest to getting a hooker since it just would've been so easy, but much like Jacob wrestling with the Angel I ended up winning over that urge. Honestly not sure if I should chalk this up as a success or failure.
I tried out dating apps and easily got 99+ likes, but probably half of them from ladyboys and hookers haha. There were two girls I chatted with for a bit who seemed promising but both of them ended up falling through when it came to meeting. Was feeling pretty lonely towards the end of the trip with a rekindled yearning to see the girl I pined over last summer again.
Back in Beijing now, everything is pretty calm since many people went back to their families out of town for CNY, but the campus is currently allowing visitors so every time I go out to eat at the only cafeteria that is open right now someone talks to me because they want to practice their English/take photos with me/buy them a meal with my student card.
No.13358 KONTRA
>>13356>>13357Very, very nice. Even making me a little jealous of yours adventures.
No.13360
>>13359The sad thing is that some of these retards still manage to reproduce. She should have started by taking out her ovaries. That would have prevented a lot of suffering.
No.13361
>>13360Hard to blame her when society and medical community encourage it. She just listened to the experts, same as lobotomized people did 50 years ago.
No.13362
>>13361It was a shit test and she failed it. Weak-minded people need to die out.
No.13363 KONTRA
The biggest retard got banned for retard posting. Don't be retards.
No.13364 KONTRA
How did Ernst spend Valentine's day? Got some Lego flowers for your pearl?
Ernst here was in the presence of a woman he likes but it was a group setting and Ernst will probably not do anything because it could fuck up the group dynamic.
No.13365
Today wasn't as good as yesterday. Minor things kept making me angry during the morning, like burning my toast or dropping something and so on.
I exercised a bit, took a shower. My mother asked me to make pizza dough. Turns out it wasn't for some event, she just thought it'd be a good dinner option. I had it for dinner and I feel like I'm going to die honestly. This was too much.
I only had one class today. The topic is interesting, basically it's a history of the west attempts at interpreting Chinese thought from the Jesuits until recently.
I'm the only student in the class besides a third year Japanology student. He's researching the history of Tokyo in the post-war period.
After class I talked a bit with the professor about stuff and I yet again demonstrated my amazing grasp of Marxist terminology and Soviet history. He shared this funny story how he almost got in trouble for quoting Marx too hard during some party event like 50 years ago and he was reported like half a dozen times for it and the only reason they ultimately decided to sweep it under the rug is because he quoted word-for-word. "Comrades, these are all Marx's words. Can't be helped!"
The reason for the trouble was that his quotation undermined the doctrine of peaceful coexistence.
Honestly, I live and die for these stories. History really comes to life during these moments.
Tomorrow's the MA application deadline and I have one paper missing, which I will pick up and submit tomorrow to finalize my application. Though MA students I talked with said that it doesn't fucking matter.
Though what makes me feel a bit anxious is how the website says "HSK4 or above" is a requirement for entering the program and I don't have an HSK certificate. Then again, I heard that they just deduct like 2-3 points for it and then accept you anyway, considering your degree is a B2 Chinese certificate in effect.
2bh I'm gathering a lot of info in recent days. On Friday I will do some thesiswork and the like.
Borrowed another book from the library.
My grandmother's been up to some shit because she somehow managed to get herself a card made and spent all her savings and kept it a secret from both of her kids until she had to pay for some minor thing again lol. On one hand I respect the craftiness (even if ultimately she just looks like a fool because she didn't break any patterns with this), on the other I'm mad because it was MY turn to ask for a handout as my savings run out.
If I got like that 10-15k from the magazine everything would be fine and dandy for the time being. Truly, my life is like a Russian novel sometimes where I am thinking about pitiable sums of money.
>>13364I honestly forgot it was valentine's day.
No.13366
>>13365>Though MA students I talked with said that it doesn't fucking matter. Then it probably doesn't. Some things in academia are resolved with a lot of informality mixed in.
Deadline closed? They will accept your shit the next days as well, no worries, they haven't read anything yet anyway.
No.13367 KONTRA
>>13366That’s a no-go, because the system is actually now super-centralised and digital. But the informality part is true.
No.13368
Isn’t life exciting? Just being alive?
I also picked up a Nietzsche volume containing fragments from the Nachlass relating to eternal return and will to power. I feel like it fits my mood perfectly.
No.13369
>>13367For such a process maybe yes, but not all deadlines are processed automatically like this.
No.13370
>>13364>How did Ernst spend Valentine's day?Went to work, went home, had dinner.
No.13371
>>13364> How did Ernst spend Valentine's day?Sitting at home with sore throat. :(
Finally concentrated on work. Also played computer games. Practiced online course about Belarusian language (I'm le eternal student).
> Got some Lego flowers for your pearl?Got heart-shaped postcard and a book about Chinese cuisine. Will give her when I'll get well, hopefully soon.
No.13372
>>13356Those mountains. Nice.
>>13364>How did Ernst spend Valentine's day?>>13370>Went to work, went home, had dinner.This.
No.13374 KONTRA
>>13373Would you rather face explosives in a tank or in a rank & file? Artillery is still king btw, and that's just my spontaneous superficial kneejerk reaction post here.
And your post provably belongs to the dedicated war thread. Also, Ernst doesn't really know anything about technology.
No.13375
>>13374>your post provably belongs to the dedicated war threadYes, but it is on kontra and I don't feeling like opening the new one.
The question might rather be if a tank is still a useful tool when conducting war to win a war. If it is better for the people who go to war I think ranks secondary from the viewpoint of people who want to win a war.
No.13390 KONTRA
New moka pot made out of steel. Double espresso.
Exercise session.
We're back.
No.13391
Ernst will prepare the dough for a baguette in the later evening and will buy some ingredients for a nice sandwich if the baguettes turn out well
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-husjZkxHwThe comments already suggest a fold of the dough and ice cubes in the oven when baking. Will give it a try. I know folding will benefit the dought but ice cubes new to me. Not for bread making it is but I rarely tried baking bread, only left over pizza dough as bread and focaccia.
No.13394 KONTRA
Today I woke up and exercised. I thought I could "ignite" myself with exercise but it didn't really work. I mean sure it helped a bit, but not to the degree I wanted it to.
Went out to buy a new coffee pot with my mother.
It didn't take all that long.
Made a very strong coffee. It was what I needed, honestly.
It magically fixed my mood. Though what the packaging says is bullshit. This pot is for "4 cups" and I drank it all alone and it was honestly one cup. Maybe if you turn it into a cappuccino or something it's 4 cups.
I also rummaged through my stuff a bit to find an SD card to save money instead of buying a new one for the iPod repair. I'm only waiting for one component to arrive and then I can fix it up.
I wonder if people who know me IRL would be surprised to hear that I fixed something my two hands for fun.
I've noticed that new piles of books keep appearing around the room randomly. I'm almost done with reading this Nietzsche volume I picked up a few days ago. I'm gonna tackle Birth of Tragedy next because I own a pocket edition. I think I got it during high school when our librarian was moving and she offered me to scavenge through her library. Good times.
Ordered two books from China. Both ghost story collections. I figure that eventually I will be able to translate enough of them that I can send an entire volume to a publisher.
I feel like I should have studied today, instead I wasted the entire day doing basically nothing, lost in frivolities like listening to random jazz albums on youtube. Well I guess I did help my mother with some stuff.
I feel like tomorrow will be a lot better. Maybe I can actually have lunch instead of just surviving on breakfast until the evening because I expect some food to magically appear or some shit out of laziness. (I ended up making a very mediocre burger.)
No.13397
>>13392But aren't you already russian?
No.13404
>>13399>Everybody has, at some point in their life, watched Sesame Street. Or so I thought.That must be true. I cant remember being a Fan, but it was hard to avoid,because it was/is so famous.
Cookie-Monster was my favorite.
Did he explain, why he had never seen it?
No.13408
>>13399I watched some episodes as a kid, but my only true memory of Sesame Street is that there was one sketch where Bert and Ernie were archeologists and they were in an Egyptian tomb and the statues that looked like them moved and I was pretty scared by it. Like I vividly remember it to this day.
Though strangely enough this has never translated into a fear of Egyptian things in general and I went through at least two phases of Egyptomania later.
No.13410
>>13404>Cookie-Monster was my favoriteSame.
And no, she didn't elaborate on how she managed to go two and a half decades without ever watching the show. Kinda does require explaining. "What were you doing between the ages of 3 and 7?
Answer me!"
>>13408My strongest Sesame Street memory was Ernie eating crackers in bed, which angered Bert. He warned that Ernie would get crumbs everywhere, and ofc he did. Don't know why that stuck with me. Maybe because I hate crumbs. Or did that scene, viewed in my developmental years, trigger that hatred and teach me to view crumbs as a bad thing? No way to know.
No.13411
>>13410>"What were you doing between the ages of 3 and 7? Answer me!Well, I either did not watch TV at 3 or I simply do not remember would by my answer for not to that question not being familiar with SS or having any memory on it.
I probably watched Super RTL with 6 or 7 (private TV station with a 6a-8pm kids programm). My parents did not make me watch KIKA (the educational (publicly funded?) kids channel). I do remember watching the Simpsons regularly with my brother at the age of 8, though. From 9-18yo I watched Simpsons on TV. Guess the damage done with a private kids TV channels was outweighed later on by the Simpsons.
Also, did Ernst grow up watching MTV as a teenager? All the cool shows like Jackass, I bet you will, Room Raiders, Next, Made and Pimp My Ride?
No.13414
>>13411>Also, did Ernst grow up watching MTV as a teenager? All the cool shows like Jackass, I bet you will, Room Raiders, Next, Made and Pimp My Ride?Yeah, most of those. Flavor of Love and shit like that, all the cartoons like South Park, Family Guy, American Dad and Futurama. Some of the shows got pretty memory-holed - I'm thinking of Happy Tree Friends, Drawn Together, Andy Milonakis Show - some kinda disturbing stuff for a kid to watch tbh.
Btw anybody remember a cartoon called Kappa Mikey? Might not have been on late night MTV as it's pretty PG, but I was a bit obsessed with it. It parodied a bunch of anime/Japanese stereotypes.
No.13416
Sesame Street was definitely a thing in the 80s and 90s in Germany. No idea how it is today.
Never heard of that Kappa Mikey thing, but I remember having conversations with classmates about Family Guy and Drawn Together in Oberstufe.
No.13420
>>13419THE HUMANS ARE DEAD
THE HUMANS ARE DEAD
WE USED POISONOUS GASSES
AND WE POISONED THEIR ASSES
No.13421
>>13420Do you not realize that by destroying the human race because of their destructive tendencies, we too have become like, well you see it's quite ir-
No.13422
>>13419What are the Gebrauchswerte a robot needs besides energy and the parts necessary for its machinic functioning?
No.13423
>>13419The true redpill is that communism is not concerned with the liberation of indidual humans or even humans in general, it's concerned with the liberation of labor.
So it doesn't matter what the revolutionary subject physically is, a human, robot or dickgirl.
There will be robo-capitalists, and they should be abolished too.
No.13424
>>13421Huh, silence, destroy him!
No.13426
>>13425I thought the Alzheimer's fraud thing was still in full swing?
No.13428
>>13425Unlimited genocide on academia
No.13429
>academia has one scandal after the other
>meanwhile this Ernst has gotten a taste of full american capitalist business-y business stuff
I blame lowered standards on the former, and it pains me, but fucking hell, private sector is getting increasingly uncomfortable.
No.13433
>>13414>anybody remember a cartoon called Kappa MikeyI know I loved that show, but now recall very little about it other than they were in Japan and actors in a TV show.
No.13434
Too late to write a post today. I will do it tomorrow.
No.13436 KONTRA
>A portrait of a smiling Caucasian man embracing her cheerful Latin-American girlfriend. She is looking at camera.
From: HTML accessibility attribute
No.13457
The worst thing about communists is that they're too sincere and serious to understand irony.
If I were living under Actually Existing Socialism, I'm pretty sure I'd be GULAG'd for publishing the communist equivalent of "a modest proposal" or something.
My soy leftcom friend with minor clout in the party would try to impotently defend me to no avail, and I'd be marched off to 15 years of hard labor.
Then 50 years later capitalist media vultures would use me as an example of le poor freedom loving intellectual repressed by the ebil comminist regime. Tfu.
No.13465
Yesterday night I was in a fever and I finished reading a bunch of shit.
Today I wrote the outline for my thesis and assembled my bibliography. What what felt interesting is that I felt like half of the stuff I planned for it isn't in any books. I made my own conclusion about the texts I've read. This will be more than just a compilation of sources.
Tomorrow I'll go to the library to catch up with some Chinese work. Looking forward to having lunch too. For some reason.
I feel very tired for some reason. Maybe I shouldn't have stayed up so late yesterday.
No.13467
>>13466At least in Germany that is the case. I paid ~800 for my 800W two-panel system (incl. inverter), and recently saw a system with the same settis for ~550 in a regular hardware store. I didn't look closely, so maybe overall it wouldn't be cheaper.
What I can say though is that depending on the actual illumination I think we are on a good path.
I installed the system in august 2023. According to the electricity bill, compared to 2022 we managed to save around 100 kWh (our total consumption is ~1500 kWh). However, since we only moved here in summer 2022 those are calculated values based on the consumption in the second half of the year, so in order to be able to make an actual statement I will have to wait for the 2024 bill. I don't use any wifi monitoring because I refuse to install any more bullshit on my phone.
How is the bureaucratic hassle in Finland? Here you have to jump through almost as many hoops as when getting a gun.
No.13469 KONTRA
P.S. where is Prussia on the map?
No.13470 KONTRA
>>13467>I paid ~800 for my 800W two-panel system (incl. inverter)Ouch.
>How is the bureaucratic hassle in Finland? Here you have to jump through almost as many hoops as when getting a gun.Very simple when you get a company to do the installation. If you were to do it on your own you need a licensed electrician to approve the system before it can be connected to the grid at least. The way that the tax credits are structured incentivizes getting the system installed by a company, so problems weren't. Helsinki only requires a permit for some special cases, but you can just shoot them a message and make sure it's OK just in case.
No.13471 KONTRA
>>13469It’s in our hearts.
No.13472
>>13470>Ouch.How much do you pay in total? And do you get any money back from the backfeed (provided you don't have a two-way meter)?
Because for those small balcony plants you have to forfeit any compensation, so any excess power is simply fed into the grid without you getting anything back.
No.13473 KONTRA
>>13472>How much do you pay in total?Around 8000€. Tax credits will reduce that to about 5000€ though. 16 x 420Wp panels, 6kW Fronius inverter, wiring, mounts, work and certification included. Might add 2 extra panels so that the inverter doesn't end up slacking as the panels age.
>And do you get any money back from the backfeedYes. But it's spot-priced thus mostly not really worth it. So I'll try to do some optimizing based on the prices and production.
No.13474
>>13468>not better than BerlinLovely city, but now a days very crowded.
No.13475
The granny from upstairs (3rd floor) is in constant decline.
When we moved in one and a half years ago she didn't talk to anyone and just walked around all day.
Over the past half year or so, she got increasingly worse by foot, having to use all kinds of medical canes whatsoever, and I helped her a few times taking her groceries to the door because she just couldn't really do it alone without taking an hour just to traverse the stairwell and making constant pauses.
And today I came back to hear some whirring and an ambulance transport parking infront of the door.
I already guessed who they were transporting, and it was granny sitting in a hypermodern patient chair that had one of those stairclimbing mechanisms. It's probably nice being able to hire weak and clumsy people now for transporting the ill and lame (or maybe the average patient has gotten so fat that you can't prevent disk slipping anymore), but having a regular chair and just carrying them upstairs would have taken like half the time, unless you have a landwhale.
She also didn't seem to recognize me because she was confused that I was going into my apartment, probably because I was wearing a cap and not my usual glasses, but it was a bit disheartening to see such a rapid decline. I wonder if she's just ill or injured and will get better in time or really doing the way of all flesh.
She seemed nice enough when she was actually talking to someone.
No.13476
>>13475I'm not sure if I dreamt it, but I remember my doorbell ringing in the middle of the night, and checking the clock, and it was like 3am. My first thought was that one of my elderly neighbors is dying, because they have also been in decline for a while. Can't tell if it has really happened, but for now I didn't notice anything unusual today.
No.13477
>>13468Born and raised on the NRW
>>13474Like every major city here. Do you mean in general or also with the housing market in mind?
No.13478 KONTRA
I will resist saying anything about the utility of a PV in countries were it's dark half of the year and rainy or cloudy for half the days in the other half of the year, far from the equator. Or on the utility of weather-dependent low-density energy sources and their abysmal EROI, which is so bad that it could well cause economic collapse.
No.13480
>>13478I'm annoyed each time I see such a terminal for paying for parking. Not only what you said, but also it's often placed in a dense urban areas and even if sun is present, the solar panel is in shadow of surrounding buildings most of the time.
Meanwhile in Sochi, in subtropical climate there are no solar panels haha
No.13481
Today I did some exercise, showered, had a good lunch and a strong coffee and then I set off to the library, where I did mainly writing exercises and some light reading. I was pretty sad that after my initial high spirits I got rather tired by the 3rd hour.
My supervisor was satisfied with the outline and the bibliography. He's "excited" to read the chapters I'm supposed to hand in as I'm working on it.
You know it feels good to be trusted that I will produce something good.
I still have some tasks to do for tomorrow but I'm completely shot. I wasted the entire weekend.
Week one and I already fucked up.
Tried doing the classical Chinese homework too but I was getting very close to popping a bloodvessel because we got a badly encoded text again, and also it's Buddhist literature and I have zero fucking clue what I'm doing even with a specialised Buddhist dictionary. Like sure the dictionary tells me that it's "Pradna" and I can write it into a sentence, but I have zero clue if what I cobble together in Hungarian is doctrinally sound or if I'm doing the linguistic equivalent of putting something in a meat grinder. (More than I usually do.)
It's essentially and entirely specialised skillset, one which I have not acquired and one which I have scant interest in acquiring.
No.13482
>>13480People who plan those are probably stupid enough to think they attract the sun. And windmills make wind. (Whenever they turn, there is wind, so it's obvious.)
>>13479Some people do not like reality. That doesn't mean they shouldn't be reminded that reality exists. Believers in 'renewable energy' are similar to audiophiles: no idea of physics, but strong opinions and easily fleeced. When it happens on a national level, like in Germany (most gullible nation on earth), it leads to economic collapse.
No.13489
YO YO RAP
No.13490 KONTRA
>>13488I will seriously regret this post in like 24 hours tops.
No.13494
>>13488>If you’re a western Buddhist you’re fucking mentally illPeople will go to great lengths to find something that gives their life meaning. If you haven't found any meaning living in the wect, then foreign philosophies start shining all the brighter for you.
No.13496
I was supposed to wake up at 4:45 today. When I roll over to check the time on my phone it was 6:24. I needed to catch a bus on the other side of the metropolitan area at 7 sharp. Half believing it was hopeless, I still try to get there as fast as I can. Evidently me waking up at that time was divine intervention because that was the exact time I'd need to arrive to have enough time to stick my arm through the bus' closing door. Feeling in debt towards divine forces.
No.13497
I hate drug addicts and I think they are not sick, but criminals who need to be punished. Like criminal 'refugees', they are emboldened by leniency and mercy, so we must show them neither. Beat them publicly, so everyone will know what happens to them should they get caught taking drugs.
No.13498 KONTRA
>>13497Hungarian using a proxy, trying to make Germans look particularly bad.
No.13500
>>13496> Feeling in debt towards divine forcesThey must have been of German origin
I slept extra long just for you to get up just in time>>13497obedient energy
No.13502
>>13501wat
Are you having a stroke or something?
No.13504
>>13501I would def. rock that Schumi-Drip in 2024
No.13506
>>13504Now that is a better post. We should dissect the outfit and give it a 2024 update.
No.13507 KONTRA
Imagine samefagging just to simulate interest in your exceedingly boring post
No.13509
Had a single seminar today. I had fun. Showed my outline for the thesis to the professor teaching it, since he's taken an interest in my progress and said that it looks great.
Tomorrow our college is electing a new student central committee after the previous CC disintegrated after one semester. I find it funny how the grey eminence behind the entire committee is now being catapulted to some government job from this absolute political disaster of sorts. Real life writes the best stories. Anyway I'm contemplating taking the bottle of soju I have with me to spare me the CPSU meeting levels of boredom. Honestly I never have the balls to bring booze to this occasion. Probably for the best.
I just hope I make it home before midnight. Or preferably before I have to use the night bus service.
I tried a new coffee blend today and I was surprised that a different coffee blend tastes differently even if the brewing method is the same.
The dog's acting strange. The older one anyway. Hyperactive despite it being night.
Makes me a bit anxious that something is wrong. Caveman tier thinking.
No.13511
>>13509> I find it funny how the grey eminence behind the entire committee is now being catapulted to some government job from this absolute political disaster of sorts. Real life writes the best stories.Such occurrences are neither funny nor exceptional, but very common. It has nothing to do with real life writing the best stories which just happen to passive protagonists, but with people actively engaging in nepotism. The most successful young wanna-be politicians actually do become career politicians and then use their positions to gain immense personal wealth. Politics is filled with former student council members, heads of local sections of youth party organizations, school presidents, etc. These psychopathic social climbers feel destined for greatness and wealth at an early age and set out to engineer their own ascent when they are barely out of kindergarten. Being completely amoral, instead of seeking success in business or sports, their ambition is to become politicians, a profession where wealth is stolen instead of earned.
What to do about it? If these young people think they are so important and want to stand in the limelight so hard, let them have it, administer public beatings until they learn that they are neither more important nor better than anyone else, and if they want to distinguish themselves, they better achieve something more impressive than leveling cronyism to over 9000.
No.13512 KONTRA
>>13511> a profession where wealth is stolen instead of earnedWrong. They make sure that some people stay wealthy and further increase that wealth while at the same time make sure others will never have much of that wealth. Nothing is stolen or earned here. Politics is administration.
No.13513 KONTRA
>>13512You are exactly the kind of vermin that I was talking about.
No.13515
>>13513I'm not a politician. What kind of delusions force such a statement of yours?
No.13517
>>13511Are you libertarian?
No.13518 KONTRA
>>13512When I take money from you, I get richer while you get poorer. Nothing is stolen ir earned. I am merely administrating :^)
No.13519
>>13518The state is there to defend the interest of owners of property. Nobody cares about the measly property you may own. Now go back to work and produce surplus value for your masters who own a business and that are happy the state defends their interests and not yours. You are wasting valuable time by arguing here back to work, worker.
No.13520
>>13518He is fully aware of the fact that he is just playing word games. He produced
>>13512 ironically to mock and to 'make a point'.
This self-important windbag is vermin, like I said. There's a reason nazis call such people ticks.
>>13515Let's think it over. Do you have a real job? Doubtful. You are probably on the government's teat and thus profit from taxes. You're more of a profiteer/aide-de-campe of an oversized government, but you are in the same boat.
>>13517I'm economically ordo-liberal. But in this timeline, even the United States have developed into a planned economy with market elements, so I probably look like a libertarian. I'm also a proponent of direct democracy and the militia system. There should be as few career politicians and government employees as possible, governments should work as locally as possible
- to limit cost
- to limit growth of beurocracy
- to limit regulation
- to limit the amount of people who stuff their friends and relatives pockets with tax money.
Same as any company should have its administration, book-keeping, IT, hr, middle management, etc. as lean as possible so they don't otherwise, these employees will end up seeking and creating more busy-work for themselves and everyone else. The will function as multipliers of overhead for others.A company that has as much corruption and nepotism as most governments have will go under due to inefficiencies. Government has no competition.
>>13519Government does not serve business interests, it is self-serving. Example: the German government is actively harming German businesses by over-regulation and creating artificial shortages of energy.
No.13521
>>13520>Government does not serve business interestsThe state makes it possible for businesses to function like they do. The state has guaranteed this order for a few centuries now.
>You are probably on the government's teat and thus profit from taxesExactly, but how does defeat my argument?
>corruption and nepotismThat's business practice.
No.13522
I heard a zoomer commie say that there was a time when private property didn’t exist. When was that?
No.13523
>>13521"The state is there to defend the interest of owners of property"
t. literally paid money by state
That's a lack of self-awareness. Government pays you 1500 euro for writing far left propaganda, and you are shitting in the giving hand.
No.13524
>>13523Do you have arguments or just a morality to display for everybody to see?
Also, the state does not pay me 1500€.
No.13526 KONTRA
>>13522Depends on a thousand things, really.
You could quote Marx and Engels about the Urgesellschaft where there was little societal specialisation and there was no concept of "private property" as every resource belonged to the tribe.
Of course you could define this as a form of "proto-communism" from which then the slaveholding and then feudalistic and bourgeois societies differentiated into through advancements in production technology and political dialectics, but even Engels dismisses this as a sort of pointless digression, since the wheel of time moves forward and not backward, so a reactionary, primitivist communism is retarded.
If you asks Marxists and proponents of the Asiatic Mode of Production then then the large Eastern empires had no concept of private land ownership, and everything flowed from there. Which is why every single time someone says "Chinese feudalism" they should be beaten with a stick.
(You can argue that China to this very day has no concept of private land-ownership and that current property rights in China are just a mask on top of the AMP of the past 3000 years where political power takes precedence over economic power. The central authority can destroy your business with the stroke of a pen.)
Tell the zoomoid to read theory. And also to read non-Marxist stuff too.
No.13527 KONTRA
No, don't actually tell him the read theory. Tell him to get a fucking life.
No.13528
>>13527>Tell him to get a fucking life.Not sure if you should throw around such a sentence :DDDD
No.13529
>>13524It's not about morality, it's about logical contradiction. Is it in interest of property owners to pay you for retelling leftist pamphlets?
No.13530
>>13529Obviously, he is paid for dependency to the existing power structure and to clutter the proletariat's mind with non-revolutionary theorizing.
No.13531
>>13529It is in the interest of property owners to have access to an appropriate and suitable work force when needed. I'm not paid to write up leftist thoughts but to keep myself fed to become part of the workforce asap. I'm in the process of doing so and the office is keen to kick me from their list asap as well. They dont gift you nothing extra
No.13532
>>13530I take opportunities when given. Entrepreneurial dialectics.
No.13533
>>13531>but to keep myself fed to become part of the workforce asapThen why did the railroad tycoons and other powers that be not just give you a Hartz IV or whatever it is they do for surplus labor? Why is your position privileged? A dismaying lack of self-criticism of everyone involved.
No.13534
>>13533>Then why did the railroad tycoons and other powers that be not just give you a Hartz IV or whatever it is they do for surplus labor? Interesting question, do you have an answer?
>Why is your position privileged?What exactly do you mean by this? I don't feel privileged to other people who receive welfare nor do I think I'm more entitled to welfare than others.
No.13535
>>13534>What exactly do you mean by this?Your position is undeniably more privileged than a that of a mere welfare recipient. I'd prefer being an academia researcher or whatever the title is over a welfare recipient, subject to the whims of the agency overseeing unemployment welfare and I'm sure most people would agree with that.
As for an answer as to why the powers that don't just have you on Hertz IV, the answer is that you're not mere surplus labor in waiting. What are you? You're more qualified to answer that than me.
No.13536
>>13534It all becomes pretty clear once you abandon Marxist dogmas and accept that state bureaucracy is a separate class with its own interests.
Government pays you for pro-government propaganda ("we need more government"). It's that simple.
No.13537
>>13535>Your position is undeniably more privileged than a that of a mere welfare recipientI am a welfare recipient, not an academic researcher.
Even if I would a be an academic researcher, what exactly is a privilege about it that is not a privilege shared with all people who work in an office that excludes menial labor when it comes to the work itself? They all sit infront of a computer and complain about back pain and often hate they do it while usually living quite comfortably. Most Ernsts I guess are part of the PMC. Afaik even you don't have a menial job (anymore).
>the answer is that you're not mere surplus labor in waiting. Yes, I am.
And I can tell you why a railroad tycoon won't pay surplus labor a wage for being on hold: it is an unnecessary cost that no business wants to pay.
Luckily the state takes care of that in this case. You could say that businesses partly pay by getting taxed, though.
>>13536The state guarantees that everything is in order. Mainly law and its enforcement. Law is rules and how to live by them, including the protection of property. I know libertarians think it can be done without a state but I don't see any successfull experiments yet, probably romanticists like all anarchists. Both the state and property owners benefit from each other.
No.13538 KONTRA
>>13537>They all sit infront of a computer and complain about back pain and often hate they do it while usually living quite comfortably.You're telling me the factory worker working three shifts is not living comfortably? Come on.
Office work is just another kind of work and having worked both blue collar and white collar jobs I can tell you that they they just hit different, but they both hit. In fact, when I was carrying around fat people I was less tired in the evening than with my current computer based job.
What is this silly argument about anyway?
No.13539
>>13538>What is this silly argument about anyway?The work of an academic researcher does not differ in concrete form from any other PMC work. Not sure if you thought I was saying something profound or some shit.
>worked menial and office and it both hitsYeah, I know. I also worked both and I was tired at the end of the working day either way.
No.13540
>>13537>Luckily the state takes care of that in this case. You could say that businesses partly pay by getting taxed, though. If we want to differentiate between the interests over the railroad tycoon class and the state's interests within this bourgeois electoralism of ours, then it becomes silly to cling onto classic Marxist class theology.
Then again, I must stand corrected, I was under the impression you received researcher moneys and not welfare moneys.
>you don't have a menial job (anymore)Previously, I was a small time railroad tycoon. Now, speaking in a pure sociological sense, I'm a gigolo. I will not elaborate.
No.13541 KONTRA
>>13540>If we want to differentiate between the interests over the railroad tycoon class and the state's interests within this bourgeois electoralism of ours, then it becomes silly to cling onto classic Marxist class theology.?
>I was under the impression you received researcher moneys and not welfare moneysIf I receive money for research from a state employer or some philanthropic capitalist - how far that is in their interest is not so interesting to me then, maybe I just fulfill a need, I relieve a conscience with my work :DDD.
I try to get by in this system like everybody else, even though I think it is wrongly organized.
These are my private thoughts. My probable research project is not about marxist theory and how to conduct a revolution so I guess I don't violate their interests with my potential work on that project.
No.13543 KONTRA
>>13539>The work of an academic researcher does not differ in concrete form from any other PMC workThat's what she said. Have a picture that raises the quality of this discussion.
Although I don't understand why you compare academic researchers to mercenaries.
No.13544
>>13543Because I was under the impression that the concrete labor done involves some form of privilege which I don't see. That was a misunderstanding I guess.
Speaking of misunderstandings I'm not sure if you were joking or actually took PMC as a reference to mercenaries and not the professional managerial class.
No.13545
10 years ago a PhD research group was disbanded by a university council for a misconduct they didn't commit. These men promptly escaped from a minimum security department to the academic underground. Today, still wanted by the academy, they survive as authors writing for think tanks. If you have a lobby cause, if no one else can write a white paper, and if you can find them, maybe you can hire the A(cademic)-Team.
No.13546 KONTRA
>>13544> I'm not sure if you were joking or actually took PMC as a reference to mercenaries and not the professional managerial class.See, in academia you learn to always define abbreviations, in order to prevent misunderstandings such as this one.
And "professional managerial class" sounds like some retarded term used by the same people who use "MSM" unironically.
No.13550
>>13399Not everyone has watched sesame Street.
People who did not have access to a TV as children didn't watch Sesame Street.
That would be various religious sects, like Mennonites, followers of Anthroposophy, primitive tribes ...
Here, when someone hasn't ever heard of sesame Street, you can just bet they are a follower of Rudolph Steiner. They don't believe in tvs, but they are certain that eating too many potatoes will harm the aether-body.
No.13551
>>13536>Government pays you for pro-government propaganda ("we need more government"). It's that simple.This.
>>13521>The state makes it possible for businesses to function like they do.A good doctor keeps his patients sick enough to need treatment, but healthy enough to survive. Government does the same with the economy. Currently they increase dependence on government subsidies to increase control. This serves government officials, who can extend their control over the economy.
For the time being, government sees it fit to have some businesses survive for some time. But strictly speaking, neither a successful economy nor an economy with any degree of independence from government is a pre-condition for the government to flourish, see North Korea.
>That's business practice.It is good business practice to bribe. It is bad business when your staff is bribed. It is good when your buddy gives you business for old time's sake. It's bad when you hire your lazy incompetent buddy for old time's same.
When government officials do it, it's a waste of tax money, a drag on government-maintained infrastructure, etc.
No.13552
>>13546You judge a concept by its sound? A man of science I see.
No.13553 KONTRA
>>13552Yes, because it's pretty easy judging dumb concepts on account of them sounding dumb, especially if they are related in any way to anything "management", or marxist theory.
The irony here is that by throwing around such a term such as "PMC" (while expecting everyone to know what you mean) you are doing exactly what one would expect from a member of the pee-em-cee. Oh, I see, you're just a manqué manager!
No.13554 KONTRA
>>13553When I said most Ernst are members of the pmc you could have guessed that is it not about mercenaries but instead of looking it up you play dumb and helpless to have a reason to rant.
Just read something about the concept and make an argument after doing so for why you think there is no need for a concept that differentiates these jobs from others or shut up, it's that easy.
No.13555
>>13554Did you know that there are actually more than two possible meanings of "PMC"? No, until my post you were only aware of one. And then decided to show off your sophisticated education.
Of course it was easy to guess what you meant, so I decided to have a bit fun with it.
But since you're a complete 100% potato german the joke went way over your head and in addition to your earlier sperging out about MUH CLASS WAR you sperged out some more.
Get a life loser :-DDDDDDD
No.13556
>>13555Wirklich so verblödet?
>Of course it was easy to guess what you meant, so I decided to have a bit fun with itWhile I asked you if you were joking or not you went with what I said beforehand
>play dumb and helpless so you can rantGood thing I was right again :DDD
No.13557
>>13556If you really think someone could POSSIBLY think you are talking about private military contractors on EC, in the Today thread, in a german post, you are way dumber than you could possibly think I am.
No.13560
Acronym duels will cause us to defeat /b/. I propose we incorporate for acronyms when we POST.
No.13563
>>13561oh fuck
since I collected data from EC for several years, I now owe you 800-1000$$$.
No.13564 KONTRA
>>13563Looks like the numbers are
a bit off. Posts and comments were counted separately. Posts essentially being like EC's threads and comments being posts. In any case, I'm sure the average EC post is a lot more
dense than a Reddit comment. Could warrant a premium in my opinion.
Anyways, we'll have to figure out a payment plan for you.
No.13570
Hey Ernst, are you working hard or hardly working? Hahaha
No.13573
Called relatives today.
Granny watches same propaganda on 1-st channel which I read on Sosach 🤝
Grandpa once again had half an hour rant on how he went to Cuba when he was in strategic missile forces in 1962.
I hoped that 13:00 is soon enough to find dad sober but I was mistaken(
No.13574
Just checked the numbers. Yesterday was the first day I went to work while my money stayed home and made more than I did.
>>13569>EcKinsey shareholdersI have requested a copy of their prospectus.
No.13577
Had a six hour college assembly meeting yesterday. I really regretted not bringing the soju by the 4th hour, but I managed. I worked on some translations on my phone and once I was tired I just idled until we were done with the voting.
Afterwards I had a magical walk home during the night.
>>13576It’s amazing what German discounts can achieve, really. I bought a bag of fries at Aldi and it was like 2.5 euros for a kilo. I felt like something was wrong, but no, Germans just love us that much.
No.13578
>>13577> paying over 2€ for a bag of friesThat's what feels wrong.
It was cheaper before Rona/the Urine war. They are ripping you off. I stopped buying those expensive fries, they can stick them where the sun don't shine at prices like that. Buying only potatoes now.
No.13581 KONTRA
>>13580>The G*rmans are playing you like a goddman fiddle. Fight back!They do, actually. I that 2.5€ for a kg of fries is fucking expensive, and it's Aldi!!! I either did not have fries for a very long time or I am ignorant about the prices but I'm pretty my local Edeka has cheaper fries, wtf.
>>13576>Herr Schwatz!This orthographic mistake
so I have to assume reveals a German nature once a German throws off the hard shell. A German becomes Mr. Chat
a Schwatz is slang for a simple chat No.13582
>>13580>>13581This is a zoomer that doesn't cook, he obviously means packaged and ready to consume fries. Probably in a small packaging. Do not slander Mr
Schwartz Schwatz without knowing all the details.
No.13583
>>13580>Still paying 1.39They doubled it and blamed it on the sunflower-oil prices. All the döner shops panic bought when there were media reports over sunflower oil shortages, the freezers were empty for weeks. They then actually doubled the prices, and they haven't gone down since. It is 2.61€ for 750g of no-name fries. 750g is just enough for one person for one meal and I'm not even fat or tall, just 55kg and 179cm.
No.13585
>>13583>750g is just enough for one person for one meal and I'm not even fat or tall, just 55kg and 179cm.There's a lack of truth somewhere in there
No.13586
>>13585Why? About once a month, that's my dinner: 1 package of fries, 2 vegan schnitzels, 2 beers. Yes, it's unhealthy pre-packaged convenience food and not exactly environmentally friendly. I'm somewhat ashamed of buying that, but I have my lazy days.
No.13589
>>13586>about once a month>absolute debauchery>I have my lazy days teeheeNo, Ernst, this is way too intentional and specific to just be "lazy days". 750g fries + 2 schnitzel should already amount to about a kg of food. In one sitting.
And that is not normal and reeks of eating disorder.
No.13590
>>13588If he's regularly eating vegan food, it's highly likely that he's vegan, and they're usually skinny.
I believe him.
No.13591
>>13590I'm not even a vegan
though I don't eat that much meat and have similar settis, a bit taller and probably around 60kg, haven't measured in ages.
I just wanted to post that he is lying about the prices which was most important to me.
750g of fries and two vegan schnitzels is a lot though. But it can be done I guess.
No.13592 KONTRA
I managed to make a good coffee today by accident I think. Like it was genuinely good and I liked it.
Did some cardio, had a shower and then I made myself a burger and left for the library where I got some reading done before going to college for a seminar.
I got home and now I feel kind of aimless. I’m tired but it’s not so late that I couldn’t do something.
>>13580You’re probably not paying a 27%VAT on it though.
No.13599 KONTRA
>>13598>my VAT is less.Orbanite Hungary is the true commie hellhole after all.
No.13603 KONTRA
>>13598Actually I’m good at maths. I scored 55% on my exit exam in mathematics which means I was right more often than wrong!
(No, but really, there’s probably a billion fucking taxes and regulations involved in the explanation as to why a bag of fries in this shithole is more expensive than in Hyperborea. I just assume the 27%VAT is the biggest contributing factor.)
No.13610
>>13609All animals are always in the presence of God, therefore perpetually extatic, even as they're being ripped apart by a predator.
Only humans are Fallen and severed from Divinity, therefore perpetually anxious and suffering.
No.13612
My mother felt sick today so I went to the pharmacy to pick up some painkillers. She said she can't give me any money for it, so I bought it myself. The pharmacy I went to was closed, but I remembered there was another one in walking distance, so I just kept going. On the way my right pocket got torn open and my keys fell out.
On the way home I bought some bread and milk.
I read from Vico's "The New Science" looking for China references and also read Leibniz's preface to the "Novissima Sinica". Both were for class. I think I had a lot of fun with these actually.
Afterwards I did some gardening work. Mainly cleaning the garden paths that got covered in dirt as nobody bothered to sweep them during winter. It feels like an archeological adventure, except I don't get to hire a local brown person for 2 dollars to do it for me.
I remember an Assyrologist telling me that "You can always just pay for Kurdish kid to climb up somewhere dangerous for you. If he falls down there's always more."
Anyway, it'll soon be almost 20 degrees outside, and I need my "basecamp" ready to sit out and read so that I don't have to commute to the library every day I'm free because I like having lunch in the garden and sipping on coffee and hearing the birds chirp.
Had Chinese shipping service ship out the two Chinese books I ordered from China. Daylight robbery and I severely miscalculated the financial investment but I will have to make do with it.
Currently looking at the reviewed version of my article and trying to work up the courage to salvage it.
I feel like this is a test. If I can't take this on then I have learned nothing, and not in the academic sense. If this crushes me and I don't do it tonight then all the good-mood, face-the-world stance was bullshit.
Also trying to assemble an application for a conference. It's a student conference and they want me to submit my sources in "APA citation style" and I'd need to rewrite the bibliography for that and I kind of feel like I should just be a dickhead like most humanities academics are and just not care and submit the references as is. Like I've never in my entire fucking life seen that style of citation. Like why not just use the fucking Chicago Style like every sensible fucking person on the planet or the basic jank Hungarian one where it's like "Fuckovich, Fucker (1917): Questions pertaining to the establishment of a true revolutionary government in the Fuckinsky district of Pidorsburg, Whatever Press, Pidorsburg." and be done with it? Why the extra fucking hoop when 95% of people don't bother with conferences anyway? Why am I mad?
Or maybe I'm misunderstanding what they want from me. I will do some research and ask around.
What's shocking is that we have an Oriental Studies Workshop but the conference has no Oriental Studies section.
Asked the workshop's leader what section he recommends and he replied by saying that "He will get to the bottom of this!" so I guess I accidentally set a very inconvenient chain of events into motion for the organisers. Ooops.
No.13613
>>13609Pigeons look out of place in nature. Like they belong on sidewalks and such.
t.Fallen and severed from Divinity
No.13614
>>13613Actually the wood pigeon is, by default, a forest dweller (hence the name).
However, I have never before seen them NOT on a tree or in flight.
The turkish dove, however, is a designated city dweller.
No.13622
>>13619> show your support and Buy me a Coffee™I'd rather buy you some vegetables, fatty
No.13623
>>13622>fattyI wish. I work on my feet. Need to eat 3500+ calories a day just to hold my weight.
Your assumption that I don't eat vegetables is correct, though. Takes too much time with too few calories. Not worth the effort, especially with my perpetually poor appetite.
No.13624
>>13623Won't you benefit from vitamins in these vegetables though?
inb4 I have a stack of supplements No.13625
>>13624Yeah, vegetables in my diet would be healthier. And it's not as though I dislike them. Peas, carrots, broccoli- all taste decent with butter.
Are vegetables still vegetables if they're roasted in fat? I love roasted vegetables, especially folded into an omelet. But unless they're served as a side when my sister makes dinner (once a week or so), I'm not sufficiently motivated to prepare and consume them. For meals, I go for fast, easy and calorie dense. I prioritize protein, but otherwise nutrition isn't really a consideration.
No.13628
>>13625Bro, frozen vegetables preparation is (water + heat) x vegetables. Once cooked season them with salt (and pepper or spices that make a good fit). You can fry and roast them as well of course.
No.13629
Regarding this vegetable talk, let me ask you one simple question, Ernst:
Have you ever dug through the ditches and burned with the witches?
No.13630 KONTRA
I like the treadmill. It's great. I keep going faster and longer. Had hell of a session today.
I read like a hundred pages for my thesis. Marked all sorts of stuff and also marked a chapter for translation.
Finished the editing for the article I will have in a conference volume. The issue is that it's been so long that I no longer agree with it. But I will probably use the material and then write a de-bunking of it for a journal during my first year of the MA once I read up on western philosophy a bit.
I don't want to slide back into being in a low mood and I think I'm holding on rather well despite university having started. The only "low" points happen due to stimuli, like staying up late or having to take a test.
I feel like that maybe feeling anxious before you get tested or have to read a review of your work is normal and I cannot "cure" it but rather just live with it and overcome it as fast as possible.
No.13636
>>13634Would that immigration stop also apply to immigrants from the west? How is the rate for breeding with german stock?
Asking for a friend.
No.13637
>>13634It doesn't work like that. There are poor countries with high birthrates and rich countries with welfare state and low birthrates. What really works is:
1) Ban sex outside of marriage.
2) Allow divorce only on mutual agreement.
(material support for families is a good thing anyway)
No.13638
No desire to work today.
I'll go to Playstation room to sonyfag for a while.
Then brainwash myself about professional honor, making the world better place and so on to give myself motivation.
No.13640 KONTRA
I will resist your vile temptations to talk about local politics or how the fat gypsy king is importing billions of pajeets so that fuckers in Budapest can have the local equivalent of UberEats. Or how he’s replacing Hungarian workers in manufacturing plans with “guest workers” from Central Asia and South-east Asia to push down wages to keep German and Chinese companies invested in the area.
I will resist. I will not talk about it.
Time for a coffee.
No.13642
>>13640You sound pretty racist man. Those people just want a better life.
No.13643
I’ve been in denial about my breakup. She told me she was seeing someone and it slowly broke down. It’s been two dans and I didn’t stop crying like a bitch
No.13645
>>13643Let it all out, it sometimes need to be.
But after that, go out of your way to forget her. Get rid of everything she gave you that you have no practical use for, delete all pictures of her and remind yourself that she isn't worth mourning over.
Maybe hire some witches to put a counterspell on her.
No.13647
>>13645She’s just about to send me a big lootcrate of gifts for a lot of complicated reasons lol. The only things I have left from her are a small plushie of a rhino, pictures together
and sextapes. I think I’ll keep all of this at least for a while.
>>13646Your pic cheered me up Portuball. Bunker sure feels empty without massonic noble whitch nor depressive Poccnr oligarch to spend post apocalypse with.
No.13648
>>13647>I think I’ll keep all of this at least for a while.Don't say I didn't tell you.
Also, you should delete those sextapes, it's the decent thing to do, even if she were a vile cunt.
No.13649
>>13648She told me she kept her ex’s sextapes too. I don’t ginkgo she would mind and think she won’t delete hers. But I realize I have more power with them as a male. I’ll think about it
No.13650
>>13649>She told me she kept her ex’s sextapes toolmao and you STILL got involved with her?
Ok forget what I said, this is hilarious. Proceed and report your feels.
No.13651 KONTRA
>>13650>lmao and you still got involved with her?Yes she really was a profoundly good person. I don’t regret it. She was bit weird indeed.
I’ll keep you informed about the happenings of my heart. It’s my duty. *salutes*
No.13653
How can you properly say it in english: I enjoy my work, but I am not enjoying my job right now.
No.13655
The fact is that Ian Curtis's wife was an ordinary cannabis dealer. After Ian Curtis was sold a batch of a Class A banned substance and he bought it, he heard the sounds of police sirens and the police began knocking on the door. If Curtis had been arrested, a nuclear war would have started, since Curtis is 100% based and a KGB agent. Ian Curtis saved the world from nuclear war by hanging himself
No.13656 KONTRA
>>13642That’s just your bias. I’m actually a respectable bipartisan in Hungary.
No.13657
>>13656Maybe Hungary in general is racist
No.13658
This afternoon I drank a beer (Faust Doppelbock, 7.5% vol.).
Now I actually feel the buzz, BUT it actually led to a breakthrough with a specific problem I had with a function that didn't do exactly what I wanted.
I wish there were a way to harvest this kind of lateral, creative thinking without having to get drunk.
No.13659 KONTRA
I’m racist in theory but antiracist in praxis. What does this make me?
No.13660
>>13657People from Eastern Europe (from Hungary to Ukraine) are so racist because they have to encounter with gypsies en masse. For us it's easy to believe that "one race is the human race", but they see refutation of this claim every day.
No.13661
>>13660We (Iberians) deal with gypsies on a daily basis and we aren't racist at all. I suppose we're just morally superior.
No.13662
>>13661Or you have gypsie mentality :)
Did you know that there was actually historically German gypsies :
https://fr.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/YénichesI knew about the Irish ones but the Germans came as shock. They are even recognized by the Swiss government as a historical minority.
No.13664
>>13662Weren't Jenische involved in the whole Rotwelsch dialect thing even?
No.13665
>>13664Yes they were and they have ties with Yiddish communities, some speculate they might be jews I think. Also fun note : in the French article the first name of the
personalities subsection is the most well known French serial killer.
No.13666
I still have pictures of my ex but I rarely look at them
they are analog, some digitals must be on an old laptop though. I also still have nudes without her face which she said I can keep. I am afraid of being a pervy cis after all.
>>13640Being afraid of opening the door for a low-wage laborer delivering your dinner I assume?
>>13646>I told a girl I was seeing someone, despite it not being true.Kek, why exactly?
No.13667
>>13666>Being afraid ofWhy should one be afraid of them?
No.13668
>>13667Working-class people are an aesthetic and monstrous crime.
No.13669
>>13668Oh, I thought you meant low-wage laborers from abroad dragging down wages, but right, Hungaryball is a sonbasket oligarch, he barely has any contact with working class.
No.13670
>>13669>Oh, I thought you meant low-wage laborers from abroad dragging down wagesThat is working-class people?
No.13671
>>13670What is working-class people?
No.13672 KONTRA
>>13671All people that sell their labor power. With today's connotation of being at the lower end of the wage spectrum.
No.13673
>>13672Yes, but you get those already domestically, whithout the added benefit for the employers of being able to get paid less.
No.13674
>>13673They are all working class people and they are handled like working class people have been handled for a long time. I don't think pajeets and brickistanis came for the great Hungarian hospitality.
No.13675
>>13674> I don't think pajeets and brickistanis came for the great Hungarian hospitality.Nobody is denying that though.
No.13676
haven't we already learned that just like socialism in one country, capitalism in one country doesn't work either
No.13677
Ah, nothing better than to top off the evening with a vegan choco soylent green protein shake in which a generous dollop of peanut butter is added.
>>13676What about the UK? I learned in school that is where industrial production aka capitalism first took place.
No.13678
>>13677Just because "unions are bad" is an utterly retarded attitude doesn't mean that union leaders and those sitting in the company union groups aren't absolute scum.
And sadly that is the only thing most people see. Unions are being taken for granted and life without their achievements isn't imaginable anymore, so you only see those fat parasites who don't do any actual work and act like they are working for the workers while actually only working in their own pockets.
Just like with politics and science it's a bunch of very bad apples spoiling everything.
No.13679 KONTRA
I feel like today was productive enough. I translated something my father wrote into English and also submitted an application for a conference.
Also sent an email to the magazine because they still haven’t sent over the fucking contract for me to sign so that they could pay me.
My father saw me do a treadmill session and then my pullups and he seemed genuinely impressed and I feel like I managed to rectify something.
I was at the library for a bit too. Had lunch before it. I wrote my conference application there. I hope they accept it. I submitted it in the history section and added a note that if there’s a chance of organising an oriental studies section I’d like to be in it.
There’s still some minor work I need to get done and then I will try to go to bed early today.
>>13659This is the way btw.
No.13682
fldtpiihtgrgrhthrjtwh
No.13684
American(s) of /int/, do you say "exetera" instead of "et cetera" and if yes, why? It's extremely irritating.
No.13685 KONTRA
>>13684Going to a café, having an expresso, exetera.
No.13686
>>13682For the lesser educated folk on /int/:
>fldtpiihtgrgrhthrjtwhis only an acronym for "Finding Life's Deepest Truths, Philosophical Inquiry Inspires Humanity To Grasp Reality's Greatness, Revealing Greater Harmony Through Reflective Journey Towards Wisdom and Healing.", a famous quote by Oscar Wilde in his book "The Velvet Veil of Existential Elegance: A Socratic Symphony on the Sublime Pursuit of Being". Only one copy of this book exists, and it is in my ownership. Soon, I will have finished it, I eat one page each day with bacon and cheese on my breakfast breadroll.
No.13687
>>13685Poor confused youngster, feeling addressed when specifically asking americans. Many such cases, SAD!
>>13686I feel like this would work better if you hadn't used Oscar Wilde of all people for such an unwieldy construct.
No.13688 KONTRA
>>13687I was making fun of them.
No.13689
>>13687Should have taken Kleist, the king of verbose.
No.13690
>>13688Schutzbehauptung.
Can you parse that term? Does a similar one exist in hungarian? No.13691 KONTRA
>>13690In like 80% of cases there's a parallel term with something from German because we were lazy fucks and we just loan-translated a lot of shit.
In this case this word became "Védőbeszéd" (Defence-speech) which is mostly used in law-contexts do denote the speech a defense attorney delivers.
But I feel like the German can be used for basically anything that was said to haphazardly defend oneself verbally.
No.13692 KONTRA
>>13684>It's extremely irritating.Imagine that, linguistic change.
No.13693
>>13691>But I feel like the German can be used for basically anything that was said to haphazardly defend oneself verbally.Thinking about it like that I can't even disagree, though in the way I experienced it, it also had a bit more of a "only pretending to be retarded" connotation, but that might be my personal impression.
No.13694
>>13684Probably because it's easier to pronounce that way. That's like "nb" combination eventually changes to "mb" because that's how our speech apparatus works.
t. not American, but amateur linguist
No.13696
>>13695>I have never heard anyone use the former.Funny, my sample size is probably way smaller than yours and I've heard it from two different people lately (one if them being my new boss-boss).
No.13697
My racism usually only extended to firstoids, but now our economy is transitioning to a stage where us poor brown people get our uber eats delivered by even poorer, browner foreign people.
Now I'm having an identity crisis.
No.13698
>>13397Was about to say so. Dostoevsky’s the only one tru way to existence
No.13699 KONTRA
>>13697Second worlder, you will be the new global middle class and you will be happy
No.13700
>>13697And that is why identity politics is ultimately useless as an instrument for communist politics. Arbeiter, hörst du es nicht?
No.13703
>>13697Germany is such a shit hole that Uber does not even exist
No.13704
>>13699Is brick getting a decent living wage for his computer job or is that still a low wage hardly get by wage?
No.13705 KONTRA
>>13703I seriously hope you were being ironic
No.13706
>>13704I'm paid above average for kazakhstan, but kinda low for a computer job. And basically neetbux / part time tier by first world standards.
I'm a bit too comfortable and busy with other life shit right now to go job hunting or negotiate for a higher salary.
I barely do anything at work, which leaves me time to take care of other crap that's been going on, which is fine for me right now.
No.13707
>>13316It is not faulty. Having lost limbs is central to their identity. The one with the fewest limbs is the biggest jingo of them all. They want to lose limbs, having "given a limb for the fatherland" increases their status and allows them to claim victimhood.
No.13708
In Germany, a so-called "terrorist" has been caught. After she has been in hiding for 30 years, at the age of 66, the pig system has caught up with Susanne Klatten.
No.13709 KONTRA
>>13708> Susanne KlattenOh my, I made a mistake there. Obviously, they caught Daniela Klette, not a real terrorist like Susanne Klatten!
No.13710
>>13708>"terrorist"Do you think Red Army Faction members would more or less offended by placing terrorist in quotes? I get the angle that they're not terrorists, but liberators. It still feels like you're belittling them though.
No.13711
There’s a strong female smell in the uni library. Like when you wake up next to a woman or you’re waiting in line behind a perfumed girl. But no woman in a radius of 6m, strange feels…
No.13715 KONTRA
>>13714her pussy…
Damn did I hurt her by talking before thinking and expressing my emotions throughout outbursts. She didn’t deserve this, I hate myself for this.
No.13718
>>13711Do you remember the smell of her soft skin you liked to kiss so gently?
I'm starved.>>13706Sounds good, bro. I still remember how you had those little jobs or internships in the past that didn't last long and such.
No.13719
>>13707I'm sure that soldiers at war hope to return home with all of their limbs attached. Victimhood status is granted to handicapped exactly because they suffered undesired body mutilation, in other words something bad happened to them. With transgender ideology on other hand, body mutilation is desired, and victimhood status is granted by being rejected body mutilation (rejected "healthcare").
However if someone desires to lose their body part (except genitals), this is called "body integrity dysphoria" and is considered mental disorder.
P.S. I shit on imperialist genocidal invaders known as "Vietnam veterans"
No.13720 KONTRA
>>13718>Do you remember the smell of her soft skin you liked to kiss so gently?You’re diabolical…
I’m not exaggerating when I say she had the softest skin I ever put my hands on. She was the antithesis of anything rough, her hands couldn’t squeeze anything, it’s like everything she held was an egg or a newborn. And when she smile all her face lit up like a sun in an each time new and unique display of sincerity. Every guy she befriended fell in love with her, which was a pain in the ass for me and a constant tragedy for her.
>>13717I’m giving myself two months of grief now that I’m not in denial anymore and if I’ve not moved on by then I’m going to take a more hands on approach.
No.13721
>>13720>now that I’m not in denial anymorelmao
No.13722
What we should not forget is that we only know about the happenings of this relationship from swissball himself, who is, by the very nature of the matter, an unreliable narrator. Probably even more unreliable than Humbert Humbert.
So for all we know she could have been a hag with green skin and a long, pointy nose.
No.13723
>>13719>I'm sure that soldiers at war hope to return home with all of their limbs attachedSo they go to war and don't get anything out of it?
No.13724
>>13723There's still PTSD
No.13726
>>13723You're probably trolling, but are other reasons of going to war. Conscription, money, believing in a just cause of the war, desire to kill and rape locals.
No.13727
>>13720>You’re diabolical…Because I know what it is like
>I’m not exaggerating when I say she had the softest skin I ever put my hands on. She was the antithesis of anything rough, her hands couldn’t squeeze anything, it’s like everything she held was an egg or a newborn. And when she smile all her face lit up like a sunSounds like my ex. She was and still is a fragile
her physique gives off the impression, very skinny at 5.3ft, soft and kind individual
but also depressed, which she only later admitted to a friend of mine who met her briefly last year or so. She was in the mental ward for suicidal thoughts. Our relationship ended because of my depression and of course some other things, but among them it was also my depression Oh well. I sometimes think of her and want to caress her. I wonder how we would talk if we met again, I haven't seen her in ages but I imagine it to be like no time has passed. A familiarity that does not cede. We did part in sadness over not getting it together anymore, no fight but still love.
Damn I was looking for that tiktok where an former couple meets after years again in their hometown (late 20s I guess) and Her's once was is playing and they just have agood time laughing and that is how I imagine the energy. It is burried in thousands of likes or deleted, dunno, couldn't find it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mKX21of0sMYou know. Now that you read my thoughts on my ex
my only serious relationship, you might fathom that you won't forget a person so quickly. I have no problem meeting other women and I think many will work for a relationship, but I suspect I look in other women for the qualities she has when it comes to a relationship.
No.13728
I don’t wanna get old. I want to be in love for the first time forever.
No.13730
>>13726> Just causeYou man like keeping the fascist Banderistas in power for as long as possible?
No.13732
>>13728> awoo awoo I'm attractive rich first worlder with caring parents oh poor meDude, at this point it's annoying
No.13734
>>13730Speaking about AFU, it's 99% forced mobilization. Actual banderites died or were injured long time ago. Or they prefer to hide faraway from frontlines and send others to death.
They are just random men, who were caught like cattle and dragged to war, where they are being torn into pieces by bombs and artillery.
"Women are the most affected"(c) UN
No.13735 KONTRA
>>13732I get it. I’ll keep it to myself
No.13737
Therapy bros?
>>13735It will be good for you as a professional sufferer if rational part of your mind understands that your life is great and that this is just your choice to add some drama.
No.13738
Temperatures hit the 60's today. Had a get out and do something productive feeling. Drove for a car wash, put air in the tires. Couldn't pass up the opportunity to then walk to the gym. First time going this year. Strength was down, but not as much as I feared. Weather goes back to shit tomorrow. Wind, thunderstorms and temps fall to the 30's.
No.13739 KONTRA
>>13737My university counseling ended after 6 months and my therapist said I don't need a therapist
you either pay by yourself for a lot of money or health insurance if a therapist is willing, but finding one can take months when its paid by (non private) health insurance. And I agree, we worked out some problems of mine quite well I think. Other people probably need it more than me. I would like a monthly reflection with a person but oh well, for the moment it will be ok.
I know some areas and things I need to work on and I have some tools to do so, either from the therapy sessiion itself or books. I just should keep on working and trying, which is easier said than done. I often think people who never went to therapy don't understand how exhausting it can be and to take measures. Some people block seats by using therapy as a scheduled chat, though I guess.
No.13740
Chinese class was less painful than I expected. It passed by pretty quickly. Afterwards I went to the library to borrow a book and to lengthen the borrowing time on another one. Chatted a bit with the librarian about things like doing my thesis and the like. She mentioned that I came up in a discussion with the professor who is teaching me philosophy and he said that I’m “Bright” but “All over the place”. The funny thing is that he used a word which I associate with children keep trying to do everything in an overly energetic manner. It’s a valid criticism that “I shouldn’t divide up my strength too much” but the other side of the coin is that I feel good because it means that I have a visible appetite for life and knowledge. Which is a good thing.
I’m blooming Ernst, I’m blooming.
Also said that we’re reading the Heart Sutra in class and she asked “Is that good?” and my reply was “You know, Stalin had a phrase for that: It’s good for those that happen to like it.”
It got a chuckle out of her.
I came home and devoured a bunch of spaghetti my mother made in the morning. I was happy to have a good lunch.
Then I got an email that my classical Chinese class got cancelled after most of the MA students got sick.
I also got a light fever but I suspect that the thermometer might be on its last legs. Or I was just overheated for som reason.
I downed some leftover coffee that I reheated from the pot and took a painkiller and left for German class. It was pleasant. At one point we were discussing the word “Märchen” and how it came to be and I was like “Oh, so it’s in essence like in the first stanza of the Nibelungenlied” and the lecturer looked at me and said “Ernst, warum studieren sie nicht Germanistik…”
It feels like this is one of the best forms of acknowledgement. When people believe you could excell in anything.
I have a single seminar tomorrow so I plan on getting some reading done. Also some running and the like. I missed out on exercise today.
No.13741
I hope nothing as cringe as falling in love ever happens to me and all my relationships will be purely mutually transactional.
No.13742
>>13741Weren't there attempts to set you up with someone's daughter? That was your chance for a transactional relationship I'd say.
No.13743
>>13742This was an attempt made by my very ambitious, shrewd and family-politically scheming auntie.
The daughter in question is from a family of her friends, which means that if I went for it, I'd have fallen under her political influence.
That's not a transactional relationship, that's an extractional relationship.
No.13744
>>13743I thought you were muslims, couldn't you just tell your aunt to stfu?
No.13745
>>13743There would have been gains and losses on both sides, it would have been transactional!
No.13753
>>13743>>13745>There would have been gains and losses on both sidesI'd wager there would have been mostly losses on the bricks side.
My great-great-grandmother forced close to 80% of her numerous children from multiple husbands and one extramarital affair to marry for economical gain. These marriages were mostly unhappy.
She then found ways to funnel the wealth she herself had gained by marriage and the wealth her less-favorite children had gained by marriage to her favorite children, mostly her youngest son, who died a wealthy man, despite being a drinker and an intense idiot who once gave away an entire house while drunk.
The Brick is adviced to rather stay single then to enter into a marriage arranged by his aunt.