/int/ - feminine energy

>>13690
In like 80% of cases there's a parallel term with something from German because we were lazy fucks and we just loan-translated a lot of shit.
In this case this word became "Védőbeszéd" (Defence-speech) which is mostly used in law-contexts do denote the speech a defense attorney delivers.
But I feel like the German can be used for basically anything that was said to haphazardly defend oneself verbally.

>>13684
>It's extremely irritating.
Imagine that, linguistic change.

>>13691
>But I feel like the German can be used for basically anything that was said to haphazardly defend oneself verbally.
Thinking about it like that I can't even disagree, though in the way I experienced it, it also had a bit more of a "only pretending to be retarded" connotation, but that might be my personal impression.

>>13684
Probably because it's easier to pronounce that way. That's like "nb" combination eventually changes to "mb" because that's how our speech apparatus works.

t. not American, but amateur linguist

>>13684
>"exetera" instead of "et cetera"
The latter. I have never heard anyone use the former.

>>13695
>I have never heard anyone use the former.
Funny, my sample size is probably way smaller than yours and I've heard it from two different people lately (one if them being my new boss-boss).

My racism usually only extended to firstoids, but now our economy is transitioning to a stage where us poor brown people get our uber eats delivered by even poorer, browner foreign people.
Now I'm having an identity crisis.

>>13397
Was about to say so. Dostoevsky’s the only one tru way to existence

>>13697
Second worlder, you will be the new global middle class and you will be happy

>>13697
And that is why identity politics is ultimately useless as an instrument for communist politics. Arbeiter, hörst du es nicht?

>>13697
Germany is such a shit hole that Uber does not even exist

>>13699
Is brick getting a decent living wage for his computer job or is that still a low wage hardly get by wage?

>>13703
I seriously hope you were being ironic

>>13704
I'm paid above average for kazakhstan, but kinda low for a computer job. And basically neetbux / part time tier by first world standards.

I'm a bit too comfortable and busy with other life shit right now to go job hunting or negotiate for a higher salary.
I barely do anything at work, which leaves me time to take care of other crap that's been going on, which is fine for me right now.

>>13316
It is not faulty. Having lost limbs is central to their identity. The one with the fewest limbs is the biggest jingo of them all. They want to lose limbs, having "given a limb for the fatherland" increases their status and allows them to claim victimhood.

In Germany, a so-called "terrorist" has been caught. After she has been in hiding for 30 years, at the age of 66, the pig system has caught up with Susanne Klatten.

>>13708
> Susanne Klatten
Oh my, I made a mistake there. Obviously, they caught Daniela Klette, not a real terrorist like Susanne Klatten!

>>13708
>"terrorist"
Do you think Red Army Faction members would more or less offended by placing terrorist in quotes? I get the angle that they're not terrorists, but liberators. It still feels like you're belittling them though.

There’s a strong female smell in the uni library. Like when you wake up next to a woman or you’re waiting in line behind a perfumed girl. But no woman in a radius of 6m, strange feels…

Thought some of you would enjoy this.

>>13714
her pussy…

Damn did I hurt her by talking before thinking and expressing my emotions throughout outbursts. She didn’t deserve this, I hate myself for this.

>>13715
Do I really have to say something as trite as "Didn't I tell you"?

>>13711
Do you remember the smell of her soft skin you liked to kiss so gently?

I'm starved.


>>13706
Sounds good, bro. I still remember how you had those little jobs or internships in the past that didn't last long and such.

>>13707
I'm sure that soldiers at war hope to return home with all of their limbs attached. Victimhood status is granted to handicapped exactly because they suffered undesired body mutilation, in other words something bad happened to them. With transgender ideology on other hand, body mutilation is desired, and victimhood status is granted by being rejected body mutilation (rejected "healthcare").

However if someone desires to lose their body part (except genitals), this is called "body integrity dysphoria" and is considered mental disorder.

P.S. I shit on imperialist genocidal invaders known as "Vietnam veterans"

>>13718
>Do you remember the smell of her soft skin you liked to kiss so gently?
You’re diabolical…
I’m not exaggerating when I say she had the softest skin I ever put my hands on. She was the antithesis of anything rough, her hands couldn’t squeeze anything, it’s like everything she held was an egg or a newborn. And when she smile all her face lit up like a sun in an each time new and unique display of sincerity. Every guy she befriended fell in love with her, which was a pain in the ass for me and a constant tragedy for her.

>>13717
I’m giving myself two months of grief now that I’m not in denial anymore and if I’ve not moved on by then I’m going to take a more hands on approach.

>>13720
>now that I’m not in denial anymore
lmao

What we should not forget is that we only know about the happenings of this relationship from swissball himself, who is, by the very nature of the matter, an unreliable narrator. Probably even more unreliable than Humbert Humbert.
So for all we know she could have been a hag with green skin and a long, pointy nose.

>>13719
>I'm sure that soldiers at war hope to return home with all of their limbs attached
So they go to war and don't get anything out of it?

>>13723
There's still PTSD

>>13720
>I’ve not moved on by then I’m going to take a more hands on approach.
Couldn't generate what I wanted in enough attempts, here's what came closest:

>>13723
You're probably trolling, but are other reasons of going to war. Conscription, money, believing in a just cause of the war, desire to kill and rape locals.

>>13720
>You’re diabolical…

Because I know what it is like

>I’m not exaggerating when I say she had the softest skin I ever put my hands on. She was the antithesis of anything rough, her hands couldn’t squeeze anything, it’s like everything she held was an egg or a newborn. And when she smile all her face lit up like a sun

Sounds like my ex. She was and still is a fragile her physique gives off the impression, very skinny at 5.3ft, soft and kind individual but also depressed, which she only later admitted to a friend of mine who met her briefly last year or so. She was in the mental ward for suicidal thoughts. Our relationship ended because of my depression and of course some other things, but among them it was also my depression

Oh well. I sometimes think of her and want to caress her. I wonder how we would talk if we met again, I haven't seen her in ages but I imagine it to be like no time has passed. A familiarity that does not cede. We did part in sadness over not getting it together anymore, no fight but still love.

Damn I was looking for that tiktok where an former couple meets after years again in their hometown (late 20s I guess) and Her's once was is playing and they just have agood time laughing and that is how I imagine the energy. It is burried in thousands of likes or deleted, dunno, couldn't find it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mKX21of0sM


You know. Now that you read my thoughts on my ex my only serious relationship, you might fathom that you won't forget a person so quickly. I have no problem meeting other women and I think many will work for a relationship, but I suspect I look in other women for the qualities she has when it comes to a relationship.

I don’t wanna get old. I want to be in love for the first time forever.

>>13726
> Just cause
You man like keeping the fascist Banderistas in power for as long as possible?

>>13728
> awoo awoo I'm attractive rich first worlder with caring parents oh poor me
Dude, at this point it's annoying

>>13730
Speaking about AFU, it's 99% forced mobilization. Actual banderites died or were injured long time ago. Or they prefer to hide faraway from frontlines and send others to death.
They are just random men, who were caught like cattle and dragged to war, where they are being torn into pieces by bombs and artillery.

"Women are the most affected"(c) UN

>>13732
I get it. I’ll keep it to myself

Therapy bros?

>>13735
It will be good for you as a professional sufferer if rational part of your mind understands that your life is great and that this is just your choice to add some drama.

Temperatures hit the 60's today. Had a get out and do something productive feeling. Drove for a car wash, put air in the tires. Couldn't pass up the opportunity to then walk to the gym. First time going this year. Strength was down, but not as much as I feared. Weather goes back to shit tomorrow. Wind, thunderstorms and temps fall to the 30's.

>>13737
My university counseling ended after 6 months and my therapist said I don't need a therapist you either pay by yourself for a lot of money or health insurance if a therapist is willing, but finding one can take months when its paid by (non private) health insurance. And I agree, we worked out some problems of mine quite well I think. Other people probably need it more than me. I would like a monthly reflection with a person but oh well, for the moment it will be ok.
I know some areas and things I need to work on and I have some tools to do so, either from the therapy sessiion itself or books. I just should keep on working and trying, which is easier said than done. I often think people who never went to therapy don't understand how exhausting it can be and to take measures. Some people block seats by using therapy as a scheduled chat, though I guess.

Chinese class was less painful than I expected. It passed by pretty quickly. Afterwards I went to the library to borrow a book and to lengthen the borrowing time on another one. Chatted a bit with the librarian about things like doing my thesis and the like. She mentioned that I came up in a discussion with the professor who is teaching me philosophy and he said that I’m “Bright” but “All over the place”. The funny thing is that he used a word which I associate with children keep trying to do everything in an overly energetic manner. It’s a valid criticism that “I shouldn’t divide up my strength too much” but the other side of the coin is that I feel good because it means that I have a visible appetite for life and knowledge. Which is a good thing.
I’m blooming Ernst, I’m blooming.

Also said that we’re reading the Heart Sutra in class and she asked “Is that good?” and my reply was “You know, Stalin had a phrase for that: It’s good for those that happen to like it.”
It got a chuckle out of her.

I came home and devoured a bunch of spaghetti my mother made in the morning. I was happy to have a good lunch.
Then I got an email that my classical Chinese class got cancelled after most of the MA students got sick.
I also got a light fever but I suspect that the thermometer might be on its last legs. Or I was just overheated for som reason.

I downed some leftover coffee that I reheated from the pot and took a painkiller and left for German class. It was pleasant. At one point we were discussing the word “Märchen” and how it came to be and I was like “Oh, so it’s in essence like in the first stanza of the Nibelungenlied” and the lecturer looked at me and said “Ernst, warum studieren sie nicht Germanistik…”
It feels like this is one of the best forms of acknowledgement. When people believe you could excell in anything.

I have a single seminar tomorrow so I plan on getting some reading done. Also some running and the like. I missed out on exercise today.

I hope nothing as cringe as falling in love ever happens to me and all my relationships will be purely mutually transactional.

>>13741
Weren't there attempts to set you up with someone's daughter? That was your chance for a transactional relationship I'd say.

>>13742
This was an attempt made by my very ambitious, shrewd and family-politically scheming auntie.
The daughter in question is from a family of her friends, which means that if I went for it, I'd have fallen under her political influence.

That's not a transactional relationship, that's an extractional relationship.

>>13743
I thought you were muslims, couldn't you just tell your aunt to stfu?

>>13743
There would have been gains and losses on both sides, it would have been transactional!

>>13743
>>13745
>There would have been gains and losses on both sides

I'd wager there would have been mostly losses on the bricks side.

My great-great-grandmother forced close to 80% of her numerous children from multiple husbands and one extramarital affair to marry for economical gain. These marriages were mostly unhappy.

She then found ways to funnel the wealth she herself had gained by marriage and the wealth her less-favorite children had gained by marriage to her favorite children, mostly her youngest son, who died a wealthy man, despite being a drinker and an intense idiot who once gave away an entire house while drunk.

The Brick is adviced to rather stay single then to enter into a marriage arranged by his aunt.