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 No.12421 SYSTEMKONTRA [Last 50 Posts]

Beautiful people edition

Old: >>11871

 No.12423 KONTRA

>Beautiful people edition
Ok, saves me from waiting to hide it until the inevitable fight breaks out.

 No.12427 KONTRA

Now that Erna validated my attractiveness I can shine in this thread.


>>12420
>However if psychotherapist is able to help you, he's probably also able to hurt you, so that's not that harmless.

True, therapists are still people in the end. I'd say it's worth the risk.

>a) Psychoanalysis (Freudian, Jungian, Lacanian?)


I know it became more relevant for cultural analysis than therapy I think. Don't actually know how psychoanalysis therapy looks like. Only how psychoanalytic cultural analysis looks like, whcih is more famous today, no?

>b) Psychotherapy in general


I have experienced results myself. So yes. The scientific literature is mixed on how well cbt cognitive behavioral therapy works. Maybe depends on the criteria of what is success. Did not look closely into the literature though. But it is what is usually done when you come into counseling, especially university counseling I suppose because of it often short term nature it's free but limited sessions.
I suspect Hungary to suffer some issues many academics suffer from and cbt for example tackles these issues. So yeah, you can give it a shot, especially since it is free university counseling. You need patience and should not disregard everything from the get go.
I have been to therapy in my early twenties and it helped me a bit. Then years of suffering in which I also thought about therapy might make sense but I was suspicious of that profession and the people and the lingo, it's so soft and I have to be hard yadayada plot twist: being hard with yourself and your environment is the problem with feeling good and free(er). But one can benefit from concepts and insights without becoming a half-assed psych influencer. I talked to my therapist that I sometimes find it annoying how diffident some people are when they know more about their feelings. I'm sometimes jealous of how sensible they can be to things that I overlook but on the other hand I like not being so very diffident, it is more fun and lose. And she agreed that it can be just too much. You don't have to be so extremely compassionate that you remove your own needs and wants again in a contradictory twist.

 No.12428 KONTRA

>>12427
Psychotherapy is gay bullshit. Stop being a fagot, homo.

 No.12429

genderreveal.mp4 (5.32 MB, 576x1134)

What therapy does to a mf. Press F for the fallen brother you gay homo retards!

 No.12430

>>12420
>a) Psychoanalysis (Freudian, Jungian, Lacanian?)
Esoteric insanity. It's interesting and fun to read about, but imagining any of this is any way scientific or carrying anything worthy of serious study is silly. Must have been fun living in these foundational periods of disciplines to write out your own theories. Phrenology of the (inner) mind.

b) Psychotherapy in general
Useful for some people. People benefit greatly of off bouncing their inner thoughts at someone. If you have no opportunities to do this in your regular life, or everyone you interact with at such a level is a dysfunctional human, it's good to pay someone who is functional and in tune with the present accepted modes of interacting with others. Annoying because it's paraded as a panacea and it makes some people worse humans, morphing slightly maladjusted humans into missionaries for a new evangelical religion that makes them genuinely believe they have unlocked universal never before considered insight.
Key terms for future elaboration: commodification of human interaction.

 No.12431

Just did some work outside for a few hours.
I wasn't properly dressed and we were finished just in time for me to not actually start freezing.
Now I'll just wait to get sick, or not. I hope not.

 No.12432 KONTRA

>>12430
>present accepted modes of interacting with others

My suspicion for psychology stems from this individualized answer and drive to create resilient subjects. And while this is certainly true. Psychology can be beneficial for the psychological damages done nonetheless.

>panacea


No, but many people could make use of it.

>commodification of human interaction.


On the basis of its scientification through psychology. They are different things though. But we live in a (capitalist) society so scientification and commodification go hand in hand basically.
If that was thought of as a critique of my thoughts from yesterday it misses the point.

 No.12433

autobahnabubakr1.mp4 (3.15 MB, 576x1240)

autobahnabubakr1.5.mp4 (9.69 MB, 576x1240)

autobahnabubakr2.mp4 (9.69 MB, 576x1240)

🇩🇪🇩🇪🇩🇪🇩🇪🇩🇪

funfact: during the test for German citizenship these videos are shown and your heart rate is monitored. If you don't pass a certain threshold a German citizenship will not be granted

 No.12434 KONTRA

autobahnabubakr2.mp4 (8.79 MB, 576x1240)


 No.12435 KONTRA

>>12433
Aha.
And what am I supposed to see here, apart from a bunch of dutch retards and the unbelievable incompetence of the german construction sector? Or is it about the absolutely irritating vertical camera that constantly makes shit go out of frame? In the 4th one it might be justified at least partly.

Also, what is supposed to happen to the heart rate? Is it supposed to go up because driving on the Autobahn is so infuriating or is it supposed to stay relaxed because it's like that every day?

Are you the same autist who posted the "german post sovok" videos in the last thread?

 No.12436

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>>12435
>what is supposed to happen to the heart rate?

What kind of trick question is this. As a German you should know. I now see you for what you are, a German by law, not by heart.

 No.12437

Nothing out of the ordinary happening. I edited the texts some more. I'll probably do one more revision, focusing on the style, but now at least I have a baseline text, ordered into paragraphs and terminology marked with the Chinese original too.
Alltogether I produced 7 pages worth of text based on primary sources this semester for my college research seminar.

My foot's getting a lot better. I was afraid I was going to have to go to the doctor with it.
Maybe it's the magnesium my mother got me.

I was thinking about it and yeah, I should probably try therapy, at least once. So yeah, I'm gonna fill out the form and try it. It's not like I don't have the time next semester anyway.
Just gotta hack together that BA somehow.

 No.12438 KONTRA

Spent the entire weekend dicking around. Disappointed in myself, I used the last 3 hours to study. There will be mock exams this week.

 No.12439 KONTRA

>>12438
Known feels. Was the dicking fun at least?

 No.12440 KONTRA

im this cat 344.png (99.02 KB, 420x498)

Stuck in a sleepless loop again. I'm finna snap forreals bruh.

>>12437
Good stuff.

 No.12441

I'm kinda glad to have a job where I can spend 1 day out of the work week just feeling like shit at home and not doing anything, and then make up for it the next day.
I'd have been fired from a normal job a long time ago lol.

 No.12442

>>12441
>I'd have been fired from a normal job a long time ago lol.
Doubt, a lot of office jobs don't require full time commitment, as long as deadlines are met and you don't piss off people. t. spent the last two weeks in home office, following events on the internet, and still getting stuff done without much troubles.

Doesn't work all the time of course. If shit hits the fan, then i have to fully commit to work. Luckily that only happens one or two days a week maybe.

 No.12443

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>>12437
> I'm gonna fill out the form and try it.

Very good decision, my son.

I actually hope you can benefit like I did so far. First meeting will be an estimation of your problem and getting to know each other, so you should go at least two times. And don't write it off if the first proper session is not going anywhere. It also depends on how open you are. Small talk circumventing the issues won't yield progress but I suspect you are reflective and articulate enough to verbalize what you think is a potential issue up front

 No.12449

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Railing update. Snow has mostly stopped. More expected later.


>>12414
I didn't want to give you too much detail to work with :D

 No.12452

I have had almost constantly meeting today, since the morning. One hour of lunch break during which there were errands and housekeeping to do.
Now I have barely two hours to do some actual work until the next meeting.

 No.12463 KONTRA

im this cat 343.mp4 (1.43 MB, 854x480)

Incredibly stressful day combined with way too little sleep in days. Still alive, though.

>>12449
That's a lot of snow.

>I didn't want to give you too much detail to work with :D

Fuuggg :D Even with the new intel that type of a metal railing is way too popular in the area.

Anyways, wouldn't post a pic of any Ernst's house if I were to geolocate one. That would be fucked up.
T. Sneaky fuck

 No.12470

Spent most of today chatting and listening to music. Also finished reading a novel. I’ll write a post about it.
My foot’s almost completely fine, though it still suddenly struck me with pain a couple of times when I was walking up and down the house. I guess if I took this seriously I’d just lay in bed, but I can’t help not walking up and down the house randomly.

A former high school teacher found out about the article I wrote and she said she’d love to chat with me over a coffee. I guess I kinda was like an unpolished jewel back then, shining with potential. It’d do me some good if I talked more with people so I’ll take her up on the offer.

I’m still in a remarkably good mood. There was also some good news on the job front. I might actually end up becoming a bureaucrat in the end. Just gotta get my degree.
I remember a very old 4chan thread where a guy working at some government office inherited his predecessor’s desk. He committed suicide and left a copy of “Notes from the underground” in the desk’s drawer.
I wonder if reading all this ancient stuff and stories with moral messages would make me an actually good civil servant. I guess being a “good” civil servant is up to interpretation.

As I’ve said, I’m in a remarkably good mood. I haven’t been drinking any herbal tea lately. Hell, I even managed to have a rather pleasant chat with my father. Can’t remember what about, but we both chuckled.
The sun keeps shining, and I don’t feel betrayed by the weather.

Oh yeah and I am absolutely decimating myself with Persona. I’m pleasantly surprised. This was the game I upgraded my PC for. I poured like what, 80 euros into the project, and I was a bit anxious that the game’s gonna be a letdown and I’d feel like crap for spending this much money on something I ended up not enjoying, but it’s actually good and I have no regrets about it.

I feel this really, sort of borderline idiotic positivity sitting on me where I feel like that things are going to be really good and ultimately, the ship will keep sailing. The degree might change, but the velocity doesn’t.
Like “Ah, the world can be so great!” Even the melancholy I feel listening to music sometimes is actually sweet again.

>>12443
I didn’t mean “trying it once” as “I’ll go and then never again”. This isn’t some TV show about some stubborn character who expect therapy to be a miracle cure.

 No.12474

Hate this period after transfering to a new position where you don't know what you're doing, but need to do the tasks anyway to learn how to do it, and for a while you're delivering negative productivity to people and being an overall nuisance.

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 No.12481 KONTRA

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 No.12482

>>12481
SKIBIDI DOB
DOB DOB YES YES

 No.12487

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> Beautiful people edition

Ernst, what is beauty?

(And how much of it is physical?)
What are people? I dunno undaständru.

 No.12492

>>12487
Coincidentally, I listened to Antichrist Superstar today during work.
The edginess is so c&a
>I wasn't born with enough middle fingers
>The boy that you loved is the man that you fear

 No.12494 KONTRA

Best score in the mock exam, but still managed to be unable to write "goodbye". Hours memorizing complex characters and forgor the most basic word. Winning the F1 Grand Prix and running over a family of 7 on my way to the grocery store.

 No.12496

>>12494
> but still managed to be unable to write "goodbye"
just keep doing it and call it a signature.

Problems weren't.

 No.12497

>>12487
Beauty is objective, and measurable.
Attraction is subjective.

 No.12499 KONTRA

I did some administrative work today. Sent out a bunch of mail and messages.

Reconnected with my thesis supervisor. We haven’t talked in a year I guess. Asked if my submission was still valid and everything and yes, he’s still officially supervising. Told him about my ideas for the work and he agreed and said he’s eagerly waiting my first draft. I guess being seen as competent is actually a good thing.
Also registered for the course titled “Thesis consultation” so I will have three meetings with him officially.

Told a classmate about how I could probably arrange her to be one of the presenters at an event series where the current topic would be her research. I had this idea but just as I thought, she’s torn, because it’s a large audience. But I would have felt guilty if I had not told her.
It’s good for the event, good for the college.

The meeting with the former teacher of mine was pushed to February. I don’t mind. We agreed on coffee because I honestly don’t want to go back to the school even for a quick visit. On one hand it feels unhealthy for me for some reason, on the other I’d feel uncomfortable. I can see myself just simply looking over the library for example, looking at it as a sort of museum of my life. Like Kim Jong-Il visiting his old home or some shit like that. I don’t want that.
Let’s have a good coffee. That lifts spirits.

Oh and I also sent a mail for the councelling office to request and appointment. I guess I might be early though, considering the new semester hasn’t started, but I guess it’s better early than late.

I had Hiroki Azuma’s “Otaku” on my shelf for a while and I guess it’s perfect for right now. Something short but rich. I decided to make it my bedside book.
I just want to read a “pamphlet” of sorts. Not some 300 page monograph.
I know an Ernst read it years ago.

My Chinese package supposedly is in the country already, but customs decided to pry it open and check if it actually contains “现代文化”

Otherwise my days are the same. I exercise, play video games and read. I’m honestly happy right now, somehow.

Tomorrow I have a bit of collegework in the city. I have to take an examination in German to see how my C1 training is progressing. It’s just a formality, really, but it needs to be done.
I lended a manuscript to the lecturer anyway. Maybe he read it during the holidays. It was the novel translation I did in high school.
Honestly it’s still one of my dreams to learn enough Japanese to be able to re-do it and then publish it.
But I’m gonna master Chinese sufficiently first.

>>12494
I mean, it happens. Sometimes you’re focusing so much on special vocabulary that you forget the basics for a bit. I had times when I could write down 西藏 but forgot how to write 现在。
Usually it’s down there somewhere though.
Good job on the exams though. Wish I could be the top of my class. I mean I guess I was. With Classical Chinese anyway.

 No.12500

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With this week's storm, I fnally broke in my new snowblower. Neighbor had to help me start it, lol. He's the one who dug us out a few times with his blower last year, and thought he was being called over yesterday to do the same. No, just couldn't get the thing to turn over. Turns out the engine's prime bulb has to be pressed 5x not 3x as the instructions indicate. Stupidly obvious solution I am embarassed to say I didn't think of. He gave some tips on its use as well- cutting, steering etc. And to watch where you are throwing snow. Peppered another neigbor's fence, but avoided hitting any windows.

It requires more physical effort to maneuver and push than I anticipated. Even self-propelled, it's not like a lawnmower where I can just walk behind. And it takes getting used to. To feel comfortable grabbing it like any other tool. Went out this morning with a shovel to do some clean up. Just a little work, so wasn't going to get the machine out. Neighbor laughed "You know they make snowblowers for that".

 No.12501

Was in Boyztown yesterday/this morning.

Man, so many Russians in there, you wouldn't believe.
But in contrast to the uncultured, disfigured Jomtien russian ziggers and their Gremlin-surgery wives, they were quiet alright.
Overall very mixed customers, also a lot of local girls enjoying the strip dances and blushing deep red when one was took onto the stage to be veiled in cloth between two ripped, big dicked strippers.

Fun night, been a while since I was in a dedicated gay bar, such a nice flair to be there with a ladyboy, it even got timid me dancing.
Just the prices are on par with any disco or agogo, but whatever, a few thousand Baht hardly get you through the night in any Austrian bar these days, let alone if you have to oil the throats of 2 people and then some more.

But it will most likely stay as the night in which I kinda had to touch the most dicks for the rest of my life, if I don't organize some kind of overly lavish ladyboy orgy.
Mayhaps that should be my goal for the next vacation?

 No.12502

>>12500
We are finally having winter in parts of Germany, too.
In fact, the emergency messaging service has already sent out warnings for black ice yesterday, but again this night or early morning (at least my phone's screen was on when I stood up, for who knows how long).
The trains are (of course) affected, some schools have already closed "as a precaution" and I expect a bunch of crashes because people in this country can't drive.

 No.12503

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Visiting Kunming/Yunnan right now. Feels a good bit more authentic/less metropolitan after Beijing/Shanghai/Hangzhou. Fine weather, people seem more relaxed. But there's not a whole lot to do. Ate lunch at a small family-run restaurant today and the owner asked where we're from and he said the last time he served Germans was twenty years ago :DD Lijiang and Dali next.

>>12499
>I know an Ernst read it years ago.
Guilty.

>>12501
Do you have any tips for Bangkok? Like food and nightlife-wise etc.
I'm going next week for the first time, didn't do too much research yet.
I'm down with something seedy but not quite ready to dive into the gay bar scene.

 No.12504

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>>12500
> I am embarassed to say I didn't think of.
Don't blame yourself for being a good boy who follows instructions.

>>12501
Could you please make tell more about Thailand and make some photos? (we have an IWO thread)
I want to travel there one day.

 No.12505 KONTRA

>>12504
>vaccinations cause transformations into other species

 No.12507 KONTRA

>>12502
> In fact, the emergency messaging service has already sent out warnings for black ice yesterday,
The leftist-green government abuses the emergency services for sending messages about weather (instead of real emergencies), because the city-dwelling greenvoters are too stupid for weather reports and are way too stupid to drive, if those losers can even afford cars.

 No.12508 KONTRA

>>12505
>the vaxx is going to make you immune infa 100%
>ok, you won't transmit anything
>ok, you'll transmit with reduced probability
>ok, but you will get less ill, if you get the booooooooooooster vaxx every 2 months
>ok, it does nothing at all, but still get the booooooooooooooooster
>and do not forget to drink your daily dose of soy-slop to add to the infertility and your gender transition!

 No.12509

>>12505
Mad because you were stupid enough to take the vaxx and got your fertility wrecked by the experimental gene therapy?
Don't worry, little greenvoting soycuck! You wouldn't have procreated, anyway, becuase contrary to what the leftist-green government propagates, men cannot become women and you do not get pregnant by taking nigger-dick up your ass, soy-homo!(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

 No.12511

>>12503
Not too much of a Bangkok pro I suppose, only stayed in Huai Khwang for 1-2 days some times to ease the burden of flight for the next stint of travel into Isaan by bus. All pre-covid, so dunno how things have changed either.

Just be sure to not shy away from any food carts and prefer restaurants with many locals if you really want to dive into their food.
If your body is used to the Asian region already, you should have no issues at all.
If you see or smell something you like, dig in!

Always great to have a local girl as your guide, taxis and such can be quiet a rip-off if they see a falang waving them over.
Same with the Tuk-Tuks, those are best to be avoided completely.

>>12504
I can post a few pictures once I'm back and sort through them, sure.

 No.12512 KONTRA

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Forecast for tomorrow is 15cm of snow and there's already too much of it. Wouldn't care otherwise, but I have to go out tomorrow. Maybe I should order picrel so that I can walk comfortably x---D

 No.12513

Cleared another foot from my driveway- not that I can go anywhere with a series of rolling driving bans. Did you know that when you throw light, fluffy snow with a snowblower even a slight wind will send it all right back into your face? I didn't.

Also: Snow Day! Work is closed.

St.ill getting paid


>>12512
>pic
Is that...an edge trimmer being used on snow?

 No.12514 KONTRA

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>>12513
How much longer is the snow situation forecasted to continue? Do you have enough food and necessities at home to survive? Also, based on the reflections on the icicles I will finally complete the geolocation. *ebul laff*

>Also: Snow Day! Work is closed.

>St.ill getting paid
EbiiiiIIIIiIiiIiIiiiiiiinnn

>Is that...an edge trimmer being used on snow?

With some googling, it's apparently called a
>Cordless Snow Shovel (https://uk.ryobitools.eu/garden-tools/snow-thrower/ry18st25a/)

This is the first winter I've seen them. Don't really understand why you'd need one. Maybe if you have a long and narrow walkway to your home? Not sure.

 No.12516

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>>12514
We're expecting more snow through tomorrow night. Well, we're expecting more snow for the next three months, but this storm should end Thursday. It's currently calm outside my window as the system has moved north, but in a couple of hours it will double back and dump a few more inches.
My sister- who is more practical than I am- stocked up on essentials before everything shut down. Full pantry and refrigerator.

>the reflections on the icicles

Oh no! My mailbox number!

>ryobitools

Same brand as my weed whacker. Also, same battery- which I was smart enough to bring indoors before this freeze.

 No.12517

My drunken existential serious discussions with my mom are turning into a chore. A charade. A routine.
I remind her that none of us are without sin.
She reminds me of how much of a bastard my father was, ruining all of our lives
.
I forgive him. She doesn't.

And so it goes.

 No.12518

>>12517
Smack her in the face and make her obey the man in the house, just like Mohammed taught you.

 No.12519

I flip-flop between nihilism and life-affirmation
Don't we all.

>>12518
Kill yourself whitoid beast.
No irony.

 No.12520

>>12519
Why are brownoids always so aggressive? Is it because they are closer to animals than humans?

 No.12521

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I will never entertain the opinion of a whitoid
no matter the circumstance
such cases

>>12520
kill yourself whitoid beast

 No.12522

>>12521
Yet you reply to me, therefore entertaining my opinion (and me). How curious.

 No.12523


 No.12524

>>12523
Awww, is the little thirdie mad? Ohhhh, you're a mad, mad thirdie, yes you are!

 No.12525


 No.12526

>>12525
What if I am, indeed, homosexual? Will you try to stone me?

 No.12527


 No.12528 KONTRA

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fag

it's dialectics

fag

you would`n't get it

 No.12529

>>12528
I didn't even reply in the meantime. Are you a bot?
I mean, brick vanishes, suddenly comes back unlike the brick we know.
Brick realizes he has a reputation to lose, uses a bot to make brickposts, but bot was trained on 4chan.
Barely any such cases, but sad nonetheless!

 No.12530

fingas

 No.12531

snooPINGAAS usua; I see

 No.12532

dialetics pingas snooping as usual I see sonic `-1 BOMNUs video sonic mania reclaim traditioonn lol
RAP soundtrack rap LOL
sonic armss tan or blue???/

 No.12533

Snooping as usual I see

 No.12534

Fag

 No.12535

Drunk brick over schizo und unfunny whyteoid Germans any time.

 No.12536

Выпьем что лм по одной

 No.12537 KONTRA

>>12535
>LOOK AT ME I AM THE SELF-HATING GERMAN! I HAVE TO ANNOUNCE THAT AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY! AM I NOW COOL WITH THE FOREIGNERS? SCHIZOOOOOOO SCHIZOOOOOO SCHIZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

Yeah, I take drunk brick over you anytime too.

 No.12538

Запою, замлею,
Обольюсь слезой.
Без вина хмелею,
Когда ты со мной.

От судьбы-фортуны
Не уйдешь, смеясь,
Только трону струны,
Будешь ты моя.

Один раз на свете жить,
Один раз скончаться,
Поцелуй меня, не горюй,
Зачем нам венчаться?

Кони укатили,
Улетели вдаль,
Я сижу в трактире,
На душе печаль.

Эй, краса-девица,
Погоди-простой,
Дай мне похмелиться,
И я буду твой.

Запою, замлею,
Обольюсь слезой.
Без вина хмелею,
Когда ты со мной.

Запою, замлею,
Будешь ты моею!
Выпьем, что ли,
По одной.

Ой, вы кони-кони,
Кони-соколы,
Ой, вы далеко ль,
Ой, далёко ли...

Ой, вы кони-кони,
Близко ль,
Далеко ли...
Выпьем, что ли,
По одной.

 No.12539

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>>12537
It's so easy, kek.

 No.12540 KONTRA

>>12539
>only pretending to be retarded
Remember, shithead: Ironic shitposting is still shitposting and you making this board worse by being alive is helping nobody.

 No.12541 KONTRA

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>>12540
I'm wondering if you are talking to yourself?

>>12526
>>12524
>>12522
>>12520
>>12518

 No.12542 KONTRA

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>>12540
Also, I'm raising the board quality. Doing the lords work because other Germans are not willing to.

 No.12543 KONTRA

im this cat 283.mp4 (1.9 MB, 466x360)

bousting to ebics
bousting to ebics
bousting to ebics

>>12516
Alright, the worst should be over then. And Dog bless your sister.

 No.12544 KONTRA

Whoever is a German on EC must have that iron in him. Or give it up. This is not a game of cards. This is your board and mine. I spent a whole lifetime cultivating this. And as long as I'm alive nobody is gonna knock it down. Even if you are gonna lower me to the grave and I feel something is going wrong I post (up). Good German posters are not just those who kiss babies and criticize others. It means at the end taking very tough, unpleasant and very unpopular decision and still smiling and still explaining.

 No.12545

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>>12543
>pic

I was about to watch an 18-part series by some stamp collector on the postal system just now. Every media studies student is obliged to do this one in their life.

 No.12546

Hung laundry. Trashed a damaged pair of socks and a worn bedsheet. Worked. Bought a pair of socks and a bedsheet. Bought fresh batteries for the smoke detector. Placed sale order to clean up depot. Transfered money from the checking account to the day-to-day account. Checked both bicycle tubes for punctures, found that one was bad near the valve, replaced it. Cleaned the white walls of the white wall tires. Did the dishes. Did exercises on Duolingo.

Why doesn't this shit app have a grammar section? Can anyone recommend something better?

 No.12547 KONTRA

I need new glasses, my current glasses have settis from 2019 and today and yesterday people have winked from far away and I just could not see who it was unless I walked closer than 5m (which I did in both cases).

 No.12548 KONTRA

>>12547
waved*

My brain was very German it seems.

 No.12549 KONTRA

I woke up, had breakfast, and then I immediately started shivering and went back to bed for like 5 hours. I had a bunch of odd dreams and then woke up.
I paid a 50% toll on my package. At least I'll have it in a few days I guess.

I wrote a German test. It went terribly, but thankfully it won't impact my grade. It'll just show that I haven't honed my skills in the language for a month and that I didn't do the recommended exercises before taking it.
Talked a bit about the lecturer and he asked about my future plans and I told him that I'm considering a potential civil service stunt and he looked a bit disappointed.
I guess I kind of understand it because it's a "political" job and also because we discussed before how universities are "bleeding talent". There's no end to the number of stories I hear where it goes "He was a promising scholar with great output. He then decided to make a lot of money and left to work for the government/corporations".
I guess my dream job is something not too stressful where I can learn stuff alongside it.

Strangely enough my foot stopped hurting on the way home. Well, not entirely, I could still feel something was off, but it wasn't painful to put my entire weight on it and to walk jovially. Then when I took my boots off it started hurting again.
I also probably overdid an exercise because my neck also feels fucked up. But I'm gonna continue regardless.

Anyway, I feel like my inner peace has been shattered. I hope I can reclaim it tomorrow. Woe is me. I'm in despair yet again!
Kinda feel like going out for lunch. Now that I think about it, I actually skipped lunch today.

 No.12550 KONTRA

>>12549
Reclaim immer piece by Meditation.

 No.12554

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 No.12555

>>12511
After watching some AGDQ '24, I've had this weird thought, that amürika might become the new thailand in one or two generations time. Lots of white ladybois. We just need to wait for russian Psyops and chinese propaganda to burst the dollar bubble and easterners and europeans can fly there for a cheap fuck. You prolly prefer asian ladybois, though.

btw: why is racism, if it is positive and sexual, tolerated? related media is even conveniently sorted (with quite a few more tags outside of race)
don't get me wrong; me like. I'm just wondering about the logical consistency here.

>>12546
> bicycle tubes [...] replaced it
did you replace the whole tube instead of repairing?
Germany has fallen; the shizo was right all along.

>>12499
> I have to take an examination in German to see how my C1 training is progressing.
You lurkin on german boards to improve your broken german? What is the highest one can get? C2 or something? (Most G*rmans would never pass a "native level" test. they are just given that status based on birth right.)

 No.12556

>>12546
>Why doesn't this shit app have a grammar section?
It used to have couple of years ago. Back then it was usable: reasonable number of lessons, each of them with grammar section.
Then they removed the grammar and artificially prolonged program by increasing number of lessons without increasing topics covered. Then they did the same once again.
Duolingo is still usable, but as supplementary material, you work with textbook as primary source and sometimes jump though eternal lessons (you can skip them if you pass a test on the module).

> Can anyone recommend something better?

No(((

 No.12558

>>12142
That's western man. I just like how this picture looks without context.

But actually that's Ray Blanchard and his theory (picrel). Thanks Ifunny Brazil for the image.

 No.12560

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>>12511
I see, thx. Any tips for other places to visit asides from Bangkok then? Looks like I'm gonna stay for almost three weeks in Thailand. Probably one week in Bangkok, then mb 1-2 other places, then go back to Bangkok Chinatown for Chinese New Year haha.

 No.12562

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2024 Power Couple. What is your power couple of 2024, Ernst?

 No.12563

>>12562
What's a power couple?

 No.12564 KONTRA

>>12563
It's something only terminally online imbeciles care about.
Don't ask, don't tell, don't reply, hide and report.

 No.12567 KONTRA


 No.12568

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 No.12569

>>12555
>did you replace the whole tube instead of repairing?
7 year old tube with two patches, vulcanization between the tube and the valve stem is giving? Yes, I replaced that, and I'd do it again.

>>12556
>Then they removed the grammar
Great, they tried teaching languages, then they decided to just give people a few sentences to learn by heart. On the other hand: grammar is dumb! AMERICAN has NO grammar and it's #1!'

 No.12570

>>12568
Somebody with contextual awareness. Wonder what they are up to in 2024?

 No.12571 KONTRA

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Went and cleared the snow at my parents'. It snowed like crazy today, so I pretty much had to start all over again after finishing the entire area.

Received and set up an air purifier / air quality monitor to my smart home setup. Apparently the air quality already is excellent. Going to have to keep an eye on it if cooking, cleaning, etc changes the quality. Or see how it reacts to abuse by Germanic methods.

 No.12572

>>12571
>smart home
ewwwwwwwwwwww

 No.12573

>>12571
> so I pretty much had to start all over again after finishing the entire area

Will you use a weather forecast next time and estimate how much sense it makes to clear snow?

 No.12575

Lazed around in the morning. I decided to go out for lunch so I walked to to the local McDonald's. Old guy working there was remarkably joyful, called the food "American delicacies".
I was in a very good mood on my way home and I wrote like a page worth of text in my head and like two-three presentation slides simply by just recalling facts from the primary sources I translated and the secondary literature I read. I could basically see the book open in front of myself.

My foot's feeling pretty normal. Like I feel something's up, but I had no trouble walking about. So I guess that's taking care of itself.

Got stuck on a bossfight because I managed to create a team completely unsuited for the special conditions. I tried twice, and on each attempt I ran out of time. Can't remember the last time I got mad at a video game. But honestly I'm just happy that I actually like it enough to get frustrated over not being able to progress.
I figured out a potential road to victory and I'm going to attempt carrying out that battleplan tomorrow, but I don't want to stay up too late into the night.

Still committed to my exercise regimen. Just like last time, I stopped feeling too pumped up by a single coffee.
And fuck me, I didn't even noticed there was a cold front passing over the country.
Magnificient.

Therapists' office wrote back and currently they cannot offer me a consultation session. They will have openings at the end of February and I should apply then. Well, I'll keep carrying on then. Will probably still throw them an e-mail in February.

 No.12577

>>12573
> internet of things, smart home
> what is weather forecast?

 No.12578 KONTRA

IoT is so 2010s. Does your fridge have Chatgpt?

 No.12579 KONTRA

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Who knew that crows have higher IQ than G*rmans. Even they understand the concepts of volume and weight. Boggles the mind.

>>12578
No. But that's a strange post coming from someone who uses an alarm clock and a MP3 player.

 No.12581 KONTRA

>>12579
I am a Man of contradictions. My technological laggardism is an expression of my romantic soul wishing to go back to an idealised past it never got to firsthand experience.

I also wear a watch and keep my to-do lists on postit notes I crumple up into balls and then toss in the trashcan.
Anyway, I was just trying to make a joke about current tech-trends.

 No.12586

>>12579
>who uses an alarm clock and a MP3 player.
Are you implying those are ancient technology?

 No.12587 KONTRA

>>12586
> Look at me I spent the last 2.5 decades under a rock
Zoomer : Mp3-player = Millennial : record player

 No.12588 KONTRA

>>12586
In the context of the hyper-multitasking smartphone they are.
Unitasking devices are seen as reduntant.

 No.12589

>>12588
But my alarm clock also shows the time, date and temperature.
And my MP3 players always doubled as regular USB sticks.

 No.12590 KONTRA

>>12589
> Grandpa tells stories from the war
Cringeworthy.

> Mp3 player

It's for people who still listen to pirated MP3s from 2002 with 96kbit. Ever heard of streaming?
All it takes is having neighbors who are citizens of the German empire or grow weed, and the police will accidentally on purpose raid your home, take all of your equipment and have it checked. When they find your MP3-player with the pirated copies, they'll prosecute you for that, if they can't find anything else, and you'll have to pay thousands in fines on top of your damages.

> USB stick

> Transferring files using a drive
Ever heard of cloud services?

>Alarm clock

Have you heard of smart phones?

> Temperature

Just install a weather app.

You are unironically the reason why Shitmany is so feeding in technology

 No.12591

>>12589
Is it only dawning on you now that you are getting older and this is all old technology? USB sticks? MP3 players? C'mon, man.

 No.12592

>mfw this thread

 No.12593 KONTRA

I have a job at a company that does ... stuff. Small German companies run by boomers always demand delivery on an USB-stick, preferably in person. If we don't offer this on our own initiative, they feel like we are trying to cheat them/acting unprofessional/etc. (last year, we even got an urgent order by fax. Like anyone even checks the fax machine ...)

 No.12594

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A dedicated mp3 player is 1/5 the size and weight of a cell phone. Better for running. Also, I like being out of contact.
I don't have time to shop this, but you get the idea. #mp3Gang

 No.12595

>>12589
I'm with you, don't listen to the haters. I also have an old ipod that I keep repaired instead of replacing it and until some time recently I was also wearing a wrist watch.
Since that watch broke I just live without knowing the time when I leave the house, it's not really much of a problem tbh.

 No.12596

>>12595
It's nice to not always having to dig into the pocket to get the phone out, but I can't stand wristbands, which is why I stopped wearing watches in my early 20s. Should I ever be able to get back to that, I would definitely want to get a nice watch.

 No.12597

>>12596
>It's nice to not always having to dig into the pocket to get the phone out

Ah yes, I guess I should have mentioned that I don't have a phone :-DDD

 No.12598

>>12597
Even better. I only have one because everyone I know lives half the country away and I actually gave in to my parents' peer pressure.

 No.12599

I'm a man of the middle. I have a mediocre smartphone with mp3 downloads from Youtube. I just cannot warm up to the idea of Spotify even though nearly everyone I know uses it. I stick to youtube and playlists for almost 15 years now.

Also, do the Ernsts with no phone have more than one friend whose door they spontaneously ring? How does one keep on contact with people when you have no phone and probably also no social media? I don't have social media TikTok is not very social even though they trying to make it so either but a phone with a messenger app (or several) is necessary to keep contacts, send links etc.

 No.12600 KONTRA

>>12599
Tiktok is social media. It's the worst medium, on the same tier as watching YT Shorts, Instagram stories or any other myriad of swipe up to see the next 20 seconds type of platform. Horrible, I think it slowly removes your soul from your body.

 No.12601 KONTRA

>>12599
>mp3 downloads from YouTube
Stream ripping is illegal, you know that, right?
https://www.heise.de/news/Nach-Hamburger-Urteil-Uberspace-nimmt-Youtube-DL-Seite-aus-dem-Web-9242594.html

 No.12602

>>12600
>it slowly removes your soul from your body.

Yes, that is sadly true.

>TT is social media


Well in terms of content generation it is. But unlike FB or Instagram it was not about an obvious social graph that users were to lay bare. But they changed this a while ago by asking me if I know this person they check my contacts though I think I never allowed that

 No.12603

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>>12601
What seems "illegal" here is offering the software means to do so (in Germany).

 No.12604 KONTRA

>>12603
>das
You know, it would be easy to make a racist joke here, but since this is apparently from some social media "app", any other ethnicity would have most likely written the same.
For the foreigners among you: dass/das is about the same kind of mistake as your/you're

 No.12605 KONTRA

>>12604
Do you have friends?

 No.12606 KONTRA

>>12605
Yes, real life ones, but what does it have to do with this?

 No.12607

>>12606
Color me surprised.

 No.12608 KONTRA

>>12606
>real life
So you meet them in the Sachsenklause in Hinterschweinsfelde every weekend?

 No.12609 KONTRA

>>12608
Damn, almost half an hour for the first nazi reference, I am disappoint. Hopefully your numerous POC friends won't learn of this.

 No.12610 KONTRA

>>12609
> Nazi-Reference
So they are nazi-ossis and you're a nazi-ossi? Because you said that, not I. Hail Höcke, I guess.

 No.12611 KONTRA

>>12610
>Because you said that,
Said what?

 No.12612 KONTRA

>>12611
That you're a nazi.

 No.12615 KONTRA

>Germans

I'd lose my phone if I didn't need it for work. Source of neuroticism.

 No.12616 KONTRA

>>12612
Where?

 No.12617

>>12616
>>12609

You said >>12608 is a Nazi reference. For it to be one, you have to be a Nazi with Nazi friends. But you don't even deny being a Nazi, you deny having said you are a Nazi.

Typical
>I'm not a Nazi but behaviour

 No.12618 KONTRA

>>12617
>. For it to be one, you have to be a Nazi with Nazi friends.
No? What the actual FUCK are you talking about? Is this some tiktok retard trolling I am not low IQ enough for? Or did you not understand what "nazi reference" is supposed to mean?
Maybe it was indeed my mistake and I mistranslated "Nazivergleich".
Or let me ask differently: Were you NOT alluding to the Didi Hallervorden skit with the nazi pub in Schweinewalde?

 No.12619 KONTRA

>>12618
>Is this some tiktok retard trolling I am not low IQ enough for?

Brian "the Brain" Brainiac has spoken, lol.
But be assured you are talking to different people.

 No.12620 KONTRA

>>12618
>Didi Hallervorden
I googled that. According to Wikipedia, he was popular in seventies. I'll admit that I'm past thirty, but I'd have to be nearly twice as old to have consciously watched TV in the seventies.

 No.12621

Those imdb trivia and connections are something else sometimes....
>"Dracula" means "Son of the Dragon," and Dracula himself can transform into a dog or wolf, and a bat. Gary Oldman later appeared in Batman, as well as the Harry Potter films. The latter feature a werewolf (Remus Lupin), dragons, Oldman transforming into a dog, and a character named Draco who is in fact a distant cousin of Oldman's character.

 No.12622 KONTRA

>>12620
The German might tell you that is of cultural importance for every German to know this person or something. Maybe he got it infused by parents or grandparents or is just indeed one of these younger people who also like to watch Loriot while not being born when he was making his way.

 No.12624

>>12622
Loriot is legit funny though.

t. discovered him on my own without his stuff ever being a topic in my family

 No.12625 KONTRA

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>>12624
>Loriot is legit funny though.

 No.12626

I went out to buy groceries today. It was snowing, but my craving for something salty got the better of me.
Ended up finally buying that bag of crisps I've been meaning for days now, only to realise halfway in that I don't actually want to eat this much.
They installed new software on the self-checkout machines. So now each time you scan an item, it asks you "Is this what you scanned? Press okay!" and you can't progress without pressing okay. But you cannot actually press okay, because it's store policy that only a clerk can press it.
Seems like the kind of policy that happens when dipshit software design, overeager managers and gypsies happen to meet. There's one clerk for five machines, and if all of them have have people trying to scan stuff, it's like a clogged artery.

My books from China arrived. They are what I expected. Though I gotta confess that I maybe regret making an extra impulse buy and getting a third book. But I got hyped up.
The main attraction is probably the volume I got for my research, which is an annotated edition of Chao Cuo's essays. I'll post some photos in the ECOST thread because it's a bit quirky imho.

I spent some time checking out the books and stuff, seeing how I would use them. Just taking in the characteristics of Chinese books. It's always interesting to see how different books can be from different countries.

Played some more Persona and managed to get through the boss I got stuck on yesterday. I managed to make a strategy almost entirely on my own after getting a slight hint on which direction to progress, though I think my solution wasn't what they had in mind when they said it. I guess the challenge made me understand the mechanics a bit better.
I'm satisfied with my "revenge" so to speak.

Tomorrow I'm spending time with my mother. We are going to see Napoleon and have lunch.
My only other plans are to translate some more and to pick up a package. And maybe play some more games.

 No.12628 KONTRA

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>My technological laggardism is an expression of my romantic soul wishing to go back to an idealised past it never got to firsthand experience.
>Uses self-checkout in grocery stores
smh fam

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>>12628
It's another piece of evidence for dialectics. Hand me over your belongings.

 No.12644

Tried 0% beer. RIP my masculinity.
For some reason I expected that it tastes like usual beer. I was wrong. Moreover, if vegan burger was close enough and tasty anyway, this is plainly awful and smells with hobo (like vietnamese "tea soup" does).

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>>12644
> He drank the horse piss
> He ate the goyslop

 No.12646

>>12645
> He drank the horse piss
Actually, I ate horse meat as a snack. Great as usual even though very dry this particular time.
Rabbit meat was fine, but not much.

> ad6.jpeg

This is how I look like

 No.12647 KONTRA

>>12646
You know, it's boring when you don't say
> no you

 No.12648

Tried https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sbiten (apple juice, honey and spices). It's shame I haven't drunk it for several years.. YUMMY!

Now I need to try https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Medovukha , basically brewed honey.

 No.12649

>>12648
> Medovkha
If it's similar to mead, it will taste sweet, maybe a little bit yeasty. I'm not impressed, but since people like it.

 No.12653

Today I read a bit and picked up a package.
Turns out there's an official Japanese textbook for high school use, and since textbooks are government subsidised I just ordered a copy from the central textbook distributor for a few bucks out of sheer curiosity. Upon inspection of the textbook, I have concluded that no, randomly opening it and looking at a script I only partially understand does not seem to be a good way to gain a better understanding of it and I do not speak Japanese.

I continued fiddling with the Chao Cuo book too, mostly just checking my own translation to see if in any places I have fucked up a proper noun or not. Also it feels like it's remarkable how much better I've gotten at reading modern Chinese. I can actually make stuff out instead of feeling utterly stumped by it.
Like I open a novel at random and understand 80% of a paragraph at times.
So I guess the next step would be to go haywire and start climbing the HSK vocabulary list instead of fucking around with the university wordlist. I will be so competent. Things will be so great.

We decided against seeing a movie, instead we went clothes shopping. I got two new pants, a white shirt and two new sweaters to replace some of my current ones that are getting a tad-bit worn.
Honestly I'm very satisfied. The shirt and the sweaters with the new pants would make a sick conference presentation outfit, so I'm going to wear it on the 30th when I deliver my research results to the head of the workshop.

>>12648
Mead is definitely on my bucket list as a drink.

 No.12655

>>12560
>stuck for 3 weeks in Thailand
>stuck
>STUCK
Oi mate, u 'avin' a giggle ovah there?
I wish I'd be back in my home country already.

So much to do, so much to see roll Smash Mouth - All Star spend a week in Bangkok and scour the tourist attractions during the day and the bars along Sukhumvit Rd. during the night.
There's a huge flea market at which you can find all kind of old tech like cameras or video games, don't remember where or how it's called tho.
So many markets and long forgotten stores to be found there, visited a book store that had heaps of piles of old magazines, journals and whatnot, you could spend an entire day looking for personal treasure inside that single shop alone if you're into books and magazines.

Also check out all those foreign fruits they have everywhere at markets, so many unknown tastes yet to discover!
My favorites are "gnaws" or rambutan, they look like hairy lychees and are cheaper then those for some reason, yet lack the slightly bitter/sour note of lychees.
Or just feast on ripe mangos at 40 Baht per Kilo, 5 Euros for a single one in Austria lol.
Don't forget to bring a knive for your hotel room for fruit prep.
Bangkok should also have "khao lam", sticky rice broiled in bamboo tubes with coconut milk, sugar and red beans, you wouldn't believe how tasty those are.
Just look for food carts/markets with a lot of bamboo tubes and ask if there's sweet sticky rice inside, that's the stuff.

Then change location to Pattaya for a week and redo the same thing, take the ferry to Kho Larn for 40 baht, take a hotel there for a 1-2 days, back on the mainland Pattaya take a hotel there and enjoy the amenities of cheap booze, cheap girls and a nightlife that you can't imagine anymore in Europe.
Take a local girl to check out high class eateries so god damn cheap for us Euros like The Oxygen or The Sky Gallery along Jomtien beach, easily reached by taxi or that Bolt app which your companion surely will have.
If you're in for a total local experience, ask your girl to go to the Isaan disco "Sleep in Isaan" with you and see how her eyes will light up in pure joy.
You can enjoy a great view at night on the rooftop bar of the Hilton hotel, the cocktails aren't too expensive and you just have to take 2 elevators up, for which you don't need to be a guest of the hotel.
Weed is also legal now, so there's a ton of coffee shops and edible stores, not too much into it myself anymore tho, so can't suggest anything.

If you're really adventurous, you can take a speed boat from Pattaya to Hua Hin on the other side of the shore, stay there for a few days and take another approach back to Bangkok from there.

Taxi from Bangkok to Patts is about 1600 Baht atm, prolly same back from the Hua Hin direction.
Domestic flights are also very cheap, you can get a plane to Khon Kaen or Chang Mai for sub-2000 Baht and be there within 1 hour of flight.
Never been in Chiang Mai yet, but it's touristy enough that you shouldn't have issues alone.
But believe me, there's enough already within taxi distance of Bangkok.

Getting along with locals, expats or other tourists is also very easy, socially retarded Ernst has actually something like friends over there.
Just be sure to always check your hotel if it's "guest friendly", so you can bring girls with you.
Higher end hotels like the Hilton or Hardrock Cafe will take a couple of hundred Bahts "joiners fee", just because snob reasons.
The reception will take her ID card for safety, which is highly advised to comply for your own safety, but never had any issues tbh.

God I wish I could live in SEA already, just a few more years.

 No.12656

Yesterday I did a hearing test (generated sound with Audacity).
I have high-quality monitors that supposedly go up to 35 kHz, so any human-detectable frequency should be audible.
The result was that I can hear 40 Hz on the lower end (which I think is indeed the lower end of the speaker) and up to 17 kHz on the upper end (normally the upper end of humans in general is supposed to be around 20 kHz), which I found rather remarkable because I am in my mid-30s and used to listen to loud music back in the day, with concert visits that impaired hearing for days after, yet I never developed tinnitus (at least not that I am aware of) either.
Then I read that some children can hear over 20 kHz and was wondering what the frequency of those old electric appliances was, because I can distinctly remember hearing a high-pitched noise from tube TVs when they still existed; in fact I could hear when my mom had the TV on downstairs without hearing the actual sound.
Then I made the test with my flatmate who topped out at something slightly over 13,5 kHz, which is apparently in the normal for people in their mid-30s.

Has Ernst ever had an actual hearing test, or tried it out something like that?

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>>12656
>Has Ernst ever had an actual hearing test, or tried it out something like that

10 years ago I did try this with the sine wave of Ableton with monitors that claim to go up to 50khz which does not make sense really but alas they are good studio monitors nonetheless, around 17khz as well. Today? Dunno, early 30s here with same settis, loud music. I purchased bluetooth in ears lately and wondering if I will fuck my earing ability again after such a long absence of headphones because I listen to music quite loud on them when I dance now.

The low hz should be perceptible in the body as well. I remember a party at a venue we went after the club closed and the bass there was so intense that you could feel it in the chest and on your tongue the closer you got to the monitors

 No.12658

Mead is very tasty. I can't tell whether I'm drinking Scandinavian or Slavic version because zoomer label says "MEAD" (in Latin) and small text on back side says "medovukha".

Dried deer meat -- weird, but cool as a snack with for mead.
Horse meat -- great as usual.

 No.12659

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I've been placing bets with the sportsbook DraftKings. They offered insane incentives to sign up. Deposit and wager $5 to receive $200 in bonus bets (house money which can be placed on any sport, but you only receive the winnings and not the original wager back). I put the five real dollars on a sure thing (Bills moneyline over Steelers, won). The $200 is now $70 in winnings with two open bets on the Detroit/Tampa Divisional round playoff game. I can't lose on that one, as I have both sides covered (free money so why not?). Best outcome would be in Detroit wins, but Tampa covers my +7.5-point spread.

Bottom line: I'll walk away with at least $100 of their money. Maybe more, as they just dropped another promotion: make a deposit and they will match it 50% in DK dollars. Money I have to wager before it can be withdrawn, but I will receive any winnings back- so better than bonus bets. Just added $200 to the account and have another free $100 to play with. Will put that on something with low odds, or maybe cover both sides of next week's games. I could also place $25 on each remaining team to win the Superbowl and walk away with a risk free $50.

 No.12660 KONTRA

>>12659
I think these sign up discounts are just a way to set the seeds of a gambling addiction. Ultimately it's okay, or even good, if you start off winning. Beware, gambling is the devil.

 No.12661 KONTRA

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>>12659
What Ernesto said, but you will lose if you keep it up. Take the free money and run.

>DK dollars

Thought of picrel :D

 No.12662 KONTRA

>>12659
And in two weeks:
> Just one more bet
> until I have regained my losses
Then, the Bogdanoff-brothers come in.

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>>12660
>>12661
>>12662
I have some experience with gambling, having been to both Las Vegas and Atlantic City (Vegas is better, AC is seedy). Yeah, I definitely have the personality to get addicted to this. Everyone in my family is an addict of one kind or another. Knowing that, I've kept one rule on gambling - only do it in those cities. Also, knowing I never travel, it is essentially a total personal ban. Until now. Don't worry, though. I'll walk away once it's my money on the line. I hate to lose money far more than I enjoy winning it.

Additional info: I'm still in a money market fund rather than the stock market because even index ETFs carry more risk than I am comfortable with.

 No.12664 KONTRA

>>12663
I can only add what all the other Ernsts said about (online) gambling. The incentives are not by accident so great and thanks to being online, the technicalities of addiction are a better tweakable than say in Las Vegas. Not sure which one has the better data of gambling populations to statistically tweak behavior more effectively but it probably is the online institution is my guess. They might reach out to you (again) in different ways than a LV casino is able to do for example as well.

Online gambling has become a crazy profitable market (mainly targeting poorer people) and they are out for you and your neurons, Ernst.

 No.12665

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>>12664
>they are out for you and your neurons, Ernst.
True. I receive daily offers for no sweat bets (if your wager loses, you receive a credit to try again) and profit boosts where any winnings are multiplied by x amount. There are buttons on the app for trending bets, too. Like social media, the goal is to keep the user (me) engaged.

 No.12667

>>12664
>mainly targeting poorer people
Who else would it target, genius? Rich people gamble at the stock market.

 No.12668 KONTRA

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>>12663
>... having been to both Las Vegas and Atlantic City (Vegas is better, AC is seedy).
>Knowing that, I've kept one rule on gambling - only do it in those cities.
Good, good...
>Also, knowing I never travel, it is essentially a total personal ban. Until now.
Noooo!
T. Vici Properties investor

Looked at some sports betting stats. Scary.

 No.12669 KONTRA

>>12667
I don't think anyone would be able to say anything more German about money, even if they tried.

 No.12672 KONTRA

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I wanted a make a simple GUI application but figuring out how the layout API works makes me want to blow my brains out. Great Sunday fun.

FUCK!!!

 No.12673 KONTRA

>>12672
We all have been at this place. Solution: don't do guis.

 No.12676

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>>12659
>Best outcome would be in Detroit wins, but Tampa covers my +7.5-point spread.
Tampa lost by 8. They would have lost by 7- and covered- if they had kicked a PAT on their final touchdown. Coach decided to go for a 2-point conversion. It failed. Damm.

>>12668
>Looked at some sports betting stats. Scary.
Which stats?

 No.12682 KONTRA

>>12676
https://oddsassist.com/sports-betting/resources/sports-betting-statistics/
https://oddsassist.com/research/sports-betting-inflation-espn-study/
>When factoring in those that haven't used a credit card to deposit, we found that 28.9% of all sports bettors have gone into credit card debt as a result of sports betting.
>87% of bettors place wagers weekly
>Weekly bets: average: 10, median: 4
>The average betting unit is $172 while the median is $50
>Sports bettors 3 times more likely to develop gambling addiction than other gamblers
And:
>83% of sports bettors are white.

Very problematic. Anyways, the source is what it is. Still scared me plenty enough.

While not specifically on sports betting, these are interesting as well.
https://www.ncpgsurvey.org/2018-national-trends/
https://www.ncpgsurvey.org/2021-national-trends/

 No.12683 KONTRA

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>>12673
>Solution: don't do guis.
Good principle, but not a solution. The actual solution was to ask chatgpt to do it. Autistically describing the layout got me exactly what I wanted. Huh.

 No.12684 KONTRA

I wrote a big blog post about my mental settis but it's a near exact copy of what I've written in years past, essentially tl;dr mental illness

 No.12685

Two weeks until the year of the Dragon, very excited.

 No.12686 KONTRA


 No.12687

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>>12682
>vid
>I've been very lucky in gambling, I never won.
That's my problem, I've always won. Not big though, since I never bet big. I also share Norm's confusion at the craps table. I had no idea what was going on and just kept walking.

I wagered the last of my sportsbook's house money. The promotional Donkey Kong dollars I have to play through once prior to withdrawal. Took every possible outcome for Sunday's NFL Conference championships. Got a little tricky with it and created 4 parlays. 49ers win + Baltimore wins, 49ers win + KC wins, etc. Also used alternate spreads to give both underdogs a +10.5-point cushion. At a minimum, one of my four bets has to hit. It is also possible for all of them to payout. Minimum free money for me: $42.19, maximum $203.49.

And then I'm out. I really have spent too much time on this already.

 No.12688

I had a very hard time waking up because I stayed up late just writing down my thoughts to friends about things like width vs depth and how I was thinking about branching out to read more things outside of Sinology again.

I helped my father move some furniture today. It wasn't very hard.

Bought some stuff for baking. The seminar we're having tomorrow will be very long, so we agreed to bring some snacks and and tea to lighten the mood.

My bag got fixed finally. Two buttons broke on the front. I was a bit scared how it'd turn out, considering I didn't have it taken to a proper master leatherworker, but rather, a shoemaker. (Because my mother has connections through her company so it's basically a free repairwork.)
But it looks basically brand new. I was a bit stressed that the repair might turn out to be botched. I think I wrote about this before, but when I bought this thing I thought of it as a 10-15 year investment, so I'm very happy that it still has a chance of serving me for that long both with its aesthetics and it's utility.

Also the book I ordered last year finally arrived. It's a copy of Chris Fraser's translation of the Mozi. Supposedly it's very good because he developed a new terminology for his translation, making the understanding of the text more thorough.

I guess things still progressed, even if I wasn't really feeling doing anything.

>>12682
It's terrible that I don't get either Larry King's style or Norm's comedy.
I laugh at some of his jokes, but I just don't see the fun in most of the clips people link of him.

>>12685
It will be my year. Very nice.

 No.12691

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>>12687
Only gambled once in my life, where I had three 10€-vouchers for a well known gambling web portal. I assumed it wasn't free money, but I wanted to check out how they do it. I thought I could simply exchange the vouchers and then transfer the money to my bank account, but of course that doesn't work, they prepare against such things and wouldn't give out vouchers in first place if that was easily possible. First, you had to add the vouchers' worth from your own money in order to activate them, so you had to pay an extra 10 to activate a 10€ voucher, to have 20 in the end. Also you couldn't withdraw anything unless you bet the money once. I can't remember why I didn't just put the whole money on a "safe" bet, like a Bayern Munich home game where they are already in the lead or something. So I made little bets and lost fucking everything, until I was down from 60 to 10. Then I was sick of it, put the whole money on an unlikely bet (Bayern losing against my shitty home club), and it happened. Then I was almost back at 60, took all the money and left.

Interesting experience, but wouldn't do again.

 No.12692 KONTRA

>>12684
Weren't you the one person to say bouncing off ideas to others is good? Then again following your own advice is not the best to do on EC where people in most have mental problems you wouldn't visit EC otherwise. Then again self-help groups can actually be good and talking to "normal" or "stable" people with no mental illness wouldn't help either because they might have no concept and nothing to teach but simply are lucky in that regard.

Whatevs, I usually talk to (digital) paper about most issues these days since there is repetition I try to change behavior though. Yesterday was a day I felt mostly down.

 No.12693

>>12688
>writing down my thoughts to friends about things like width vs depth

Ah, the humanities :DDD

 No.12694 KONTRA

>>12692
It's alright, I know what to do and I understand the psychological processes through which my mental problems manifest.
t. self-aware retard

 No.12695

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Do women accessorize with earings more often lately or is it just that I'm only going crazy over them for the last months and never noticed before? They really elevate.


>>12694
The phrase of all phrases a lone wolf would use :DDDD

 No.12696

The desire to exchange healthcare for soviet identity intensifies.

 No.12697

>>12696
This guy looks exactly like the one or other old guy who became a karate black belt in the 70s. You know what I'm talking about.

 No.12698

>>12697
The music is the soundtrack from some movie set in Kasachstan. A movie where some people need to have money and some people sit on pipes.

So maybe you are talking about a person with a Korean last name?

 No.12699

>>12698
>So maybe you are talking about a person with a Korean last name?
Huh? No, I mean the kind of person who did karate in the 70s. Everyone has met someone like that.

 No.12700

>>12699
I watched Karate Kid in the late 1990s. Closest I can get to your claim.

 No.12701

>>12699
I think he looks a little bit like Victor Tsoi and the music sounds like Kino, that's all. I was pretty certain it was a Kino, but now, I'm not so sure anymore.

 No.12702


 No.12703 KONTRA

Today I baked some sausage pastries and attended a workshop seminar. I was completely busted by the end. Lots of snacks but we spent 5 hours listening to presentations and I felt like falling asleep by the end.

Read like half of a pamphlet on Vaporwave.
Didn't feel like playing video games after coming home.

Talked with friends about the White-horse-dialogue for a bit. I re-translated some parts for them into Hungarian.
We're having another get together soon IRL. I think I will go and have only one drink. I want to save on money.

>>12693
I feel like I have regained my ability to reflect on myself on a greater scale. I'm honestly feeling a lot more positive and I'm producing enormous amounts of thoughts and messages related to topics and how they relate to me and my experiences. I have been re-centered.

 No.12704 KONTRA

>>12703
>I'm honestly feeling a lot more positive and I'm producing enormous amounts of thoughts and messages related to topics and how they relate to me and my experience
Mania?

 No.12705

>>12702
Oh, thanks.

 No.12706 KONTRA

>>12704
Could simply be coming from down phase that everybody has. I think especially when it comes to academia you have these streaks of being down and without any substantial thought and then it flows again. Maybe it is because he could overcome himself and ask for therapy. These things that are out of the ordinary daily haggle make your energy levels go up.

 No.12707

Me, an hour ago: I'm tired and going to bed.

One hour researching the tax implications of money market dividend distributions later: I am really tired and definitely going to bed.

 No.12711

To oppose the stigmatization, pride flag should include a patch for folks with STDs.

 No.12713 KONTRA

>>12711
Since when is a medical condition a sexual orientation?

 No.12714

>>12713
Ignoring the problematic post above, the pride flag is no longer exclusive to sexual orientation - it also features racial identity.

 No.12717 KONTRA

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I've dialed to different customer supports recently and I'm honestly disturbed by some of the experiences. I don't know how it is possible but it seems that people working a phone don't know the basics of decent phone etiquette.

Here's how a call should start:
1. Receiver: [Company] [department] [person] speaking.
2. Caller: Hello, this is [person] calling.
3. R: Hello. How may I help you?
4. C: [Initiate discussions]
...

Steps 1-3 are crucial, serving essentially as a human equivalent of a three way handshake. The line must be established to be working in both directions before getting to the subject matter of the call. The steps ensure that both people on the line can hear each other and be heard. But for whatever reason multiple customer support agents leave the third step out of the call. What the fuck?! It makes no sense at all and breaks the flow of the call. Disturbing.

 No.12718

>>12717
Why not combine 1 and 3?

 No.12719

>>12717
This is because of the original sin & fall of man.

 No.12721 KONTRA

>>12718
I already explained it in the post. I'll try to break it down even more for you.

Let's see what happens if we do as you suggested. Let's combine 1 and 3:
1. R: [Initial answer + acknowledgement] -> C: *Confirms R's identity, knows that R can transmit*
2. C: [Caller introduction] -> R: *Receives C's identity, knows that C can transmit and receive*
3. C: [Data] -> R: *Data transfer initiated*
...

No problem right? Wrong! It is never established that R can receive. If there is an issue with the line or the hardware of either party, C can spend resources transmitting data that is never received. C can only reliably expect R to reply after all the data has been transferred. Until then, it is only up to R to try to gauge if there is an issue (and hopefully inform C about it). That is an incredibly retarded protocol.

The three way handshake lets you efficiently establish the participants and their roles, as well as the quality of the line. Also flowing like a natural conversation, it allows room for pleasantries or other tone-setting which acts as a base for the discussion ahead.

>>12719
I thought Jesus gave his life so we could be free from bad phone etiquette. Why does this still happen?

 No.12722

>>12721
Your whole premise falls flat because the intention of your call is clear through you calling them in the first place.
But you just had to make a boomer tier tantrum out of it.

 No.12723 KONTRA

>>12722
lmaoing @ u :DDDDDD

 No.12724

>>12721
>Why does this still happen?
The answer is clear: gracelessness.

 No.12725

>>12721
>It is never established that R can receive
What is this assbörger shit :DD
If the phone quality is fugged or you can't hear the person calling, you can address it on the spot. There's no point in pretending we are robots who must go through protocols to ensure a communication flow.
>C can spend resources transmitting data that is never received
This may be the issue. A couple of sentences might not seem like much for a functional human, but it takes herculean effort for a Pekka. I need to be tolerant and accepting of different cultural standards and say you have a point and that phone calls in Finland should go through in another manner. I would even advise that every 5th minute of a phone call taking place between Finnish numbers is followed by a loud 'beep' - indicating that both Finno-Ugric participants may take a break to recharge their social energies. Sadly, we do not live in a perfect world - I would advise changing your own behavior.

R: "Hello this is assburger support group, how may I help you?"
C: "Hello, I'm Pekka - please confirm that you hear me in a satisfactory manner :DDD t. Pekka"
R: "Yes, how many I help you?"
C: [discusses problems]

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>>12713
Ach Ernst...

 No.12727 KONTRA

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>>12725
Why are you turning this into a joke? It's a simple issue of human decency and basic social skills when conveying information over low-fidelity technology.

>If the phone quality is fugged or you can't hear the person calling, you can address it on the spot.

Sure, but it's completely up to one party. How long are you to wait before you start asking if the other party is there? If you think about it, you'll be running into all kinds of scenarios where the party responsible for addressing it reacts too slow, too fast or not at all. All of which are terrible faux-pas and could be resolved by following the proper etiquette.

>There's no point in pretending we are robots who must go through protocols to ensure a communication flow.

Nigga you disregard all other social norms as well to prove you're not a robot? A business partner comes up to introduce themselves to you. Instead of introducing yourself and shaking their hand, you hand them a document of the BoM of leather shoes and state that the minimum order is 500 pairs? Who's the assburger here? It's not about being a robot. Just common courtesy to make sure everything is in order to begin discussions. It's not even necessary to add any information, just split it into three steps and not two. The step itself carries the information.

You even fuck up your example by having the repetition with "how may I help you" and having pointless information. The reception is confirmed by the third step.

Here, I fixed it for you:
R: "Hello this is assburger support group"
C: "Hello, I'm Pekka the burger"
R: "Hello Pekka, how many I help you?"
C: "I was on the EC and Ernesto was being a typical Southener again, please help me educate him."

Bliss. It's a conversation. A dialogue. A back-and-forth. Not a monologue as soon as someone answers the phone.

>>12724
Yeah. Now I get it.

 No.12728 KONTRA

I like how the post dynamic between finn and porto is almost the same as between two germans.
In fact, had the finn post been posted by a german, it would have probably taken less than 5 minutes for the self-hating german to show up and post something like "I am so sorry you have to see this" and/or act all smug about how it's not a problem at all.

 No.12729 KONTRA

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Problems would have been solved if people would have actually worked at a hotline just long enough to know what it is like on the other end instead of conducting boomer science.

>>12728
>"I am so sorry you have to see this"

That is the German who thinks Germany is something to celebrate and cannot stand when I say something bad about Germany or Germans.

 No.12730 KONTRA

>>12729
>That is the German who thinks Germany is something to celebrate and cannot stand when I say something bad about Germany or Germans.
Coming from the German who hates Germany and cannot stand when someone does not say something bad about Germany or Germans.

 No.12731

>>12727
>over low-fidelity technology
How bad is it really? In how many of these calls did you have to reposition yourself or go somewhere else?
>Sure, but it's completely up to one party. How long are you to wait before you start asking if the other party is there?
At this part of the post, I was in joy imagining a Finn hearing nothing but garbled static and patiently waiting until they have finished speaking to say that the connection isn't good.
>or not at all
Then I realized I was thinking as a dirty southerner, was overcome with happiness considering a shy Finn hearing nothing but incomprehensible white noise and before he knows it - the call is over. He wouldn't even call back, knowing how they are. Maybe in previous decades, crucial phone calls were missed, leaving one person believing the message was delivered and another in anxiety as they hoped the call wasn't too important. The 90s were probably full of these situations.

But really, there is a point you have here about not wanting someone to begin their monologue. Maybe it was your way of writing it down using TCP that made me averse towards it, fugging assborger.

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>>12731
>How bad is it really? In how many of these calls did you have to reposition yourself or go somewhere else?
You're forgetting bad (wireless) headphones, headphone mute settings, holding the phone wrong, etc. But it's not even about this really. If we assume 100% technical success, the etiquette is simply worth it for cordial business relations.

>Maybe it was your way of writing it down using TCP that made me averse towards it, fugging assborger.

I used the most straight-to-point analogue there was. The TCP handshake has three parts, not one less, not one more. Just as God intended. It is perfect. However, it was clear that I was not getting through to you with logic. So I tried to help you understand by painting mental imagery and cute stories. It is a distressing thought that not too long ago such a person roamed my (big) city streets.

 No.12733 KONTRA

>>12730
The Good Centrist™.

 No.12734

Lobotomy surgery was very popular and fashionable in USA in 50-s. In USSR it was banned.

Someone should write "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" about dilating and hair inside neovagina.

 No.12735 KONTRA

>>12734
With how obsessed you are with trannies, I advise you to visit another board where you might find more like-minded people than here: www.4chan.org

 No.12736 KONTRA

>>12734
Why are people like you so obsessed with trans people?

 No.12737 KONTRA

>>12735
>>12736

There is new evidence that Germans are not individuals.

 No.12738

>>12735
> obsessed
Two posts are not "obsessed"

> like minded people on 4chan

I'm 4channer for criticizing medical industry mafia performing horrible atrocities on poor confused people. In 50-s conformists such as you would call me communist for criticizing lobotomy.

 No.12739 KONTRA

>>12738
>I'm 4channer for criticizing medical industry mafia
No you're 4channer because you are annoying people with that shit.
I don't care for trannies, I am not interested in trannies and I don't want to hear about trannies, from anyone.
Now leave, durak.

 No.12741

>>12739
Why mentioning this group of people makes you THIS mad?
What do you have against them?

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>>12738
Ach Eugen Jr., you bring up "mental illnesses" of the west all the time, frequently it has to do with trans people. You don't even live in the west, why do you care, let alone on EC? Do you feel threatened by these people? My only explanation why you live out this obession with us who have to suffer from your fixations.

 No.12744

>>12742
Why are you trying so hard to delegitimatize mentioning certain topics?

I know the answer but I would like to hear what you think about your motivation

 No.12745 KONTRA

>>12744
Not him because he will only deflect, but see >>12666

 No.12746 KONTRA

>>12744
Why should I answer your questions if you openly avoid answering ours? Do you think I don't notice you avoid answering our questions? Not sure what reason your obsession with "Western degeneracy" and other media abstractions actually is but it seems like you are not ready to talk about your mental problems with us but hide beyond these posts.

 No.12747 KONTRA

>>12729
>Taxiteller
Pfuideibel sowas können echt nur so richtige Alman-Achims fressen. Deutsches Essen ist so ein ekelhafter Dreck, Deutschland ist ein Drecksland. Hoffentlich geht die Umvolkung schnell, dieses Drecksvolk ist zu vernichten.

 No.12748 KONTRA

>>12747
Schwanzloser Pfosten ist schwanzlos. NRW und innovative Griechen auf die Eins, kulinarische Vollfersagertrottel raus aus DE.

 No.12749

>>12745
Well, this topic is often used in political rhetoric such as debates between parties but I don't think that makes discussion of the topic inherently political. And let's not make it political.

>>12746
OK, if you insist.
> why do you care, let alone on EC?
I'm in general curios person and can care about impractical things. I guess that's my brain chemistry (high level of serotonin)
However in this particular case there is one more reason. I'm seeing something which is obviously and blatantly wrong and don't understand how can certain people and institutions defend it. It's a mystery to me, a cognitive dissonance.
I think this practice deals a lot of damage to people with gender dysphoria but to be honest I'm not an activist. Unlike anorectal poster, I'm not trying to change the world with my post, because that's not my problem tbh.

> Do you feel threatened by these people?

No.

 No.12750

>>12749
>if you insist

God forbid you will be pressed to not shitpost for once, I'm sorry for straining you bebe.


>I'm seeing something which is obviously and blatantly wrong and don't understand how can certain people and institutions defend it.


Some people think it helps some people not feel like shit anymore.
Case closed. Another productive day on the EC.

 No.12752

>>12739
>>12750
>>12748
Hello Koti.
You are on the wrong board. ERNSTCHAN.XYZ is your board. Leave ERSTCHAN.TOP alone please.

 No.12753

>>12749
Have you tried asking one directly. They're not hard to find on the internet.
Or really engage with the topic from any source OTHER than the right wing politico-schizo komplex?

You're looking at screenshots of a screenshot of a screenshots of made up posts on social media, made by tranny obsessed schizos and internet influencers, and then pretending to be confused. "HUH???? WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS???? WHY DOES ANYONE THINK THIS IS NORMAL???!!!!???".
Reminds me of how old people constantly fall for hoaxes distributed on Whatsapp because they take everything they read on the internet at face value.

100 years ago you'd be wondering why people think it's acceptable to let the evil jews seduce and corrupt innocent white women.

 No.12754 KONTRA

Today was okay. I spent some more time just thinking about the presentation. I really don't like the current book I picked to read. I'm gonna power through the rest of it still.

I walked to the pharmacy to buy iron supplements.
Wanted to go to the library initially but since it was so late due to me staying up again that I just simply opted to waste some time at home instead.
Played some video games. I'm like 85 hours into Persona 5. I ought to write some about it at some point for the video games thread, but I really want to finish it.

My sister was very nice to me. She had some überspecial coupon for some chicken nuggets and she brought me some home. I don't think I ever had more than like 6 pieces of chicken nuggets at once. Like seeing 18 of them in a pile IRL is s odd. I felt like the richest man in the world and then like halfway through I felt a bit full. Then I thought about this short story we read in high school, where a poor peasant is invited to the wedding of a local kulak and he decides to eat as much as he can as revenge and then he feels full after the first course. He decided to power through regardless, out of sheer spite, only to choke on a bone as he starts throwing up afterwards.
Remembering this moral to the story, I decided to still eat all of them because I felt compelled to not allow it to go to waste even if it was only like 2.50 for all of them. It's not about the money. And not about sending a message. I don't even know what it was all about. Maybe the chili-cheese sauce.

I reserved two books at the library and gonna pick them up tomorrow. The East Asian Institute's is only open for 2 hours a week (no, not two days, two hours) so I have to book it in advance and be really precise when I get there to pick my shit up, but since I know the librarian well, I can get basically infinite extensions on shit unlike with the central library.
Also wanted to borrow a copy of a Derrida book but it's currently on loan to someone and they only have this one borrowable copy.
I need to read more.

>>12704
Could be, but usually a bout of mania manifests itself differently for me. It's an obsession. I find a topic that somehow gets me hooked, and then I spend weeks obsessively thinking about it, reading about it, scrolling the web, looking at photos etc.
I don't feel like I have anything that occupies my thoughts like that. I'm not in an ever-expanding loop of thoughts.

>>12706
I asked for therapy but I didn't get any.
Currently I have multiple theories as to what could have caused this switch to occur.
Maybe it's the magnesium pills I took for my foot. Or it could be that I haven't a care in the world while also having some pocket change left.
Or, the third theory is that I just found the depiction of an efficient, everyday life in Persona so motivating and the plot so captivating that it ended up having a positive impact on me. Which sounds cringe as fuck now that I wrote it down, but I think it's a legitimate possibility regardless.
(Oh wow, how exciting, the power of art curing a man's soul.)

Also, maybe talking to friends and bouncing my thoughts off them was also helpful, but that wasn't a catalyst for the change, it just followed afterwards.

 No.12755 KONTRA

>>12748
t. Alman-Achim.

 No.12756 KONTRA

>>12753
Glad that we are so much more advanced today than 100 years ago

 No.12757 KONTRA

>>12753
Brick is a trans ally, whoda thunk?

 No.12758

>>12752
I'm just a curious person with high serotonin levels. Something a schizo like you will never experience and it breaks my heart 💔.

 No.12760

>>12756
I read this chart as every aspect of pornography and & hookup culture is white. White people make money with our white feelings. I was devastated to find out just now, please everyone: share my post with every other white person you know. So we can stop the violence brought upon us.

 No.12763 KONTRA

>>12757
That's not quite an alliance when you discard trans people's experience as "just a screenshot" and frame anyone bringing it up as antisemitic conspiracy theorist.

I think, I've got an answer to my questions. People defend these atrocities because the issue is politicized that much, so criticizing the surgeries is seen as playing for the other side in the "culture wars". Maybe in 30 years, when the dust settles, people will look at it more soberly.

 No.12765

>>12763
If you are so interested in trans peoples' experiences on reddit, just go to any of the LGBT or trans subreddits and ask them lol.

The issue isn't even that it's a screenshot, or that it's from reddit, it's that you get your information from tertiary ragebait material curated and shared by people who openly hate the group in question.
If you want to know what exactly is wrong with this method of forming an opinion on a topic, just go on any of the western clickbait twitter or telegram channels about the war in ukraine and try to form an opinion about what russians are like based on the content posted there.

 No.12766 KONTRA

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>>12765
If the title hadn't already been changed recently, I'd suggest: /int/ - tertiary ragebait material

 No.12767

>>12763
>Maybe in 30 years, when the dust settles, people will look at it more soberly.
Maybe, maybe not. Maybe it'll take longer despite psychiatry being this almost pseudoscience of ever changing concepts. In terms of lobotomy, its criticisms are more due to the methods than about the theoretical basis behind it. In some sense, high doses of sedatives and antipsychotics are a chemical "lobotomy". If conceptually you are right, I don't see the profession admitting they've made such catastrophic mistakes and irreparably damaged so many people. If the *science* changes, I think it'll just drop out of fashion progressively.

 No.12768

>>12767
Psychiatry does not attempt to create a model of human beings, or establish some kind of ground "truth".
It is only concerned with developing treatments, such that the patient has a better outcome than if they hadn't taken the treatment.

"Better outcome" here means functioning better in society, feeling better subjectively, and not dying or killing someone.

 No.12769 KONTRA

>>12768
Was this post supposed to clear psychiatry of accusations of quackery or pseudoscientifcal practice? No medical science is concerned with universal truths, none of them are ever exact sciences.

 No.12770

>>12769
You might be thinking of psychology.

 No.12771 KONTRA

>>12770
What field were Freud and Jung? That's the one I guess.

 No.12772

>>12770
Nope, it isn't a legitimate and bonafide medical degree that clears someone of practicing pseudoscience. If anything, more rigor and scrutiny should be reserved to psychiatry over psychology given its mission statement and practices.

 No.12773

>>12771
Psychoanalysis.
Not to be confused with psychotherapy.

>>12772
You might be thinking of psychotherapy.

 No.12774 KONTRA

>>12773
The state of serious discussions.

 No.12775


 No.12777

A friend of mine is... I think she's pyschotherapist now. She explained to e a dozen times what's the difference between those titles, and it might be different in other countries, but as far as I recall it psychologist was low-tier, psychotherapist was an upgraded pyschologist, and psychiatrist is god-tier and the only one being able to prescribe medication 'n shiet.

 No.12778

>>12758
>person with high serotonin levels
>and it breaks my heart

Koti embarrassing himself once again.

 No.12779

>>12777
So they differ in what they learn and what skills they acquire or just in legal comptences?
Because everyone (yes, EVERYONE) can go to Heilpraktiker school and be able to prescribe drugs.
But it's funny how there's apparently some kind of pecking order between psycho types, who of all people should be beyond such petty shittery.

 No.12780

>>12779
>So they differ in what they learn and what skills they acquire or just in legal comptences?
Yes, there is a difference, but I can't remember the details. I think you become pyschologist simply by graduating from university, then you can become psychotherapist with some education update, and I think there was a considerable amount of time you have to invest for that. A psychatrist is basically surgeon tier, they can prescribe meds and I think they also are heard in court cases when it's about whether the culprit has a few screws loose. I don't know what you need to become one, though.
>But it's funny how there's apparently some kind of pecking order between psycho types
Don't know if that actually happens, but since a lot of people are quite class conscious, I suppose those guys aren't much different.

 No.12781

>>12775
What are you trying to tell me?
In the post before it I specifically mentioned how psychiatry is differentiated by requiring completion of a medical degree. Do write down what you're trying to communicate.

 No.12782 KONTRA

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>>12781
It'll require serious creative effort to concoct a nice colorful story around these concepts x---D

 No.12783

>>12780
> they can prescribe meds and I think they also are heard in court cases when it's about whether the culprit has a few screws loose.
As I said, prescribing drugs means shit if a Heilpraktiker can do that, too.
And giving medical opinions is a thing with psychiatrists. From what I could gather it's one of the most bias sensitive kind of evaluation possible, and I doubt that will change until we can actually look inside people's minds.
Interesting to know nonetheless, I was always under the impression that psychology is basically the "basic research" on which the medical application build, like, using your analogy, anatomy is for the surgeon.

 No.12784

>>12781
Well, you should have used punctuation properly.
>Nope, it isn't a legitimate and bonafide medical degree that clears someone of practicing pseudoscience.
Help my uncle jack off a horse, etc.

I fail to see how psychiatry is any more pseudoscirntific than any other field of medicine that deals mostly with biochemistry. The methodologies are exactly the same.
Apply treatment on a sample population -> assess quality of life improvements -> go through approval process.

Especially considering that gender dysphoria treatment is an outlier in that it has a way higher success rate than any other psychiatric treatment.

 No.12785

>>12783
Dunno about Germany or what a Hellpraktiker is,but here there are several sorts of drugs that only psychiatrists are able to prescribe.

 No.12786

>>12784
>it isn't a legitimate and bonafide medical degree that clears someone of practicing pseudoscience
No realyl, go ahead. Tell me where a comma is missing and how the meaning is changed, I insist.

 No.12787 KONTRA

>>12786
Minor typo, it's over.

 No.12788

>>12786
Well maybe not punctuation, but syntax.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Garden-path_sentence

 No.12789 KONTRA

>>12788
At least now it's grammatically correct. Interesting article though, can't really see how it's applicable to what I wrote but at least there's that. It's alright, I misread things too at times.

 No.12790 KONTRA

>>12785
A "Heilpraktiker" is some kind of voodoo doctor job that, legally, is "practicing healing methods who is not an approbated physician or psychotherapist" and the training is laughable because you don't need any kind of degree or medical experience whatsoever, so any bricklayer or meter maid can do it.
They also don't acquire any actual medical knowledge, but after passing the exam, you can prescribe drugs (though I think not narcotics) like a real physician.

 No.12791

ALL THAT ASIDE.

I think rotationplasty should be banned because it is an offense against god's design, and people with irreparable damage between the knee and the ankle should just get an amputation and use crutches like normal people, instead of turning themselves into mutilated freaks.

 No.12792

>>12791
They should be put down like horses. Stalin did the right thing when he had all the most hideous amputees removed from premises after the great patriotic war. Their sight did nothing but spoil victory for the population. Who wants to see a human maggot with no legs or arms crawl down the street on his way to work? It's disgusting and dispiriting.

 No.12793

>>12790
Why is Germany the powerhouse of medical quackery? A people that have this international reputation of being very pragmatic are actually mostly the worst stereotype of hippies. There was a house not far from where I lived where these 'yoga retreats' were held. In practice it was just home rental+spiritual guest in the form of a yokel who had really perfected this crafted image of being someone mystic and in touch with nature. He would sell liters upon liters of extremely expensive tiny essential oils bottles to these foreigners who'd gush at the pristine and oh so lush nature around them! The forests and the beaches! Tricked, the whole area was as artificial and non-natural as a protected region could be but this crafty hustle definitely helped the local economy.

>>12791
Classic brick, unsuccessful in dragging something through the minefields of linguistic autism, he falls back on shadow boxing imaginary statements.

In comparison to other medical fields (and all of which are at their core social sciences), psychiatry still carries greater issues of falsifiability. The reason why I call psychiatry an almost pseudoscience and not actual slander it as one is that in careful reading, the profession presents itself accurately and unlike homeopaths, they don't lie about is and isn't scientifically backed. As previously stated :DDDDDDD, psychiatry is a medical profession and it carries all the patina associated with medical science. In this country, I would say psychiatry is even seen as more prestigious work than a good chunk of other medical professions. And as a side note, this nation of mine received only one medical Nobel and it was in the branch of Psychiatry.
Psychiatry departs from other medical branches in that by its very nature - from necessities in demarking the lines between the sick and the ill, by the hidden nature of mental illness and especially that, unlike with a knee tumor, a mental diagnosis is generally unfalsifiable. They can be questioned and often are, professionals will come away with different diagnoses and debate them like any other medical professional but without the same ability to put their personal theories to the knife as they would a dispute related to the existence of tumors in your knees would. In regards to the anti-Christian horrors of rotationplasty, I'll say that it's generally the practical application of psychiatry that rests on more sturdy ground. As I understand it, the theoretical understanding of bipolarity has been entirely overhauled since the 1940s but lithium is still the go-to cure. Politicization definitely harms this field, and renders any discussion of it very difficult. The pseudoscientific side of psychiatry reveals itself when the ideological will defends irreversible practices as the default and obvious solution to an increasingly commonly diagnosis with the certainty and smugness of a literate man telling a superstitious peasant that human activity has indeed impacted the world around us.
>Maybe in 30 years, when the dust settles, people will look at it more soberly.

 No.12794

>>12793
I think no country has been hit as hard by the hippie movement as Germany.
The susceptibility to being the most righteous (or at being perceived as such) at any time, plus the culture of sheepism (which is still exactly the same as it was 100 years ago), coupled with a mindset of going in the opposite direction of nazism in the younger people at that time (being those who are in power right now), plus those people being directly influenced by left-wing ideas (with communism being ironically not natural and mystic at all) plus homeopathy being rediscovered in Germany (ironically by the nazis) certainly were major factors in all the new-age bullshit being able to gain such a strong foothold here. Chernobyl finally broke those people's - or those already on the way's - minds entirely.
And that's just the leftist-green side, there's a whole side of "völkisch" hippies who use new age techniques to lessen the jewish influence and remove toxins from their bodies they get from chemtrails and such.

Germans are, at their core, a very passionate people, which is that when they (i.e. the leadership telling them to) set their mind on something they go all in.
80 years ago it was being the best at world domination, today it's being the best at environment stuff.
God, imagine what could be if the Germans ever got a sensible government.

 No.12795

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Reading Phillip Dick's biography today:
> The boy was five years old when his parents separated on the initiative of Dorothy, whom the psychotherapist assured that the child would not suffer because of the divorce (Dick would complain about this all his life).

>>12773
Psychotherapy includes psychoanalytic schizery and recognizes it as a valid method, which doesn't add trust to this discipline. However, other methods such as CBT and Gestalt therapy seem more reasonable.
So I think that it might be a good thing but you should take it with a grain of salt.
t. going to psychotherapist this Sunday. I hope this won't make me as obnoxious as that one German.

 No.12796

>>12794
I paid 10$ for an online course about modern religions. Next lecture is "Druids, redwoods and green magic: ecological religions". Gonna listen about my sweet Germies.

 No.12798

>>12793
Like with any other medical field, the purpose of psychiatry is to prevent early death, and improve quality of life.
The lack of a comprehensive theory / model is only relevant in so far as this lack hinders the development of treatments. You do not need the germ theory of disease to observe that washing your hands before surgery increases survival rates. Refusing to wash hands because there is no model, despite demonstrable benefit, would be idiotic.

Confirming that there is a tumor in someone's knee by putting them to the knife is well and good, as well as studying tumors, their classification, cause and development. But the relevant question remains: whether or not to cut it off. To make that decision, all you need to know is whether the tumor is causing the patient pain, and if it's going to kill them.

As for the question of whether this or that procedure is good or bad, in the absolute sense, and what people will think of it in 30 years, that is also irrelevant. Is it good to treat syphilis with mercury? Is it good to treat a broken femur with amputation? Depends on whether you're asking 30 years before or after a better treatment was developed.

All this limp wristed epistemological navel gazing is just a cowardly excuse for fence sitting. Nobody's going to wait until there's a rigorous model of the human mind, or even 30 years for some kind of hypothetical better method, when they can just get their genitals rearranged and move on with their lives contributing to the linux kernel or whatever those people do.

The only thing politicized about this issue is the question of whether you want to prevent people from getting the only so far known viable treatment, because of a bunch of abstract idealistic faff, be it dishonest appeals to perceivedly unsatisfactory scientific standards, or honest appeals to muh culture & muh god.
With the smugness of someone who has to chime in on an issue that has long reached overwhelming consensus among people it is directly relevant to, because it became the latest subject of media spectacle for people to vacuously comment on from the sidelines.

 No.12799

>>12795
>>12777
A psychologist is a propagandist pretending to be a scientist. They're a lot like economists in that way.
A psychotherapist is a rent-a-friend for the socially alienated upper middle class. You could classify them as a professional entertainer / performer.
A psychiatrist is someone you have to trick into giving you drugs for an illness you self-diagnosed on the internet. So they're basically a government official responsible for granting licenses for government controlled stuff, about similar category as a driving examiner.

 No.12800

Also, gotta roll my eyes when someone uses the word "irreversible procedure", in some kinda hysterial emotional appeal disguised as deep goncern.

An appendectomy is an irreversible procedure, so fucking what. Getting dental fillings is irreversible.
shut the fuck up lmao

 No.12801

>>12778
Did you lose a bet or are you really that retarded involuntarily? My high serotonin will not kill empathy for mentally crippled people like you.

>>12767
>ever changing concepts.

It's not like concepts change in all sciences but whatever. It would be worrying if concepts not change at all tbh.

 No.12802 KONTRA

>>12798
>The lack of a comprehensive theory / model is only relevant in so far as this lack hinders the development of treatments. You do not need the germ theory of disease to observe that washing your hands before surgery increases survival rates. Refusing to wash hands because there is no model, despite demonstrable benefit, would be idiotic.
Shitty examples. A proper analogy would be more akin to miasma theory and wearing a plague mask filled with herbs to protect oneself from germs.

>Getting dental fillings is irreversible.

Irreversible in which way? Fillings can fall out.

You are being very silly again, I suspect you stopped taking your pills? Not that I would read your posts, maybe you wrote it somewhere lol

 No.12803

>>12802
Some tooth material needs to be removed to fill them.
Teeth don't grow back
Retard

 No.12804 KONTRA

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>>12802
Neopenis also can fall out.
horrible joke, sorry you had to see this

But seriously, it can fall out. Because it's basically a tube made from leg skin attached to surgically reworked vagina.

 No.12805 KONTRA

Today was a pleasant day. I added the books I've recently read onto my list and worked on my powerpoint presentation a bit.

I went to the city to pick up the books I've reserved. I boarded the bus and I ran into the professor who taught my Chinese philosophy this semester. He was going to university to conduct an examination. We discussed the progress of my research regarding hydraulic society and so on.

At the library I spent some time looking at this Japanese textbook I wanted to borrow to satiate my curiosity but I realised taking it home would be pointless, because while it's made for use by Sinologists, it's in essence nothing more than a collection of glossaries and texts with translations to help you ease into reading about Chinese topics in Japanese.

Also talked about random stuff with the librarian and asked her if she would be so kind as to read my translation of a Chinese short story if I were to produce it. She seemed intrigued by the fact that I picked something modern and relatively "obscure" in Hungary.

On the way home I decided to grab a bite to eat and then went home. Thought some more about the powerpoint. I should be done with it by Sunday I think.
Things are going well. Tomorrow I'm going to the central library to study and read.

Btw pls take the Troondiscussion to the "Let me show you how retarded I am" thread. The both of you.

 No.12806 KONTRA

>>12803
Your teeth have been rotting away before that, and preparing the already rotten teeth for getting fillings is still not making fillings an irreversible process.
The irreversible process started when you drank too much sweet shit and brushed not enough.
You thirdies really need EVERYTHING laid out to you in the simplest way....

 No.12808

>>12794
Germans are cucked enviro-green leftist homos.

Muh environment bullshit is a form of cuckery. They want
It also leads to eating soy, which makes the enviro-green weaklings even more . Once they eat the soy, it permanently aters their hormonal balance, and there is no way they will ever go back to normal, the hormones in soy basically change the gender of their !!

But will soon get a sensible government and do away with the leftist-green government. ✔️ The are waking up.

Then, the can be stripped from their citizenship and voting rights, and sensible policies will be introduced, like

- no more support for corrupt Russian break-away province, stop wasting our
- no more EU-bullshit, DEXIT, end return of the DM
- no more environment-retardation with fucking bike paths everywhere, good roads ️️
- stop propaganda in , feed children healthy
- deport all the
- end the in , no more homosexual pedophiles teaching so-called sex-ed even in kindergartens. Castrate the child fuckers! Kinderficker kastrrieren ‼️‼️‼️‼️(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

 No.12809 KONTRA

It's only natural that the next wave of German fascism will come with emoji spam. Dialectical.

 No.12810 KONTRA

>>12809
Idiots love using emojis, what did you expect?

 No.12811

>>12809
Emojis are a more advanced form of communicating, transmitting information directly through visual images. He is a man of future.

>>12810
🤡🤡🤡

 No.12812

>>12811
I unironically think this has a truth to it that cannot be denied. 🔬 ✅

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmlJveN9IkI

 No.12813

>>12809
The right wing German "alternative" media(entrepreneur) bubble (which is quite big) loves to use emojis.

 No.12814

>>12813
Here it's usually manicurist entrepreneurs and hookah bars who use emojis THAT heavily

👧 👩‍🦰 👱‍♀️ девочки, записываемся 📝 на ноготочки!💅💅💅

 No.12815

>>12813
Good thing I avoid all so-called "social media" (as any reasonable person does).

 No.12816

>>12815
No, it's not a good thing.🙅‍♂️
Social media are what philosophers of the past dreamed of -- the noosphere 🌐, the demigodly entity 🪬 which unites people🧑‍🤝‍🧑 into a collective consciousness.
You avoid it because you're misanthropic lifehater😠.
Go to therapy. 👉👨‍⚕️

 No.12817


 No.12818 KONTRA

Adding random 火鍋 hanzi 漢字 to my post 解放 to make 心理 it seem like it's a vaporwave 政治 album.

 No.12819

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Ban identity affirming irreversible surgery

 No.12820

>>12819
Going on EC and seeing posts directed to the public that read like the complaints of a scorned lover.

 No.12821 KONTRA


 No.12823

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>>12820
BAN 👏
IDENTITY 👏
AFFIRMING 👏
PERMANENT 👏
PERPETUAL 👏
EVERLASTING 👏
FOREVER AND EVER 👏
LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER 👏
IRREVERSIBLE 👏
IRREPARABLE 👏
IRREVOCABLE 👏
IRREMEDIABLE 👏
IDENTITY AFFIRMING 👏
SURGERY 👏

 No.12826

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Announcer:
"(Irreversible) Quad Damage!!!111"

 No.12828


 No.12829 KONTRA

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IRREVERSIBLE PROPERTY DAMAGE!

 No.12830 KONTRA

>>12815
Darling, tell me again that you only have a smartphone because of your family and otherwise would have banned that devilish device from our existence. 💦💦💦

 No.12831


 No.12832 KONTRA

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>>12831
great song nigga

 No.12833

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This thread lacks German posts. I will do my service now. Won't happen again, I promise.

 No.12834 KONTRA

>>12830
Do you have any actual arguments or will you just continue being smug for no reason?

 No.12835

>>12823
Poor examples.
Unnecessary circumcisions are committed almost on every male in Muslim & Judaic countries, USA and South Korea why?. There are lot of negative side effects, and the only ones who benefit are medical industry.
As for cosmetic surgeries, they more often bogdanoffy people than make them more attractive.

 No.12838 KONTRA

>>12834
I don't think there is a need to argue about your moral integrity and general superiority.

 No.12839

>>12835
>As for cosmetic surgeries, they more often bogdanoffy people than make them more attractive.

Proofs? My guess would be that we don't notice many of the surgeries performed on people because they are rather minor. The extremes are just more visible. Just think of all the nose jobs you probably never noticed because they simply fall in line with beauty standards instead of deviating from it by overdoing it.

 No.12840

>>12839
True, well-done plastic surgery is just for evening out irregularities, but those that overdo it, overdo it horribly, and often so unnecessary.
Take Emily Blunt, a beautiful woman, with really attractive armpits and a beautiful smile.
There was absolutely no reason at all for her to get lifted, she's only 40 or something.
On the other hand, Salma Hayek and Monica Bellucci most certainly had something done, but you wouldn't notice.

 No.12841

I did some more editing and research today. Found two potentially promising books. Started assembling the bibliography.
Finally got a frame for the Chinese calligraphy I have. It will look nice on the wall once I find a spot for it.

My father was cleaning out some stuff at my mother's request. We found an old iPod among the masses of cables and I took it into my care out of utter fascination. The battery holds an okay charge, but the hard drive is fucking dead because I can hear it click when I try to restore it.
Looking it up, it wouldn't be all that hard to just fix it myself. Just need to pop it open, pull out the drive and then insert an media-card interface thingy and then an SD card ultimately. Seems like a fun little summer project. I wonder if my father would find it cool that I fixed it on my own.

I stayed home and did work here because I washed my hair and I didn't want to risk catching a cold in the wind if I fail to dry like a random spot or curl.
Though I do realise that this is a cope on my part mostly. The reality is that there were no groceries at home and I didn't want to eat out, so I just made do with some coffee and two slices of bread.

My sleep was very troubled for the past two or so days. It's not even that I had odd dreams. I sort of enjoy having odd dreams because whenever I happen to remember one it always gets me in an interpretative mood. Why way my brain fascinated with this?
No, this is just rolling around and feeling like I'm in an oven on a ship.
Maybe it's the winds.

Got a letter about Erasmus scholarships. Gonna read it tomorrow. I'm still determined to spend some time abroad for my own sake.
I'm honestly feeling motivated. It's about me. I need to do something small every day instead of waiting for a manic phase to save me.
It feels like I'm nearing a breakthrough of sorts. It's time to re-read Zarathustra.

Though I also realised that apparently nobody notices my joy because nobody knows I was in despair. Like I'd be a jumbled mess from stress and they'd tell me "Ach, Ernst really is in control all the time. He never looses his cool."

I also got a new short story idea. It's funny. Absurd. I have it jotted down. I will probably write it someday.

>>12840
>really attractive armpits
What?

 No.12842 KONTRA

>>12838
What is this projection? Are you actually able to make any kind of sense or did the app abuse fry all your braincells already? SAD!

 No.12864 KONTRA

>>12842
I think you understood me just right and if you really don't then this is your problem, not mine.



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